Diary of a Kinky Librarian

My bottom’s still sore and I have some lovely red welts on my ass. Not too bad really, not compared to the huge, ugly bruise that Davey has on his thigh from falling off a ladder last weekend. Poor thing. And at least I had fun getting my bruises. Still, I’m not used to spankings where I still hurt the next day. I’ve had very few spankings where I’ve been bruised (at least before I met MasterDoc). I once lent my ass to a spanking demonstration at an all-women play party and I might have ended up a little bruised from that. And there was one time I played with a sub friend (who I’ve totally lost touch with) at a bdsm club and she gave me a good thrashing in front of a crowd. Yesterday MasterDoc and I talked about the idea of subspace, and how I don’t really quite get there with him as of yet. I can only remember a couple of times in my life really getting to that blissful point – one was from a long spanking from a boyfriend, the other was that beating at the bdsm club. I felt all weak in the knees and like I was on drugs after each of those times, and it was a wonderful feeling. I remember after the spanking from the boyfriend, I was so in the mood for him to do absolutely anything to me afterwards, but I was sorely disappointed when he didn’t. I would have loved if he had just taken me there and then on the bed, my sore ass against the sheets. Now that would have been hot.

I spent the day doing errands and relaxing at home. I got horny at one point and used my bullet vibe on my clit (because as you know, the dildo is off limits right now while I heal) and gave myself two orgasms – I squirted during the second one and thankfully I had the foresight to put down a towel before I started. I’m premenstrual, so I’m starting to get hornier – figures I can’t have sex just now! I’m hoping that my pussy is all healed before that comes along because I really like using a menstrual cup, but I’d have to switch to god-awful pads if I can’t put anything inside me. *pout*

Most of the time I’m comfortable with my sexuality and accept and even embrace my kinks. But every now and then I ponder to myself how I ended up doing some of the things I do. And why I enjoy it whereas a portion of the population would think it was sick. As I left MasterDoc’s yesterday I looked at each person who passed me on the sidewalk and wondered what that person would think if they knew that I had bruises on my ass from a good spanking. I figured that a percentage would be freaked out and think I’m a sicko, a percentage would be accepting even though it’s not something they’d want to do, and a percentage would smile, knowing how enjoyable bdsm play can be. Of course, you have no way of knowing looking at a person which of the three they’d be. After all, Davey seems totally innocent and average in his day to day life, but meanwhile he’s keen to go to more swing parties with me, to see MasterDoc dom me and we’ve had sex in public at a swing party. I think most people wouldn’t suspect me either, as I’ve been told various times that I have an innocent face.

I wonder what it is that makes some people wired for kink and others not. Or is it a natural human turn-on that’s just repressed by a large portion of the population? Just as I find it hard to fathom someone not being bisexual (after all, a sexy person is sexy, who cares what bits they have? It’s all fun.) I find it hard to fathom someone not wanting to dominate or be dominated. I can understand why some people aren’t into pain, but at the same time I can totally understand how pain can be an erotic experience. Anyway, this is just what’s going through my head today. I find myself wondering how I came to be the kinky person I am today, and even though I know it started way back in childhood, I still sometimes wonder if it’s okay that I am the way I am. Society likes to tell people that there’s some emotional imbalance expressing itself through this sort of stuff, but is that really true? At any rate, I can’t see myself stopping – I’m having too much fun!

I find myself sitting here, staring at the television rather than writing my blog. I’m tired. It’s been a busy day with MasterDoc. My butt bears the marks of a good paddling in the afternoon, and earlier in the day he dommed me in front of an audience again. I enjoyed myself of course, but I’m happy to be on vacation and planning on doing nothing but a few errands tomorrow.

This evening, I was so easily distractable that I kept finding myself watching tv and ignoring this open blog window. So I decided to do something different – I gave Davey a blow job. He was quite delighted to have me suddenly put my laptop down, insist he put his down, and then pull down his boxers and blow him. I decided to do something I haven’t done in years…

“Could you come from this,” I asked him, referring to the blow job.

“Yes, do you want me to?”

“Yes.” We ended up moving to the bedroom because my neck was hurting at the angle on the sofa, and I sucked for all I was worth. My neck got tired, and I had to use my hands for a little while instead, but when he said he was going to come I took his penis and put it in my mouth for the finale. Needless to say he had a wide grin after all this – my having him come in my mouth for the first time was totally unexpected. Yet again I rate as girlfriend of the year.

Anyway, back to my original blog entry. Maybe I can focus better now.

Today’s audience consisted of a man who had seen the last show and a new guest. MasterDoc had gotten me into the right mindset beforehand by giving me a good spanking over his lap. So when the guests arrived I was ready to be a slut. He talked to the men while I gave him a blow job.

After a little while, he had me lay down on the mat on the floor, face down. He spanked my ass some more and soon blindfolded me. I was wet already. He let me have my bullet vibe and lay on my back to give the guys a show by masturbating. He went into the next room and the return guest asked me what I was thinking. I honestly said that I was a little nervous, for some reason I still get nervous doing this in front of an audience. I don’t think this is a bad thing, just something that happens. A touch of stage fright as it were.

More spanking followed and my ass was up in the air while I kneeled with my head down. He took my butt plug, something which I had mentioned having and he requested I bring, and slid it into my ass (yes, he was kind enough to lube it up first). It felt so good. I kept playing with the bullet vibe while these men watched my pussy spread out before them. The return guest had to leave, so we were left with just the new guest. I had to suck MasterDoc’s cock again, this time without the blindfold and looking right at the remaining guest. He seemed to really enjoy watching me being a total slut.

MasterDoc decided to fuck me and he had me placed on the floor where the guy could hold my legs up and apart while he fucked me. It hurt a bit at first (more on that later) but soon my muscles relaxed and and I was begging to come. MasterDoc had me hold off for a little bit while he fucked me some more but finally he let me come. And I squirted (something I do only some of the time), he pulled out and fingered me some more and I came more, screaming loud. (He told me to be quiet and I did my best. When I used to frequent this one party, I was notorious for being the loudest one there.)

Show was over and our guest left. I got some cuddle time with MasterDoc and we tried having sex some more, but I’ve been sore for a few days now – it had been getting better but then started hurting again from being fucked today. I think it was due to my being a bit tender last weekend when the couple decided to shove a large dildo inside me without my being warmed up. (While they did lube it, it was much too large to shove inside me without any warm up whatsoever.) So we stopped and cuddled, and then had lunch. Since MasterDoc is actually a doctor he examined me a bit later and it seems I have a bit of a tear inside. Ugh. This means nothing in my pussy for at least five days so it can heal. A disappointment for a slut, but the fact is it hurts too much for me to want to put anything much in there right now.

Since fucking wasn’t on the plate anymore, MasterDoc decided to beat me just because he could, not as foreplay for once. He had me lay down on the bed and he got a bunch of implements and went to town on my ass. Most difficult to take was the large paddle, which smarted something terrible as he gave me ten swats on each already sore cheek. Tears came to my eyes and I felt close to crying. He had me kneel near the end of the bed and he used the heavy flogger on me. He even hit my upper back for the first time. I’m surprised I didn’t start crying at some point, but I was just teary-eyed. I couldn’t help but realize fully that he’s the one in control. And kinky slut that I am I enjoy this. He paddled me some more and my ass is still sore. I felt totally subdued afterwards. Another blow job, a little more cuddling and it was getting late. I got sent home, with big red marks on my ass.

Davey and I headed up into New England on Sunday. The weather was absolutely beautiful for a drive. The hotel turned out to be as nice as the four stars promised (and thanks to priceline we paid a two star price for the room. Whoo hoo.) with a cushy, king-sized bed littered with pillows (which of course we used for sex that afternoon). For dinner, we took the rental car out in search of an Irish pub but couldn’t find it. We discovered that street signs are spotty in Providence and some of the streets take odd turns. It turned out that walking there would be more practical so we returned the car to the hotel and set out on foot. Good thing too, as we would never have spotted the pub from the car. I had boxty for the first time and we both had beers (Davey had bangers and mash). We shared some dessert and I had a Bailey’s coffee. I really should have passed on the dessert and coffee as I was completely stuffed afterwards. Urgh. We hung out in the hotel for a few hours, digesting. Next we hit a couple of clubs that were having goth nights. Both places had few people there, but one was more gothy whereas the other was more industrial so we headed back to the gothy place until it closed. Both were within walking distance of the hotel so we drank much (four drinks each) and stumbled back to the hotel around 1. I was giddy and intoxicated and ended up IMing MasterDoc (who wasn’t online) and chatting with D.S. for a bit. D.S. commented that, even drunk, I’m a better speller than he is. Guess that’s not a skill for the ol’ resume though. *grin*

Davey was feeling worked up so we had sex again, this was possibly the first time we’ve been truly drunk during sex. (Usually one of us is doing the driving so we stay pretty sober. We mostly drink in moderation.) I don’t think I had an orgasm, probably due to being all sorts of drunk. We went to sleep around 3 am.

Today, we went to a museum and wandered downtown a bit more. Tonight, a seafood dinner as Davey is insisting he gets lobster while we’re in Rhode Island. Tomorrow, we head home.

(I’m chuckling to myself as I post this, as this post sounds like it’s just the “Cliff’s Notes” version of my time. I summarize and leave out the nuanced details much of the time.)

I’ve had a busy few days. I’m off this week and I started off my vacation with a night out with MasterDoc on Friday. We went back to the swing club, this time with a young lady who’s a friend of one of his other subs. The idea was to play with other couples there, but it ended up being a night where the three of us ended up playing with each other rather than with other people.

Pretty early in the night, MasterDoc got me on a mattress in a easily visible area and dommed me, slapping my pussy and getting me to go down on him. He put clothes pins on my nipples and soon there was a crowd gathering. He had the other woman hold a flashlight so that it shone on my crotch as he fingered me to a terrific orgasm in front of the crowd. I closed my eyes much of the time, as I’ve realized that while I like an audience I don’t always want to see them. Knowing they’re there is usually enough.

We spent a lot of time wandering around the small club, checking out who was there, chatting amongst ourselves. Next, MasterDoc tied up the other lady on the St. Andrew’s Cross and gave her a spanking and flogging. The funny thing is, I felt more self-conscious standing there in my underwear watching them than I had when I was nearly naked being fingered. Strange. Only once before had I gotten a chance to see MasterDoc at work on someone else (that first night Davey and I went over his place and Davey had sex with MasterDoc’s 20-year-old sub). I enjoyed watching but of course I prefer being the one being manhandled. MasterDoc beckoned me over, and had me take a turn fingering the other lady. Unfortunately my arm stamina is negligible and I had a hard time doing anything that kept her worked up. (Plus my fingers are thinner than MasterDoc’s so his fingers fill her up more). He took over and brought her to orgasm while I fondled her top half.

We ended up calling it a night earlier than planned and we dropped off our guest then headed back to MasterDoc’s. Again he had me go down on him for a bit, then he told me to get out my bullet vibe because I needed to be warmed up and one of the perks of being the dom is not having to do the work when you’re tired.*grin* I absolutely love my bullet vibe, as I’ve mentioned here before, and I was on the verge of orgasm but not given permission to come. What agony! Ok, agony wrapped in ecstacy as it felt wonderful. He had me kneel on the edge of the bed and he took me from behind. I was moaning and crying out and of course as it was four in the morning he had to tell me “Shut up, slut.” I have a hard time being quiet when I’m turned on. I really get into it and I find that I enjoy sex more when I can make as much noise as possible. Only thing is at four am in an apartment you can’t exactly make all the noise that you want, like you did in the sex club earlier. I was allowed to keep the vibe on my clit while he fucked me and eventually he let me have an orgasm. Tired, we went to bed.

Meanwhile, Davey was away visiting another woman who MasterDoc dates . (Ah, the poly/swinger world, just one big incestuous family!) So while I was getting some, so was Davey. The next day Davey helped this lady out in her garden, unfortunately falling off a ladder and taking a little trip to the emergency room. (He’s bruised and sore but all right.) I have to see if I can get Davey to post to his blog. He’s started one but has only one entry thus far. I’ll link to it if he ever gets it going.

The next morning of course there was more sex with MasterDoc, this time with me on top, doing my best job to “fuck like a whore.” MasterDoc got very rough with me as he was feeling annoyed by the fact that that evening I was going to see my couple and play with them, but they’ve stated clearly that they don’t want me to bring anyone else along to play time. He became determined to bruise me up so that there’d be no place left for them to hit me that night. Despite a good spanking and some thigh slapping, I have little bruising except for some ugly little ones on my upper arm where he bit me. It’s a shame the bites left such marks as I kinda enjoyed all the biting. I have a hickey on my neck which I joked would be attributed to Davey as he’s the “official” boyfriend in my life.

I got home in the afternoon with enough time to take a little nap. I didn’t fall asleep but I did rest for an hour. Next came a shower and dinner then into the car for the hour long drive to D. & L.’s place. I was feeling tired and not particularly submissive when I got there. I let myself in and put on the collar and blindfold that they had left out for me and waited on the couch. Soon L. came out and got me stripped naked and put cuffs on my wrists and ankles. She brought me into the bedroom and sat on the edge of the bed, where she had me turn around so my back was to her and she lowered me onto the large strap on she had on. My pussy was still sore from MasterDoc earlier. (I have this ridge of flesh on the left side of my vaginal opening that doesn’t seem to stretch like the rest of my vagina and it hurts when MasterDoc first enters me. I’m wondering if it’s residual tissue from what was long ago my hymen. No idea. But it’s still irritated, ugh.) While the strap on was lubed up well, I wasn’t warmed up so it was really difficult getting that thing inside me and it hurt. My knees started to give out from the unusual position and they bent me over the bed to take the strap on that way. It still hurt, so we stopped. Next D. had L. lay on the bed in front of me and I had to go down first on the strap on cock, then on her. Unfortunately the way I was hanging off the edge of the bed was rough on my knee and I ended up breaking the mood entirely when I cried out in pain. We took a break. I realized that I was feeling somehow resentful that they wanted me all to themselves and that I couldn’t have MasterDoc involved in some way. While I have fun with D. & L. it’s not the same was when I play with MasterDoc.

We chatted and had beverages on the bed. Next I was instructed to go get L. from the living room and bring her into the bedroom. I was told to put the strap on on and fuck her on the bed. Her pussy was ready for the large dildo and I fucked her deeply while D. watched. Surprisingly it was my arms that gave out before my legs, either way I was using muscles I don’t normally use. D. took over fucking her and he instructed us to kiss each other. This got him off, fucking her and watching us kiss. We took a break for water.

They had me lay down and they used a vibe on my clit and one in my pussy and D. kneeled over me, shoving his dick in my mouth while L. played with my pussy. I wasn’t allowed to immediately come but then I was granted permission, and as sometimes happens while I had been on the verge a moment earlier, I couldn’t immediately come when given permission to do so. I kinda had a semi-orgasm after a few moments. Next, I had to reciprocate with L. and get her off, using the vibe on her clit and my fingers inside her. She was moaning and writhing and D. held her still while I brought her to orgasm. D. got both of us on our knees on the bed, and he took turns fucking us – first me, then her, then back to me again. Afterward, he admitted that life is good. *grin*

We hung out, had a snack and I started thinking about heading home. The next day Davey and I were going away for a few days, so we’d be hitting the road by noon. I thanked them for a nice time and headed out. Davey was half asleep when I got home, but he woke up when I came into the bedroom and told me about his fall from the ladder. I was thankful that he was okay and we kissed and went to sleep.

I think in the future I won’t schedule two bdsm playtimes in a row. I really wasn’t up for it the second night. This drives home the fact that I’m NOT a 24/7 sub, I need breaks. I think on the second night I enjoyed doing L. with the strap on more than anything else I did. I liked being somewhat in control.

Several years ago, I put together a mix of songs that seemed to be in some way related to bdsm and I called it “Music You’re Bound to Enjoy”. (You can tell this was a while ago by what songs were on the mix and the fact that it was a mix TAPE, not cd.) I’ve often thought that I’d like to expand the mix to include songs I didn’t have available at the time, and songs that are newer. The hard part is that some songs are good “mood music” pieces (i.e., “Venus in Furs” by the Velvet Underground) and others are kinda silly (”Hanky Panky” by Madonna, “Dominated Love Slave” by Green Day), so the mix is uneven as far as the mood. Anyway, here’s the list of songs that I either included on the original mix, wanted to include but didn’t have, or came across since then that would be good additions. You’ll see that Depeche Mode has cornered the market on bdsm songs. Some of the songs are truly about D/s and some are just ones that could be taken that way by people with dirty minds, like yours truly.

Master and Servant – Depeche Mode
Strangelove – Depeche Mode
Dressed in Black – Depeche Mode
Venus in Furs – Velvet Underground
Hanky Panky – Madonna (off the best-forgotten Dick Tracy soundtrack)
Dominated Love Slave – Green Day
These Boots are Made for Walking – Nancy Sinatra (I mean really, what sub wouldn’t tremble at the way she growls about walking all over you?)
Hurt So Good – John Cougar Mellencamp
Mini Correct – The Beautiful South
Frank’s Dark Past – Crowded House (obscure live track)

I padded the mix out with songs that are peripherally sexual or just have the right “mood”:

Tonight I Fancy Myself – The Beautiful South (about masturbation)
She’s Your Cocaine – Tori Amos
Try Whistling This – Neil Finn (”He said come here, as he pushed me down.”)
In My Command – Crowded House (”It’s a pleasure when you’re in my command.”)
Into Temptation – Crowded House
Justify My Love – Madonna
Fall at Your Feet – Crowded House
Sinner – Neil Finn
Erotica – Madonna
Icicle – Tori Amos (about masturbation)
Femme Fatale – Velvet Underground
Let’s Go to Bed – The Cure
Professional Widow – Tori Amos

I’m sure there’s more out there, and if anyone can come up with any I’d appreciate a comment letting me know.

I had a lovely morning today. For once I was good and did some yoga when I got up, then I went to see MasterDoc. There was no audience today but that was just fine by me as I was more in the mood to just spend time alone with him.

He tied me down to the bed – handcuffs on one wrist (the kind that actually need a key to come off), regular cuff on the other and one of my ankles (three limbs tied down). I enjoy being tied down – it reminds me of one of the first times I had that done to me, and every time I would move my hands a little and feel the restraints hold me back I would come harder (my first boyfriend was going down on me while my arms were tied to the bed with his old Catholic school ties).

MasterDoc played with my body, licking at my clit, getting me really worked up. While I’m always into playing with him for some reason I was extra into it today. I got really horny from his going down on me – he’s very skilled with his tongue and fingers. He played with me for a while and I was constantly conscious of the restraints holding me down. He’d lick at my pussy, then slide fingers inside me. I wanted so badly to be fucked. But being tied down I could do nothing but enjoy the attention. He came up from between my legs and had me lick my juices off his face. I was moaning like crazy, breathing heavy and wanting so badly to come. He’d keep me on the edge, teasing me over and over again, tickling my clit with his fingers or tongue. He teased me like this for a while.

After what seemed like a long time, he moved up to fuck me. He undid my leg at my request (not only was the restraint a little uncomfortable, but I couldn’t spread my legs as far apart as I wanted to although initially he let me stay in my uncomfortable state). As always, it hurt when he first put his cock in – and here I had been thinking it was due to not being warmed up, but I was totally warmed up today and it still hurt. Oh well. He fucked me as my arms were still bound to the bed frame. I was so hot and horny for him, I never wanted the fucking to end. He kept teasing me, keeping me on the edge of orgasm. Occasionally he’d grab hold of my hair or bite a nipple. He fucked me for quite a while, talking about how on Friday he expects me to not be shy about going up to couples at the swing club. And of course in my frenzied state I promised that I wouldn’t be shy. I think if I go with the right horny slut mind-set that I can get over my shyness and go talk to people.

The fucking felt incredible and I was phenomenally horny this morning. MasterDoc pulled out and grabbed a toy. He teased me some more with the toy buzzing away inside me, thrusting the dildo in and out. I begged to be allowed to come over and over again. Finally after all the teasing he let me cum and I squirted all over the bed. The orgasms were intense and I just kept coming and coming, he switched to his fingers and hit just the right spot inside me.

I was a very happy girl. I’m still in a good mood. When we (ok, I) had quieted down Liz came in to say good morning. I lead a very interesting life when roommates of people I see have seen me be fucked and after fucking. Liz has seen me naked more times than some of the people I’m dating. We ordered lunch and I was sent to go pick it up. When I got back, they were playing a board game so I got the plates and utensils and sat on the floor. We enjoyed lunch and they finished their game. As usual, while we were hanging out talking MasterDoc got another hard on – that always seems to happen when it’s time for me to head out. Pity. It makes me want to stay and do more naughty things. I only had time for a little cuddle then I took Liz to school and myself to work.

It was so nice to have a lazy Sunday with Davey. I finally sat down and blogged about Friday night, and then of course after I posted and he read it we were both worked up and went and had sex. *grin*

Sex with Davey reminded me of a time when I was more innocent, earlier on in my sexually active life, when sex was more playful and gentle, when I wasn’t going around being fucked like a horny slut. It was kinda nice to have the contrast. It’s nice to be able to joke in bed with someone and be affectionate and loving. It’s not that other lovers aren’t affectionate (MasterDoc is a wonderful cuddler) but the dynamic with me and Davey is different. Now don’t get me wrong, I really enjoy being fucked hard like a nasty slut. It’s just that sometimes it’s nice to experience a different kind of sex.

It wasn’t all hearts and flowers though, I asked him to grab some lube and finger my asshole while he went down on me. Yup, even during loving, “innocent” sex I’m a horny slut. Fact is I embrace sex with gusto and figure I might as well get into it – otherwise what’s the point? We also 69′ed for a bit and I stroked Davey’s asshole with my finger. The boy was extra sensitive everywhere today so every little thing I did had him shuddering and breathing heavy. Davey makes me feel like a sex goddess often, as he’s so incredibly horny for me. I walk by with my top off and the boy gets an instant erection. Nothing like knowing you’re appreciated.

So I’ve decided to stop dating anyone new and who should email me but this cute English guy I’ve talked with on a dating site. He’s been around off and on the past few months and I’m totally keen to meet him as I’m hot for Englishmen (he lives here in the states). How hot am I for Englishmen? Well I dated one about 10 years ago, but to top that when I was younger and still living at my parents’ house (and didn’t have my own phone line or a cell phone) twice I dared to use the family phone to have phone sex with some stranger or another who was originally from England who I had just met on the internet. I love the accents! Scotsmen do it for me too. Anyway, should I need to narrow down the roster I think N. is the prime candidate. He’s been in contact with someone MasterDoc dates (and N. had one date with her – her view of him was scathing to put it mildly) and referred to me as a fuck buddy. Hey, at this point it really doesn’t a) surprise me, b) bother me as that’s all I think of him as. I’m just thinking that perhaps this situation has come to the end of its usefulness. I’m busy with other people I’d rather be seeing so perhaps next time he wants to see me I’ll be busy regardless of whether I’m actually busy or not. (Granted, I just might be horny and decide to see him. Ha ha. I’m a weak woman, but then again I have plenty of other people wanting to fuck me, I hardly need to keep him around.) I’d really like to find some time to see V. and totally want to see D.S. again as soon as possible and continue seeing MasterDoc regularly.
If I meet and hit it off with this Englishman then this situation with N. may become a thing of the past….

So Davey and I did our separate thing Friday night; in contrast to Wednesday night, when we both met a very nice poly, bi woman for dinner. While we had a really good time I didn’t find time to blog about it – it just wasn’t blog material. I don’t know that acting wacky making s’mores at Cosi is something that translates well into a blog entry. It’s more of the “you had to be there” variety. And also in contrast to Thursday night when, at Davey’s request I wore some naughty underwear for when he got home, and we had sex. This was after I had already watched some porn and had one orgasm by myself. I figured I’d be warmed up when he got home. *grin* Friday night Davey had a date over at our place (and the boy got to have sex four times between the night and Saturday morning – go Davey!) and I spent the night for the first time with MasterDoc.

Unfortunately I was tired as the evening started because I hadn’t slept well the night before. I should have gotten a coffee on the way home from work but instead I just headed home to take a shower. I knew that the plans for the evening included dinner made by MasterDoc’s lovely roommate, Liz, and then he and I were going out to a swing club in the city. (Yes for once I knew what the plans were.)

On the phone before heading over he asked about my bullet vibe (you know, my favorite toy) and I joked that it was the one he broke (as it broke the first time he and I played together). I got a replacement soon after but I couldn’t resist giving him a hard time about it. He said I was going to get such a beating… and told me to forget it and not bring the vibe. The whole drive over there I was like, “oh no, I’m in trouble…” but thankfully he is someone who can take a joke and he was only partially serious about my being in trouble. Whew! (Then again, I didn’t totally mind the idea of being punished. *grin* Naughty girl.)

We cuddled while Liz made dinner. Then the three of us enjoyed a very yummy dinner (chicken kiev with potato salad and green beans). After dinner, MasterDoc and I got a bag of gear ready for the evening. Dinner was followed by chocolate bread pudding (yum!) so we were well-fed before heading out.

The swing club is in a building that was formerly occupied by a bdsm club and as we walked in I had the thought that I had already had an orgasm in that building. (Playing around with my friend T.M. a couple of years back, he fingered me to an orgasm and my moans drew a crowd.) I’m always a little nervous going into a swing party situation because I’m afraid of running into someone I’d rather not see, but in a short while I realize that it’s a crowd of people I don’t know and I relax. The building is a warehouse, decorated to make a little club inside. There’s a buffet dinner (!), a bar where you can byob or get some soda, and even a dance floor (why, I don’t know) – but of course the key points are the little rooms with mattresses on the floor – including one larger room with about eight mattresses spread out. There’s a St. Andrew’s Cross, good for stringing up submissives, and a spanking bench. (I think these two things might have been left over from the previous club, they seemed vaguely familiar.) The crowd was a big mix of ages, sizes and ethnicities.

We hung out for a little while, getting the lay of the land and then we sat on a sofa. Soon MasterDoc had me give him a blow job and I enthusiastically did so in full view of those around. Some guy came over and tried stroking my leg while this was going on, but MasterDoc is excellent at pointing out to aggressive guys that they need to ask permission before touching me. (I mean, really, at minimum they should ask for my permission and those who are astute enough to see the dynamic he and I have could ask MasterDoc for his permission.) I sucked on his cock for a while, not really sure how many people were watching. He let me stop and take a break. After a short while he had me drop my pants and get over his knee for a spanking. I got quite a spanking and he’d occasionally stick his fingers in my pussy to see how wet I was (and of course I was wet). This drew a small crowd but we ended up taking a break with me sitting around with my pants around my legs and my panties pulled up between my ass cheeks. I noticed a small group that appeared to be one dominant man with three submissive women, but that wasn’t confirmed until a little bit later. MasterDoc inquired about the collar around one of the women’s necks (and by now I was wearing the collar that I have) and the two chit chatted a little bit. After they left, I joked to MasterDoc that bringing three submissives was really just showing off, and he commented that he could have mentioned the other two he didn’t bring out that night. While we wandered around a few people made eye contact, with one guy winking at me, obviously interested.

Both of us were more in a bdsm than a swing mood that night and MasterDoc cuffed my arms up on the St. Andrew’s Cross, facing the cross. He spanked and flogged me, I was in just bra and panties by this time. Apparently the guy who had winked earlier asked about being able to touch me and MasterDoc gave him permission to touch me above the waist, so the guy started fondling my breasts. Since I couldn’t immediately see who was doing what I had a few moments of not really being sure of who was touching my breasts. Someone else apparently got permission to touch me but he didn’t listen to the above the waist rule so MasterDoc spoke to him and he lost interest and wandered off. My bra was undone (it was a front hook) and the winking guy licked and sucked at my nipples. MasterDoc flogged me a bit more and undid one hand so I could turn around. There was a nice little crowd watching by this time and I was instructed to stroke the guy’s penis. MasterDoc slapped my breasts and nipples a bit…. and I think my hands got affixed to the cross with me facing out for a little while. (I swear, my memory for detail sucks these days.) Again we took a little break and I wandered around in my underwear.

While wandering around we could see other people playing around a bit, one of the submissives was getting fingered by another one, and there was a guy fucking a woman (again, one with a collar) and a few people groping each other here and there. It seems like more people were watching than playing, but still it was much sexier than those “swing” parties I went to where I was the only one getting undressed.

We checked out a sex sling and tried to see if it would be the right height for MasterDoc to fuck me in. (It wasn’t very comfortable for my wide ass.) And then we got down on the mattresses (all this was in the big room with several mattresses). MasterDoc fucked me doggy style for a while in full view of whoever wandered by. He instructed me to look up and look into the eyes of the men in the crowd. I moaned and moaned, it felt so incredible and yet I didn’t quite come. The guy from earlier was allowed to come back in and touch my breasts again and MasterDoc had me stroke the other guy’s cock whle he fucked me from behind. My muscles pushed MasterDoc’s cock out apparently so he switched to having me give the guy a hand job while he fingered me in front of the crowd. I had some very loud orgasms and somehow managed to keep giving the other guy a hand job while this was going on. The other guy was more than a little clueless as to what to do to me (really quite inept) and so when MasterDoc had me lay down and he gave a vibe to the guy, the guy had to admit he had no idea what to do with the toy. I ended up taking over, getting myself nearly to orgasm while MasterDoc and the guy caressed my ass (well, MasterDoc did, the guy as I said was pretty clueless as to what to do with a woman’s body). It’s unfortunate that I had mouthed off to MasterDoc earlier and thus was told not to bring my bullet vibe as it’s easier to get myself off with that one. Still I did as I was told and begged to be allowed to come when I got close. It took me a while to get close and MasterDoc threatened that if i didn’t get myself to orgasm then that I was going to miss out on the opportunity to come. I managed to come, all while the crowd was watching. After, the guy wouldn’t take the hint that his part in all this was over so MasterDoc had to point out to him that he needed to cuddle with me for a while. The guy finally left. (He was clearly hoping to be fucked, and later MasterDoc said he would have let him if he hadn’t proved to be so inept sexually.)

I was getting really tired by this time and I was concerned about getting enough sleep as I had to work for a few hours the next day. We had another soda and ended up packing up to head out (not before another guy came over and politely mentioned that if we were up for playing more he’d be up for joining us). As we were waiting for the valet to get the car, MasterDoc remembered that he wanted to take me into one of the peep show booth places right next door. I had never been to a place with peep show booths so it was a new experience for me. He got change and put on a video in a booth and told me to push the button that would lift the shade for the window between the booths. The guy in the next booth pressed the button on his end and soon I was looking at a guy with his pants down, jerking off in the next booth. MasterDoc fondled me a little bit through my clothes but mostly I watched the guy in the next booth (who waved hello to me, probably really glad that there was a woman in the next booth). The video only lasted a few minutes (they sure want you to feed the machine dollars) and the screen dropped down again between the booths. We headed out. But apparently MasterDoc has gotten up to some interesting things in peep show booths. In fact, the conversation with him that made me want to meet him in person was him telling me about fooling around with a woman in a booth, leaving the door ajar so others could watch and sometimes letting the voyeurs get a grope in while he fucked the woman. I remember that this conversation got me so hot that I was ready to agree to meet MasterDoc and subsequently did.

We headed back to his place and made our way to bed, cuddling a little bit before going to sleep. As is typical in a new place I was in and out of sleep all morning and was tired when MasterDoc came over to the bed in the morning carrying the lube. He got me on my back with a pillow under my butt, put a little lube on my pussy and fucked me. Of course it hurt at first but soon felt really good (I could see later that I even bled a little bit) and I moaned and wanted to come. He had me get on my knees on the edge of the bed and fucked me some more from behind. I was moaning and moaning wanting so much to come but he would get me to the edge and stop, over and over. It felt incredible but ultimately I wasn’t permitted to come. We had some breakfast with Liz and I headed out to work, exhausted. I kept yawning all day and I took a nap when I got home. But all in all it was a lot of fun and we plan to go to the club again this Friday. *grin*

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This weekend ended up being quieter than most… yes I went out Friday night with MasterDoc but then on Saturday I worked, napped and spent the evening at home with Davey. I was maybe going to see V. sometime but unfortunately I just really needed a rest. Today I’m having a decidedly “normal” day with Davey, just hanging out at home, running a few errands, having some lunch together and soon we’re going to watch Hot Fuzz on dvd. While I love going out and being a wanton wild woman, sometimes it’s really nice to just have a quiet, normal day. Of course, there will probably be some sex involved in this quiet, normal day. *grin*

This morning I was getting ready for work, and as it was just about time to leave I start having this fantasy about being fucked by the first guy who watched MasterDoc dom me. I had been mildly horny all morning and my pussy was wet already. I decided that I had just enough time to get off, so I went to the bedroom and got my bullet vibe.

As the vibe buzzed away at my clit, I moaned and breathed heavy and writhed, thinking that this would be a good show if anyone were around to see it. (Me on the bed with my pants and panties around my ankles.) I must’ve looked like a creature in heat. I made mental note to mention to MasterDoc that maybe my favorite vibe was the ideal toy for me to use when on display getting myself off. I was close to coming for a couple of minutes then finally, finally it happened and I moaned louder, shuddering as I came, my pussy sopping wet.

I got up quickly, dried off between my legs, got dressed and ran out to work – a happy little slut.

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