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Swinging in the Suburbs

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on June 22, 2009
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Saturday night MasterDoc and I went out to a swing club in the suburbs. He had been there the night before with S., and found it to be a good crowd. But wouldn’t it figure that the night he takes me the crowd turns out to be older? Average age - 60? 65? I was by far the youngest person there with the exception of the couple that ran the place.

Mostly I wasn’t attracted to who was there, although there was one alluring Latina (in her 40s maybe?) in a wrap dress. So I pointed her out to MasterDoc and we smiled at her and her guy. She smiled back and MasterDoc said, “Looks like we’re in.” We went over to talk with them. The lady got up, had me sit down then she sat on the arm of the sofa right by me. I ran my hand along her hip and she said that she likes that, and suggested we go into the other room. As she took my hand and we went into the next room she told the men that we were going to “talk.” Yeah, right. They didn’t believe that for one second.

So she led me into the play room - which is mostly sofas (which suck for playing on) but there’s a bed in a dark corner. She led me right over to that and started to take off her wrap dress. I took off my blouse and started touching her smooth skin. Soon, I was naked but she opted to keep her underwear on. The men came in just a couple of minutes after we went back there. Of course they wanted to watch.

I stroked her body and reached into her bra to find her nipple, which I sucked on. She sucked on mine as well and she did it with the right amount of roughness - not too hard, not too soft. She clearly liked hers sucked hard so I did so. She had me lay back on the bed, and soon the guys were getting closer to be able to see what was going on - or to be able to join what was going on - probably a bit of both. I reached into her panties and played with her clit, making sure to keep it moist with her wetness from below. Her guy reached his hand over and took over. I played with her breasts some more. She declared that she wanted to get fucked.

MasterDoc was keen to oblige but first he had me suck his cock. I got it hard and then the lady wanted to have her turn, so I let her in and as she sucked I stroked his inner thighs, the places that I know make him feel good. Unfortunately, she was rough with him, and MasterDoc has an exremely sensitive penis head. This was not a good thing.

They ended up fooling around and I think he fingered her a bit. The guy (who I wasn’t into - it’s nearly inevitable that if I meet a couple and like the woman, I’m not that into the guy) played with me a bit, and he clearly had the goal of kissing me on the mouth. I wasn’t feeling it but eventually he worked his way there. She and he took turns going down on me, and he slid a finger inside. I wished that he moved his finger a bit as I really like getting fingered. His licking didn’t do much until I spread my lips apart and made my clit more accessible. I gradually reached orgasm, and when I came I came much harder because MasterDoc said, “That’s it. Come cunt,” which sends me further over the edge.

The interlude didn’t last long, and it was early yet so we got dressed and hung out in the lounge area again. There were slim pickings for the most part. There was one woman MasterDoc was interested in, and I wasn’t too keen on either her or hubby, but of course as submissive I was up for anything he wanted. It didn’t come to pass, however.

We spent some time in the play room because it was much quieter in there, and we watched porn while cuddling. He had me suck his cock a bit, and he spanked me a bit. I’m really craving some Domination and pain lately, so the spanking was divine. We fucked in the corner of the sofa a bit later; they had a velvet sofa that lined one wall and extended around the corners to cover part of the side walls. The corner gave us a chance for me to get on my knees and have MasterDoc fuck me from behind. The position was great for me, but difficult for MasterDoc as he had to bend his knees slightly. After that, he fucked me with me laying on the sofa and this position wasn’t so hot for me. Sofas are not good fucking places. Beds, people. If you own a swing club invest in some beds, futons, what have you (and not air mattresses!). A good mat on the floor is also preferable to the narrowness of a sofa.

We didn’t end up playing with anyone else, but when we got home we fucked some more. I also used a new butt plug on him as he brought himself to orgasm. (Oh so many reviews coming down the pike!) I’ve been so focused on not pushing MasterDoc’s cock out when I come lately that I haven’t been coming hard. So even though I loved the sex we had, I still felt unrelieved at the end of the evening. I asked if I could masturbate, and MasterDoc was surprised. I explained why, and he pointed out that he had only ordered me to not push his cock out that one time - I’m not expected to worry about it every single time we fuck. So now I know better for next time. He let me masturbate and he lent a hand to stroking my body and slapping my face. I felt so much better after I came.

One Night, Two Views: Orgasmic

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on May 14, 2009
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On the other hand, I was a busy slut Saturday night at the party. During the social time I felt a little awkward and shy and stayed close to MasterDoc. I know that some of you readers are doubting that someone who fucks so many people and is friendly with so many people is shy, but I am. I’m socially awkward. I’m not unfriendly I just feel unsure of myself and self-conscious.

We socialized for a while with a very nice couple who were fun to talk to. It turns out they have an amateur porn website that looks hot. (Or at least the free samples look good; wish I could see the inside).

There was a sexy Latina there who talked to me a bit and I was totally hot for her, but of course my low self-esteem hung over me and made me think, “I’m fat. Why would she be interested in me?” But we had both worn really low cut tops and I made a comment on how nice her dress was and how we both went for the same look - lots of cleavage. I can’t tell you how much effort it took me to be forward in that minuscule way. However, it paid off later.

When things started happening, I got naked pretty quickly. Getting to the sex was getting to my comfort zone. I started off playing with MasterDoc, and he fingered me to a wonderful orgasm. He fucked me from behind, and at some point the cute Latina ended up on the bed near me, being fucked. She sort of reached out for me, and after MasterDoc had stopped fucking me I started touching her and playing with her tits. She clearly liked this. We kissed, I stroked her clit when the guy took a break from fucking her. I think sometimes when it’s been a while since I’ve been with a woman I forget how much I like it. I sucked at her nipples and she sucked at mine. I was pressed between her and the guy fucking her, it was like being in a pile of bodies, writhing, fucking, licking.

I can’t write an entirely linear narrative of Saturday night, because I’m not sure what happened when. I was fucked by a total of five guys (including MasterDoc) and really pounded hard for the most part. Last night I got the most bbc I’ve ever had in one night (3 guys, one of them twice). It’s funny, I know a few people are into the taboo black/white thing and it really gets them going. But I feel totally neutral about interracial fucking. I tend to go for white or hispanic guys for the most part, but I’m really pretty agreeable to fuck any nice guy no matter what his ethnicity. I had a great time fucking these guys, but it wasn’t because they were black, it was because they fucked me hard. The two white guys fucked me good as well.

So there was lots of sex, lots of me being fucked by various guys. I encountered the Latina bit later, and while I ate her pussy another guy (a white guy) fucked me from behind really hard. It’s so difficult to keep licking pussy when you’re being fucked hard. I did my best but some of the time ended up with just my face buried in her cunt. MasterDoc joined in and we took turns going down on her, and she sucked his cock for a while.

I sucked a few different cocks, nearly fucked one other guy (he went soft), only really played with one woman but I did enjoy some caresses from other women. It’s funny, MasterDoc says at these parties he only really focuses on learning the women’s names - for the obvious reason that they’re the ones he’s interested in. I joked that I have twice the work - I’m bi, I really should learn the women’s and men’s names. lol Mostly I don’t keep track of names and remember people by face.

I came really hard, and loud, when fucked. While I like fucking a variety of guys there really is something special about fucking MasterDoc. I may go off and fuck someone else, but I always go back to him after. I may fuck others, but I’m his slut. I felt really happy to hold his hand as we walked to the car after the party.

I know there’s a segment of society that thinks I should feel guity or bad for what I did Saturday night. I don’t feel one bit guilty about having so much sex - I had a great time and it felt wonderful. The only things I regret was not being more vigilant with that guy who tried to fuck me without a condom, and not following through when MasterDoc told me to touch him while he fucked another woman.

A Fun Reason for a Sick Day

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on March 30, 2009
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Sunday afternoon MasterDoc got a message on fetlife about another gangbang party. I had work the next day but we had been toying with the idea of me calling in sick one day so we could get to some events on work nights. Naughty girl that I am I opted to call in sick. I feel like such a bad girl - calling in sick to work so I could go get fucked. We got to the gangbang a little late - the ladies had already chosen their men. We went in back to the bdsm room and relaxed a bit, figuring that guys would make their way in. There were only 2 or 3 women there. MasterDoc had me suck his cock and that got a bit of an audience. He told me to look at them, which I always find hard to do. Last night I was acutely aware of how humiliating it is to be someone’s submissive cunt. Not that this is a bad thing, mind you. But I really felt the humiliation play a lot.

He spanked my thighs and cunt, trying to get me wet. I kept my eyes closed and wished that I had thought to pack the blindfold in the toy bag. I have a few light bruises from thigh spanking this weekend to remind me of the fun I had. I bruise so infrequently these days! He fucked me with the acrylic wand (see last entry) and made me come in front of all those guys. He had me get on all fours and he spanked my ass but good - I was really enjoying being spanked this weekend. My pain tolerance was good and it felt great to be spanked. Plus, I didn’t have to look at the small crowd that had begun to form. It’s funny how I like having an audience, but I don’t like having to look them in the eye. MasterDoc offered me to one of the guys there and he asked if he could go down on me first. MasterDoc would have preferred me getting fucked without ever seeing the guy, but he obliged and I lay on my back. While the guy licked furiously at my cunt MasterDoc talked to me, “Are you getting your cunt licked? You like getting your cunt licked don’t you, slut?” Oh dear god the dirty talk was driving me nuts. I felt embarrassed and turned on at the same time. The guy put a condom on and fucked me and I got to come. As I lay there moaning and panting MasterDoc said something along the lines of, “That’s it. That’s what you’re for, cunt.” And it felt so good to be used. I like that I’m a filthy slut who will fuck whoever MasterDoc tells me to.

Only bad part of the evening was that the first guy was too stupid to hold onto the condom as he pulled out and he left it behind. Ugh. This is seriously bad manners. Guys, do not ever forget to hold the condom as you pull out. A condom should never be left behind after you’ve fucked a girl.

Right after guy number one finished MasterDoc had guy number two all ready. This guy was a big black guy with a huge cock. I mean, it really brought new meaning to BBC. He stretched my pussy wide and I don’t think I’ve ever felt so filled up. At first it was a turn on and I came, but then it got to be too much and in amongst the “unhs” of pleasure came a few “ows.” I think this was the biggest cock I’ve ever had - really thick. It was too much of a good thing.

In came a third guy right after the second. This was the first time I’ve been fucked by a north Asian guy (not sure what nationality). He had fantastic tattoos including a large buddha on his chest/tummy. I came again, but I was starting to get tired already - must be all that Wii fit I’m doing these days, wearing me out. MasterDoc gave me a break after the third guy and after I had rested offered me to a fourth guy. The fourth guy fucked me and alas he was small and I could barely feel him (particularly after that other guy stretched me out). MasterDoc saw that my excitement was waning and he slapped my face a few times telling me to “come cunt!” and I came, purely off the kink of being slapped and called a cunt. I still marvel at how he can make me come without genital stimulation.

We got dressed after this and socialized a minute before heading out the door to the next party. At the door, a hot woman who had said hello earlier as she set up her gangbang near where we were sitting said, “No, you’re not leaving! You’re not taking her away are you?” She was distressed that I was leaving so soon and she passionately kissed me by the elevator. Rowr. It made us think for a second about going back in.

Next we went to a popular fetish event that takes place every month in NYC. I’ve been keen to go since it’s “the” event to go to. Well, I’m sad to say it wasn’t my speed. First we get there and the guy from the gangbang party had told us to ask for someone at the door and say that he sent us. MasterDoc gets out his doctor’s coat and speculum as his fetish outfit. The guy makes a comment about how he has to tell the guy who referred us that, “It’s really dress fetish.” Oh, sorry, I didn’t realize that we were playing “more fetishy than thou” tonight. *sigh* We were the only ones there not in full fetish get ups. Now, I’m all for dressing fetish if that’s what turns you on, it’s wonderful to see people in great fetish costumes. However, I don’t like feeling that I’m somehow “not kinky enough” if I’m not in corset and latex. I don’t need the “fetish uniform” to be kinky or submissive. I can’t picture MasterDoc in a typical Dom costume. I like him how he is. It felt like how you’re dressed mattered much more than how you play. Not that we got a chance to play. The place was crowded and hot - we could barely find a place to stand let alone play. If MasterDoc had tried to flog me he would have hit a dozen people in the process. I was really unhappy. Big crowds in small spaces are not my thing. If I ever go again I will have to dress up in my little bit of fetish gear so I won’t feel so out of place. I hope they find a bigger venue. The whole experience lasted about 10 minutes before I was desperate to get out of there. We did run into our favorite bartender from the swing club, who was there with her Dom. It was great to see her even if I didn’t like the rest of the scene.

All in all it was a fun evening. So decadent to skip work and go to sex/bdsm parties. I love decadence.

He freaks me out but boy does he make me come

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on March 11, 2009
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MasterDoc has been trying to get me used to the idea of piss play for a while now. Last night he put on this video because it featured a young lady who seemed happy to get piss in her mouth (I pointed out that she’s getting paid to act like she enjoys it). Rather than making me think that it’s okay for him to piss in my mouth it made me feel freaked out and disgusted. I think pissing in someone’s mouth is so gross. Hey, if it’s your kink more power to you, but it’s not mine. But the complexity of the situation is that as his submissive I want to please him. Letting him piss in my mouth would please him. Now I know that ultimately I won’t be harmed if he does so, so it’s not a question of safety, but still I find the idea revolting. I said a few times last night, “I don’t think I can handle this.” He backed off with the threat of doing it last night, but has left the threat of doing it on Friday, when we have another submissive lady over for play time, hanging over my head. I still don’t think I can handle it. I could scarcely handle watching the video he made me watch last night. I am dreading this and truly freaked out. I started wondering last night if he was deliberately trying to make me dislike him and want to leave him or something. So piss - way low on my list of kinky things we could get up to.

Initially I had a hard time getting aroused last night because I kept dwelling on the idea of him pissing in my mouth. The very idea inhibits me getting aroused. We played with the Babelight and I had to really try to ignore the thoughts of him pissing in my mouth in order to enjoy the vibrations at all. He licked my clit while playing with the vibe and it felt divine, but it took me a while to settle into the good feelings and leave behind the icky thoughts. However, he managed to distract me with his tongue and the vibrator. I got aroused, and then when he had me use the vibe on myself I came really close to orgasm. Rowr.

He had me suck his cock and he pointed out that I hadn’t come yet. He decided to have me get on his cock and ride him, something I seem to be getting good at lately. I think I’ve improved because I really get into it, I thrust and rub myself against him until I’m in a frenzy. I was on the verge of coming and I held on for as long as I could before begging for permission to come. He teased me a bit, making me wait, asking me if I’m ready to come right now. I was and when he let me I had an orgasm to end all orgasms. I know I always brag about the orgasms I have with MasterDoc but they truly are amazing. I was a convulsing heap and it just seemed to go on and on. “Yes, that’s it. Good girl,” he said to me as I kept on coming. My arousal finally ebbed a little, but I was still really turned on so I kept fucking him and got myself up to the point of orgasm again. He encouraged me to keep coming and so I managed to get myself to peak a third time, the last time just by rubbing against his cock which had been pushed out of my cunt. I was one satisfied sub afterwards.

Fangirl Divasub

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on February 4, 2009
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It’s kinda funny how this little blog has netted me a few “fans.” I’m really glad that people enjoy reading about my adventures and I hope I inspire them to get up to a few adventures of their own. It’s interesting meeting a fan in person because they know so much about me, and I know so little about them. They’re excited to meet me because they have his image of who I am, but who I seem on my blog is not the entire story.

Last night I met divasub. We’d emailed on collarme and fetlife off and on for a while, and she became a fan of this blog. It was a great pleasure to meet her, and while there were fangirl moments for her it never got weird. And she acknowledged the fact that despite how outgoing I seem on here I can actually be a shy person, and I was a bit shy. She came over to MasterDoc’s (turns out she’s in the neighborhood!) for dinner and left a happy girl.

We ordered Indian food and hung out, talking about all manner of things from sex work (you just never know who’s been a sex worker in some form or another), to her stripey socks (they were really cool). When the food came, MasterDoc got the door and he had a chuckle when he came back to us. Apparently the guy delivering the food looked past MasterDoc, saw us two young ladies chatting on the sofa, and he looked longingly like he wanted to come in. More confirmation that MasterDoc is the man.

After dinner my collar came out. I wasn’t sure if he was going to dom me in front of her or not - I had planned a nice innocent evening playing games. Apparently MasterDoc had other things in mind. It can be a little humiliating to be dommed in front of someone new. Luckily I like a little humilation play. But yes, it is hard to switch into sub mode and be used in front of someone you’re hoping to develop a friendship with. He had me suck his cock for a while and divasub watched. In between there was some talking, some girl-on-girl mouth action, and MasterDoc succeeded in getting divasub to show us her stripey underpants. There was much flirting, much laughing and occasionally my collar came off because we were having too much fun laughing and talking and not getting up to kink.

When the collar went on again, MasterDoc led us into the bedroom. There he had me take my pants down and he gave me a good thorough spanking. It’s interesting trying to figure out what implement he’s using. It wasn’t until he leaned in close to whisper to me that I saw the pedicure file in this hand and knew what he was using (it’s like a small paddle with a rough surface). I was still feeling embarrassed at being used, but divasub seemed to be enjoying herself immensely. He got rough but my pain tolerance was pretty good last night. A few yelps here and there but overall I did well. From their talking I could tell my ass had gotten nice and red.

MasterDoc had me turn over, I asked to take my sweater off as I was hot, and he spanked my inner thighs a bit. Then I well and truly lucked out, he felt like going down on me and did so for a while. Rowr. It felt lovely and divasub stroked my leg at the same time and it all felt electric. He teased me with his tongue and lips until I was panting. (He commented on how most porn movies seem to teach exactly how NOT to go down on a woman. MasterDoc is certainly someone who knows how to do it properly.)

The hitachi magic wand made an appearance and he teased me with the wand. Divasub had just gotten one a few weeks back for her birthday, so she had been getting familiar with this wonderful toy. MasterDoc gave pointers on technique as he teased me. Then, he offered the wand to divasub, who seemed really happy to take over. She placed it directly and firmly on my clit and I thought my head was going to come off my shoulders. I begged MasterDoc for permission to come. He asked her to back off a little, as he hadn’t planned on letting me come yet. She moved it off a bit but still the stimulation was a lot. He asked her if she thought I deserved to come. She pointed out that what I deserved aside, she wanted to see me come. And for her benefit he let me come - something which MasterDoc has said he should sell tickets to. When I come I scream, moan, pant, grunt. My body tenses and quakes. I squirted a little but thankfully didn’t get any on divasub.

Around this time it was time to call it a night. Divasub and I both had work in the morning. I took my bra off since I was otherwise naked anyway, and from her email today apparently it was a real highlight when I gave her a hug while naked before she went out into the cold night. Her memory is better than mine, and she sent me a timeline today that helped me construct this blog entry. (Thanks!) I enjoyed the night on several levels - getting to know someone who could become a good friend, getting spanked and tongued and allowed to come, getting my ego stroked by divasub’s fangirl moments. It can feel odd having fans, but damn do I like it.

Private Orgy

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on January 18, 2009
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Last night MasterDoc and I went to a small private swing party. He hooked up with the couple hosting on one of the swingers sites. It was so cold last night that I hoped it was worth it to go outside. I’ve developed a terrible aversion to being cold this winter. Luckily I was not disappointed.

I must add here, that before we went, I asked MasterDoc if this was a D/s sort of thing or just swinging, and I asked if I needed permission to come, or to fuck someone, and he told me that no, I could do as I wished. I was in essence getting the night off from being sub. I was really excited at this prospect.

When we got there, the hostess immediately recognized MasterDoc (he had recognized her on the site but didn’t mention it). They had known each other 10 years or so before. Again, the slut world is small. We sat down and got to know the couples there.  There was an older couple I wasn’t particularly interested in. And there was the host couple - a very cute Japanese woman and a dark skinned, solidly built, black guy. Another couple was due to arrive later.

Of course the least interesting part of the evening is to talk about the social period where people chat and relax. After a while, talk turned to that of getting started and taking clothes off. The hostess ended up taking off the light dress that she wore and we all admired the beautiful tattoos she had all over her body. I followed suit not long after by at least taking my shirt off. We all went into the bedroom where there were two large beds set up side by side.

I was feeling shy early in the evening. Somehow just being around MasterDoc makes me feel a little submissive. I would have been more take charge had I been alone. I started wondering if I really did want a break from submitting or if I wanted him to take control again. There’s a feeling of safety in him having control. However, once I got started, I really had no problem continuing. I watched at first, while MasterDoc and the other guy started playing with the hostess. At one point she asked where I was and when I leaned in she kissed me. Our tongues met and we kissed for a while while others played with her body. I played with her nipples a little. (And discovered that she had augmented boobs - I’d never felt those before! I thought they felt different and then I felt the scar running under each of them.) She reached over to my pussy and started rubbing near my clit quite vigorously. I wasn’t sure if I was going to be able to come from that as she was a bit high up from my clit but eventually I did. It felt good to be able to just come without permission. I mean, I do get off on orgasm control so it’s not like I don’t ever want that, but it’s nice to have a break and just come as I please.

The other couple showed up and the woman was curvy and the guy was Latino. I spent a little more time watching, or occasionally cuddling with MasterDoc. Eventually I made my way over to the host and we started stroking each other’s bodies and he leaned in to kiss me. I stroked his cock and we made our way onto the bed. I think he went down on me for a bit, but my memory is a little fuzzy. So much happened that it’s hard to remember details. He went off to get a condom. When he came back he knelt between my legs as I stroked my clit and he stroked his cock hard. Then when he fucked me he pounded me like a jack hammer. I had such wonderful orgasms.

After a break I made my way over to the hostess who was going down on the Latino guy. She asked if I wanted to help and I said yes, and she licked by his balls while I sucked his cock. He was a pretty happy guy at that moment. I ended up sucking the host’s cock for a while, then another lady came over and asked if I’d mind if she stepped in. I didn’t mind at all. I played with MasterDoc a little bit at various points of the evening. It was cute when he said to me, “Suck my cock…. please,” when it dawned on him that I had the night off. I did gladly suck his cock when asked to. At one point he ended up on the bed with ladies on either side of him, stroking his chest and his cock and the hostess (a massage therapist) massaged his feet and legs. Yes, MasterDoc had reached nirvana. I got a massage from the hostess next and it was divine to relax in the middle of all the fucking and stimulation. The Latino guy stroked my breasts and cunt while she massaged me and it’s strange having the two sensations at once - one thing is relaxing you, while the other is revving you up.

After the massage, the Latino guy went down on me for what seemed like forever (he did so again later in the evening and I had to ask him to stop so I could have a break, he could just keep going forever). I came a bunch of times. Then he fucked me. His cock was long and it hit my cervix, but masochist that I am that pain would turn into pleasure. I came a bunch of time as he fucked me on my back, and then again more when he fucked me from behind. He commented that he likes “bubble butts” and loved to see my ass jiggle while he fucked me.

Next, the hostess came over and went down on me and I came hard again. (I squirted twice last night. Once when the Latino guy was first playing with me and again when the hostess went down on me.) She is very sexy and sensual and I loved playing with her. I didn’t really get to play with the curvy woman who came with the Latino but I would have enjoyed doing so. The other couple I wasn’t really into left pretty early.

After a break (I kept getting worn out and needing short breaks!) I was cuddled close to MasterDoc and he told me what a dirty slut I am. Coming from him I can’t help but feel proud of that title. He asked if I was ready to be fucked, and indeed I was. So he fucked me from behind and it was a wonderful way to end a wonderful evening. In the midst of all this MasterDoc played with the women there and I know he fucked the hostess but I’m not sure if he did either of the other women. I was kinda lost in my own headspace as I orgasmed.

As we’re walking out, he says to me, “I told you they’re porn actors, right?”

“What?”

“I didn’t tell you that they (the host and hostess) have been in porn?” Why no, he hadn’t but that just made things all the more hotter. I’ve fucked porn actors. Coolness.

Gangbang

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on December 28, 2008
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This is a long post, but I promise that hot stuff happens.

I had ups and downs this weekend. I’m premenstrual so I’m prone to a bit of depression. On Friday I had the thought that I must be really fucked up and dysfunctional to choose to be the submissive in a relationship. I mean, I choose to in a position where I always feel lesser. I don’t know, I haven’t resolved my thoughts about this but it leaves me wondering about myself. None of us want to think of ourselves as dysfunctional, but I do have a history of dysfunction. Is this a manifestation of dysfunction? Or am I a liberated woman, enjoying her alternative sexuality?

So that caused any play between me and MasterDoc to be cut short on Friday as I wasn’t in the right headspace. The next day I felt a little better, and we fooled around - he giving me a lot of attention including oral sex. It’s amazing what orgasms can do for my mood. I cheered up considerably. He said that next time I’m in a funk he’ll probably press on with the beating and orgasms and I’ll feel better in five minutes. *grin*  Thing is, he’s probably right.

Thankfully I cheered up, because our Saturday night plans were to go to a gangbang party with S.  Was I finally going to get the gangbang that MasterDoc continually promised? Rowr. I was hopeful. The main focus was getting S. gangbanged so I knew that I’d spend some time just hanging out, but that if I was patient I would likely get my own turn. Poor S. was really nervous, and I was feeling more than a little socially awkward as well. I find the most difficult part of going to a party like this is the social aspect - I have no trouble getting naked and fooling around. (Again, I wonder just how dysfunctional that is.) We kept close to MasterDoc as would keep an eye on our safety. We arrived at the hotel suite just as the rules were being reviewed.

Now most of them were good rules - condoms always, no double dipping (i.e., change condoms between women), wash your hands after playing with one woman before going to another, clean up your condoms and throw them in the trash - but there was one I, as a sexually educated woman, had a BIG problem with. The hostess said that if a condom slips off while you’re pulling out, you need to “go fishing.” Now, certainly, if a condom slips off you don’t leave it inside the woman. But hell, it wouldn’t happen if you just held onto the base of the condom as you pulled out. Simple. Something I would have thought everyone would know. But alas, this is not the case. I’m used to mostly playing with people who are pretty knowledgeable about safer sex, so this really threw me off. I talked to the hostess and pointed out (vehemently) that a condom slipping off isn’t safer sex for the woman. A condom left inside a woman can leak. The sex act is probably still pretty safe for the man but it’s definitely not for the woman. The hostess just shrugged it off but damn, I wanted to pound into her head that if she’s hosting parties like this she sure as hell should know something so basic! It made me a little nervous about playing but I figured that MasterDoc would keep an eye on things and not everyone there was necessarily as stupid as the hostess.

So there were several women and a bunch more men. Pretty quickly there were women on the beds being fucked. MasterDoc took his time getting us started. He had me get naked and S. and I took turns sucking his cock. I had my collar on by this time and it’s interesting explaining to non D/s people what the collar means. “You ask him for permission to play with me.” Takes a little bit of getting used to for people who aren’t up on the protocols of BDSM. I sat on a bed while MasterDoc and a friend of S.’s (Fuzzy he’s called, for reasons which are obvious when he takes off his clothes) got S. started. She sucked on Fuzzy’s cock and MasterDoc slid off her panties, giving her a bit of a spank as well. He got her laying over the bed so that he could spank and finger her a bit. He lined up someone to fuck her. She came a bunch of times and it’s fun watching her come because she comes so hard. I was content to sit back and watch, although I had to practically beat off the men with a stick.

Now one thing I want to point out here, because porn leads us to think that real life is something it’s not - everyone there was pretty damn average. There were a few good looking guys, but the majority were average people. The women were mostly chubby or fat, and even the thinner ones had pot bellies. No one was perfect, no one looked like a model or a porn star. Real life happens with a variety of people. The ages of the participants ran the gamut as well. So for anyone who’s eager to go to a party like this, but you’re worried that you’ll be the fattest one there (or the oldest one there) - don’t. I felt positively svelte next to some of the women there. And yet every woman was in great demand. Being sexy doesn’t necessarily have to do with being thin or beautiful. (I think being a slut counts for much more.)

So I got to see S. get fucked, by a guy I don’t think she ever saw. I know from experience that’s one of those things you think, “Gee, I should be upset this guy was a total stranger I will never know.” But then you think, “Man, that’s hot!” S. had a ton of orgasms before MasterDoc and Fuzzy would give her a break. MasterDoc then turned to me and decided to get me started. Rowr. He fingered me, and soon I was begging for permission to orgasm and after just holding off a little, he let me. We drew a small crowd sometime during all this. He gave permission to a couple of guys to touch me and I felt hands stroking my body. I cuddled up to MasterDoc and let these men touch me. It mostly felt good although one unknowledgeable guy poked at my asshole without lube. Luckily he didn’t try to actually finger it. MasterDoc let some of the guys play with my pussy and alas, they didn’t quite know what they were doing. Luckily MasterDoc intervened and gave me another orgasm. He lined up a guy to fuck me, but unfortunately by the time a condom was found he had lost his erection. I wouldn’t get fucked until a bit later.

We all took a break. MasterDoc had asked S. a few times where she was and if she was okay while he fooled around with me. He takes his job of looking out for us seriously. We all went into the sitting room (it was a suite with two bedrooms on either side of a sitting room with a small kitchenette) and had a little wine and cheese and crackers. I looked around for a seat and eventually one was found for me. MasterDoc ended up on the other side of the room when another chair opened up. I spoke with a nice African-American guy and while I don’t tend to go for black guys, the key thing for me when looking for someone to play with is that they are nice and I feel safe with them - he met those two criteria. When MasterDoc beckoned me over, I made a point of mentioning my interest to him. Soon the sofa cleared off and S. took a seat, the black guy joined us, very friendly. After talking for a while, MasterDoc wondered if I could be fucked bent over the chair and I took the position. He had the nice black guy stand behind me to see if it could work. I pointed out that my pelvis was tilted downward. So MasterDoc had S. go check out the bedrooms to see if there was a spare bed. There was and we all hastily went into the bedroom to seize it.

The nice guy followed us, and there was already a crowd assembled in the bedroom. (There were two beds in this room, and something was going on in the next bed.) MasterDoc had me get out the magic wand and he used it on S. He got her worked up, but she was a little irritated from using Nair earlier so she did not come. She seemed pretty happy nonetheless. After her turn, he had me get on the bed. The nice guy got invited to go down on me, which felt pretty damn good. After a bit, he asked if he could use fingers too (see, nice guy asks before doing!) and he did. Rowr. He was told he could fuck me and so he did. I begged to be allowed to come and MasterDoc was very generous. I made such a racket I’m surprised they didn’t ask me to quiet down.  After he fucked me, MasterDoc gave S. a turn, and the same nice guy fucked her as well. This time, the hostess did come in to ask us to quiet down. S. is good about being quiet, much better than I am.

After she squirted a river (thankfully she brings pads along) I got my turn again. This time the guy fucked me from behind. I came hard again and my muscles pushed him out. He commented on how tight I get when I come and MasterDoc joked about the “auto eject” feature. I moaned into the bed, I felt so lucky having so many orgasms. How could a girl not be happy having that many orgasms? He fucked me for a while, fingered me a bit and then MasterDoc decided to fuck me as well. I asked if I could get on my back and he had me do so. He fucked me for a while, I came some more and my depressed mood of the night before was completely forgotten.

When it was time to go we had to peel S. away from our new friend, she was making out with him and stroking his cock. We packed up and I thanked our new friend for a good time. My instincts about him were right.

We were all starving so we went to a diner afterwards, and sleepily had a meal. That night, I slept pretty soundly until MasterDoc got me up - his other girlfriend was coming over with a friends’ daughter so we had to de-sexify the apartment before they got there. Toys sitting in the living room, porn, the sybian all had to be hidden in MasterDoc’s bedroom. And so ended my weekend.

Pool Party

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Nadia
on August 24, 2008
in D/s, bdsm, blow jobs, cunnilingus, englishman, flogging, sex parties, spanking, squirting and sybian
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On Friday, MasterDoc and I talked extensively about my problem with him reading email. While we don’t agree 100%, I do feel better now that we’ve spoken and he has fully explained his reasons. It’s been decided that he’ll have the passwords to my collarme and fetlife profiles and will get to see the particular exchange he wanted to see earlier this week. I’m allowed to note that he has access on those profiles and have already done so.

As I thought about the situation and how I reacted earlier this week, I realized that while I want to give up control, I’m also incredibly fearful of giving up control. So every now and then I have these little bouts of panic where I act up and get defiant. Giving up control is scary. It doesn’t matter how trustworthy the person is (and MasterDoc is trustworthy) it’s still scary to me. But on the other hand I also think that if I was able to do it it might be very freeing for me after I get over the fear.

On Friday night we went to a private pool party. The heated pool was quite warm, like bathwater early in the evening and like a hot tub later that night. I don’t think I’ve ever gone swimming naked before and it’s interesting how much tits float.  We took some time to settle in and I dipped in the pool before MasterDoc. He was busy setting up the sybian, which we brought along for the pleasure of the female guests. He then got roped into taking pictures, so I found myself in the pool, with an Englishman reaching out for me to join him and his lady (and as you may well know I have a fetish for English accents) but I had to decline, saying that I needed my Dom’s permission first. It was a big bummer but I got out and went seeking permission. MasterDoc was too busy so I just ended up getting back in the pool to relax in the warm water. More time went by and eventually MasterDoc got away and got into the pool with me. I whined a little about how I could be having fun but when he’s distracted I can’t get permission to have any fun. After some talking, he told me that I was allowed to find the Englishman and fuck him, but if anyone else tried to join in I had to say that I had to get my Dom’s permission first.  So I went off to find the Englishman.

I found him upstairs, watching a couple fooling around. I walked up behind him and started stroking his ass gently. “You got permission?” he asked and I said yes. We went into another bedroom and he lay down on the bed. I bent over and started sucking his cock to get it hard (and like most Englishmen he was uncircumcised). Just then, the couple in the next room started making noise again and he wanted to go watch. So we went in, and it turns out they were just finishing up, so he went down stairs and ran into his lady and went off with her. Phooey! So I didn’t get any English cock that night. I wonder how things would have been different if I could have joined in when he first reached out for me. It’s hard to have to sorta reject someone when you really don’t want to reject them, and then to go back later and expect them to be all up for it when you’ve gotten permission to act. Going to a party as a sub is very, very different than when I went as a single woman. I have many limits as a sub that I didn’t have when I was solo.

I got whiny again and MasterDoc decided to take me upstairs and beat my ass. He used his hands, he used the rough pedicure thingy that works well as a stingy paddle. He got me sore and red, then got out the floggers. By this time people were popping in to see what was going on. He flogged me with the stingy little flogger, then with the thuddy big flogger. He let someone else hit my ass but he didn’t realize that she was going to use an implement rather than her hand. I think someone else got to spank me a bit as well, someone who kept massaging my ass between each smack gave me a little bit of a spanking. Since I wasn’t told to lift my head up (I was on my knees on the bed, ass in the air) I couldn’t see who did it and I have no idea to this day. The spanking went on for a bit, with MasterDoc flogging me some more. One woman apparently watched a bit, not sure she was into it, but then when her guy tried to get her away to play she wanted to watch me get beaten just a little more.

We took a break and the crowd dispersed. We cuddled a bit and I got a little scolded for being whiny. I feel shy in new social situations and a way I get comfortable is to dive in and begin fucking. I suppose I fuck first, become friendly later. To have to be social in the normal way was really difficult for me and I ended up feeling really out of place and uncomfortable. Other people were fooling around, fucking, riding the sybian and I was just left on my own, shy and bored. At any rate, we hugged on the bed and that helped me feel better. MasterDoc wasn’t any more thrilled than I was that he had been pressed into taking photos.

We went downstairs, watched more sybian riding going on and hung out. We got to talking with a couple, the woman had just been on the sybian. She was outrageously curvy, looking a lot like the Venus of WIllendorf. Narrow waist, big voluptuous hips and big tits. Many people would call her fat, but I think she was curvy in just the right places. We talked for a while with the couple, and MasterDoc offered that the guy could fuck me. So he came over to the sofa while MasterDoc went and sat in the chair with his lady. We start out stroking each other’s genitals, nibbling on necks, but before long he gets on his knees in front of me and starts eating me out. Whoo, and he’s good at it. I get really worked up and he starts fingering me as well. I writhe, moan and get really horny. I open my eyes at one point to look at MasterDoc and ask if I have permission to come. He said that permission was implied. And so I focused on the tongue and lips on my clit and the fingers working in and out of me and I started to come, screaming as usual. I writhed and moaned and gasped. I came really hard, squirted all over the couch, and kept on coming as he kept up the stimulation. I was so tensed from the orgasms that my shoulders began to hurt. I asked for a break and while he backed off somewhat, he kept licking my clit. I came again and again asked for a break. This time he let me relax. We sat close together on the sofa and I thanked him. We chatted with MasterDoc and this guy’s lady. I was much happier than I had been earlier, now that I had a screaming orgasm.

In a little while we ended up in the pool again, which by this time had steam rising off the water. It was actually a little bit too warm but we soaked with others for a while. This cute, curvy woman we had been talking to came over and ultimately she ended up sitting on the edge of the pool with her legs on either side of MasterDoc’s head. She played with his hair (he was facing out, not towards her crotch) and I reached out and stroked his cock. I reached up and played with her nipples, asking her how she liked it - rough or gentle. She said rough so I began twisting and pulling and she closed her eyes and moaned a little. The three of us just hung out, touching and petting. Eventually MasterDoc got out from between her legs and I got in between to lick her clit. I sucked and licked and flicked at her clit as she moaned and panted. She told me I was good at that and from the angle I was in I was able to look up and watch her face while I ate her out. She had me stop after a while and she told me that I’m very good at that and that it made her all breathless. It feels really good to be told that.

The pool was too hot so we got out and ended up on the sofa again. After some more talking, MasterDoc decided to put me on the sybian. I set it up and got on. He controlled the vibration and I ground my clit into the machine. He got me really hot and when I asked to be allowed to come he made me ask again, louder and louder until people could hear me. He teased me for a bit and I begged for orgasm. Finally he let me and I screamed, moaned, my vagina clenching the dildo of the sybian. I had a wonderful orgasm. Again, I was a happy girl. Soon I ended up on my knees in front of MasterDoc, sucking his cock while he relaxed in a chair. I got him hard and he decided to fuck me. I kneeled on the chair, facing the back and he fucked me from behind. Oh it felt so good. While the sybian often numbs me this time I could feel his cock thrust in and out of me quite well. I asked for permission to come, and he let me after a few moments. I tried initially to not let my muscles push his cock out, but then realized he hadn’t told me I had to do that, so I just came. Of course my muscles pushed him out but he took over with his fingers and had me screaming and gasping as I leaned over the chair and came.

There was one more lady who needed a ride on the sybian, a lady who had played with us before at MasterDoc’s once. He put her on and took the controls (please note that every lady who used the sybian had to wash it after use). He got her worked up, then waved me over to start spanking her ass. I slapped and spanked as she moaned and he worked the controls. It was really hot to watch, even though I couldn’t see her face. MasterDoc focuses intently on the lady he’s working over and it was really fun to watch him at work. He knows just when to play with a nipple, just when to reach around and slap the ass. He strokes and pets and works the woman into a frenzy.

After she came, it turned out there was yet another woman who hadn’t gotten to ride and of course MasterDoc was happy to oblige. I had fun watching again, this time from a different angle where I could see the lady’s face. Her husband would help her stroke her clit (we’ve misplaced the attachment that helps raise the nubbly part of the pad to clit height) or stroke her ass. MasterDoc would crank the dial up to the highest setting and still she wanted more. He worked her over, made her come again and again.

It was really late, and after the last lady we started to pack up. I got a warm goodbye from the lady who I had licked earlier and I hope we get to play with her again. I loves me those curvy women. Rowr. We gave a ride to the subway to the couple who used the sybian last and they were really nice to chat with on the way. It was dawn by this time and we were both getting sleepy. We went through a drive through for breakfast and ate on the way home. It was light out by the time we got into bed, around 8 a.m. or so. I slept the day away and didn’t get up until 4-ish. We hung out, had a late lunch (or was it early dinner?) and MasterDoc got some cleaning out of me as well as a back massage. It grew late and I knew that Davey was expecting me home so I headed out around 8:30. I was so tired from messing up my sleep schedule that I went to bed early (10:30) and slept the night through. I woke up early today feeling refreshed.