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Anniversary

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Nadia

on July 31, 2009

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Yesterday marked 2 years since the day MasterDoc and I first met in person. We didn’t get freaky that day but a couple of days later we did, and I blogged about him for the first time on August 2, 2007. One of the reasons I love having a blog is that I can read back and reminisce. If you read that old entry you’ll see that I said I wasn’t “wildly physically attracted to him” at first and he has never let me live that line down.

“There was that time you said I was fugly,” MasterDoc often brings up.

“I never said you were fugly! You’re not fugly!” I have since admitted that it wasn’t so much his looks not being for me but the fact that he was so much older than me. Yes, I realize that’s not much better. Ha ha. But I never thought he was fugly. Ever. And of course now that I love him dearly looking at him can turn me on something fierce. He is phenomenally sexy.

So you’d think we’d fuck like rabbits in commemoration of our first meeting, but he was tired and achy, and by the time we were naked and in bed I was tired as well. In the end, I went down on him for a while, and then he caressed me and “accessorized” while I masturbated with the Acuvibe Mini. I squirted on my Liberator Throe and was thankful I made sure to put it down under me first. Orgasms make me happy, and I was happy. Some nights full on sex just isn’t in the cards. And while I was really horny earlier in the day, I was totally content with how things went because, as I said, I was tired as well. We got in some quality cuddling time too.

Two happy years in my first D/s relationship. And hopefully there will be many more.

Satisfaction

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Nadia

on July 29, 2009

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And yet again I fall behind in blogging. I get frustrated when I try to recount things that have happened a few days ago, as details that would have been included had I blogged immediately after are lost.

Saturday night was a usual night in for us. We lay on the bed and watched some kinky porn on the laptop. He lays on his side in front of the laptop, I lay with my head down the other end of the bed and my legs spread so that my pussy is within reach/sight of him. I could feel myself getting aroused, and he asked me why I wasn’t touching myself. I don’t know, sometimes I just enjoy getting horny watching the porn. He used the Acuvibe Mini on me as I continued to watch the porn intently. I was getting really worked up when, unfortunately, the Acuvibe began to run down. The vibrations slowed in intensity. It was barely noticeable to him at first, but I could tell the difference immediately. Sadly, I haven’t yet figured out exactly how long the Acuvibe runs on a single charge. I put it aside and recharged it the next day.

He decided to fuck me then, and I’m pretty sure I was wet. I felt eager for his cock to be inside me. I’m on hands and knees and he fucks me, bringing me to the edge of orgasm. The familiar moans I make when really aroused escaped my lips. I’m sure he knows from the sounds that I could come at pretty much any time. He keeps fucking me, teasing me, while he watches the porn on the laptop.

I start begging for orgasm. It’s just a few short “please” out of my mouth at first, but it soon builds to actual begging. I’m about ready to explode when he tells me to come - and he shoves his hard cock deep inside me and holds it in there as my pussy starts to contract. I’m coming, but also worried that my pussy might push him out. The harder I come, the more my vaginal muscles clamp down. I love feeling him push against me, keeping his cock inside for as long as possible. Alas my muscles win out and push his cock out, so he slaps my pussy, keeping me coming. I start to squirt quite a bit, and he quickly grabs the Fascinator Throe to put under me. It was a little bit late, the sheets got wet, but the Throe did suck up a lot of the moisture.

I was exhausted by the time he had me stop coming. I managed to fall forward onto the bed and rest for a few minutes while I tried to gather my wits about me. “Thank you, Sir,” I told him when I was capable of speech again.

After a short rest, he had me suck his cock hard through the condom that was still on. I’m quite the eager little cocksucker these days and I loved doing it. He had me get on top for a ride and I rode his cock until he gave me permission to come. I was a very happy girl after all this.

On Sunday, he gave me a sybian ride in the afternoon because he was planning to cam with DeeDee that night and my role in that was to pleasure him until he came. He’s amazingly good at manning the controls of the sybian. He made me come and come, timing the orgasms I had. I was well nigh exhausted when he stopped - I’m sure he could tell I was tiring out. It turns out I had been coming only for 2 solid minutes. He thinks we need to work me up to longer. I gingerly climbed off the sybian and collapsed on the floor. I lay there for a while after, while DeeDee called and told us a story about another Dom she had been chatting with online.

That night things didn’t go quite as planned as DeeDee’s daughter was home and she was unable to cam. Instead, he watched porn while I pleasured him. I started out sucking his cock - I can’t get enough of it lately and I love seeing just how far down my throat I can get it. Next, he had me move so I was on the other side of him. He stroked his cock while I used my lubed fingers to massage his ass. He likes a firm massage of the muscle of his buttocks and the area around the anus. He next had me lube up the Love Pacifier and slowly slide it into his ass. I played with it, pressing it towards his prostate. He gave me instructions and I followed, and it was such a great payoff when he came. I keep on playing with his ass while he comes and he quivers and keeps coming for a while. Since I was behind him, I didn’t get to see the cum shoot out of him but I could still tell he had a really nice orgasm. I was able to go to bed that night with a sense of satisfaction.

On With The Show

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Nadia

on July 5, 2009

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Friday, MasterDoc and I did something we haven’t done in a long time - we did a show. I can’t really remember how long it’s been - months - and I don’t have the patience to sift through old blog entries to figure out exactly how long it’s been. Suffice it to say, a long time. Without telling me, because he doesn’t usually tell me, he posted an ad online that asks if people want to come learn about bdsm.

My sinuses were bothering me that morning, so my first reaction was negative. But after I woke up a bit more and had some time to adjust to the idea, I was keen on it.

MasterDoc spends a good amount of time sifting through the men who respond to his ad. (I have to ask him, has a woman ever responded?) After years of doing this with a variety of subs I’m sure he’s worked out well how to tell who is ok to come and who is not. He had a nice young Irishman come over. I have to say, it was easy to hang out with the guy, a little less easy to be slutty in front of him because he was so darned nice. But I managed to get properly into subspace. And he seemed to enjoy himself a great deal.

MasterDoc frequently starts with having me suck his cock (this after some chit chat and gathering info on what the guy is interested in seeing). It’s a good way to start, I can bury my face in his crotch and forget that there’s someone watching. I can get into the beginnings of subspace with the simple act of sucking his cock. It’s easy until he makes me turn and look directly at the guy. I always feel shy when I have to engage with the guy at all. He had me look at the guy, and MasterDoc took his cock and slapped it against my open mouth a few times. Very slutty. He knows how hard it is for me to make eye contact. But doing it even though it’s hard for me is part of my submission.

Next, he had me kneel in front of a chair and take my pants down. My pants and panties around my knees, I knelt and leaned over the chair. He demonstrated spanking me, and flogging me. He really went at it - but it turned me on. He had me set up some toys ahead of time, and my folly was putting out the small leather flogger - it really stings when he flings it from hip to hip. I swear, the skin on my hips is more sensitive than the skin that’s on my butt.

Not that I’m complaining, mind you. I enjoyed it a great deal. He commented on how my ass turns nicely red these days when he spanks me. He had me get on the chair (it’s a recliner) and show my pussy to our guest. It’s funny how I feel shy, and yet I do it without any real hesitation. I really am an exhibitionist. MasterDoc got a towel to put down in case I came. He had me play with some toys and I used the Fun Factory Bloomy I just got. I’m really fond of it already. It curves up into my g-spot and the outside bit rubs against my clit. At one point MasterDoc got me to take my hands away, and he commented on how slutty it looks with the toy sticking out of my cunt. He wants a picture of that. He gave me the Acuvibe Mini and I used it on my clit. I got really worked up, but then he started slapping the inside of my thighs. He asked me if I was ready to come, and I had to admit that I wasn’t quite there. “I’ve been hitting you to hard to come,” he commented, and that was precisely the issue. Some pain hurls me closer to orgasm, and some pain is just too much to eroticize - and the level of pain that is one or the other varies from day to day.

He had me get on the Liberator Escape on the floor. I used the Acuvibe Mini on myself and got really worked up. He made me look at the guy and show him how much I wanted to get fucked. I could tell the guy really took pleasure in watching me get myself worked up. MasterDoc asked a few times, “Do you want to get fucked?” And every time of course my answer was, “Yes, Sir, I want to get fucked.” I was so aroused that my begging for cock was very real at this point. I had myself on the edge of orgasm, and having someone watch really added to the hotness factor.

He had me put a pillow under my ass, and he got down on the floor mat to fuck me. The guy got up to get a better view of the fucking. I was lost in desire. MasterDoc made me beg for orgasm, and I really came hard when he let me. I squirted, and felt the hot liquid run down my ass onto the pillow. The guy hadn’t quite seen the squirting, but when I got up the pillow had a large wet spot on it. After, MasterDoc talked a little about the idea that men judge women based on what they look like during orgasm - i.e., that the different faces (and, I’d presume, noises) women make are attractive to different men. I had never thought about that before. I know myself, that watching a woman during orgasm can be an amazing experience. Men are fun to watch too, but their orgasms seem to be over much more quickly. A woman’s orgasm can go on for a while.

The guy seemed to thoroughly enjoy himself. And I enjoyed the fact that my sluttiness turns people on. With the money from the show, MasterDoc treated me to sushi that night.

Review: Sugar High Glitter City DVD

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Nadia

on July 1, 2009

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A short while after I came out to myself as bisexual, I started frequenting the Planet Out website. I had a personal ad up that yielded pretty much nothing. (The worst being a three way date where I had the woman I was hot for tell me she was hot for the other woman. *sigh* And thus I remained a girl on girl virgin until I met my first girlfriend while on vacation in late 2001.) I’d look through the lists of gay/lesbian films and rent as many films as I could. But of course I couldn’t find the porn at my local video store. One of those movies was 2001’s Sugar High Glitter City, directed and produced by Jackie Strano and Shar Rednour. I have wanted to see that dvd since it came out, but I rarely buy porn. When Babeland offered it to review I gleefully took them up on the offer. This is my first DVD review - and I wish I had bought it years ago.

The plot is thus (from Babeland’s website):

In Sugar High Glitter City, sugar is outlawed and dykes will stop at nothing to get it…even selling their own bodies. Real-life, full-force, glam-sleazy dyke sex reigns in this real lesbian video with hot dildo action packed throughout. Shot on location in San Francisco and narrated by Honey Lee Cottrell, this is some of the hottest dildo lesbian sex we’ve seen in quite some time. The lesbian sugar fiends stop at nothing to get some! Nominated for AVN Awards for “Best All Girl Sex Scene” and “Best All Girl Feature”. We at Babeland say it wins “Best Chemistry” because you can’t hide the real dyke heat in this one.

Where do I start? Wow! Porn showing safer sex (latex gloves)! (No dental dams though, but to be fair what a dull porn that would be. You wouldn’t be able to see anything.) A wide variety of ethnicities are represented! A variety of body types! No fake tits! Various states of pubic hair. Butch dykes, femmes, and everything in between. Butches on femmes. Femmes on femmes. Butches on butches! Pierced nipples, piercings all over the place. Lots and lots of strap on cocks. Use of lube on sex toys. Lots of women having REAL orgasms! Squirting! This DVD has something for pretty much everyone who likes watching women get it on with women.

The sugar addiction theme pulls the scenes together without getting too much into trying to be a regular movie. (I hate when porn has long bits of non-sex scenes. I watch porn for sex!) The sex is realistic and hot. Unlike faux, hetero “lesbian porn” these women have short fingernails. It drives me nuts when woman on woman porn shows the women fingering each other with long fingernails. Ouch! I want to feel a firm finger against my g-spot and not a pointy nail. Real lesbian sex is so much hotter to watch (as a woman) than “lesbian” porn made to satisfy heterosexual men.

Sugar High Glitter City is approximately 70 minutes.

Beating and Review: The Curve

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Nadia

on June 6, 2009

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It had been a while since he beat me. I got to feeling neglected on Thursday night while he chatted up women online, I should have brought my computer so I could busy myself online as well. I got a little grumpy, but he took me into the bedroom for some cuddles and to point out that rather than getting sulky, when he’s ignoring me I’m welcome to snuggle against him now and then and see if I can distract him from what he’s doing. The next day he ignored me some more, he had an issue to deal with and he let me know that he was grumpy and I should leave him alone. So as per his request, I left him alone. Unfortunately I was feeling really needy for attention. I started to get depressed and so went and snuggled up in bed by myself.

He found me there, and asked if I was tired or just feeling blah. I told him I was feeling blah and he crawled into bed next to me to cheer me up. Later on he would point out that rather than get depressed, I should express my needs so he knows that I need attention. He said he didn’t want to reinforce bad behavior (sulking, getting depressed) so next time I want attention I should ask for it.

Despite his not wanting to reinforce bad behavior, he took some time to cheer me up in the foolproof way - a beating and orgasms. As I said, he hadn’t beat me in a while - I’m not really sure how long. He sucked and nibble on my nipples for a while. He had me get out some toys and my collar, and he had me get on all fours on the bed. He flogged my ass with the little flogger, gradually increasing in intensity. He’d stop and come forward so he could spank my ass with his hands, and to use the flogger on my upper back. Then he’d resume flogging my butt and thighs. He got really rough - I wasn’t sure I could handle it at times.

After several minutes of this, he had me lay on my back. He resumed flogging me, this time on my sensitive inner thighs. He had me put my hands behind my head so he could flog my breasts as well. He has terrific aim, and he hit my nipples mercilessly. He slapped my inner thighs and it hurt so much. He took to slapping, then flogging, my pussy and a few times the leather of the flogger hit my clit directly. Ouch!

I was wincing, squeezing my eyes shut. He got out the blindfold and had me put it on, he said it was easier to beat me if he couldn’t see my eyes. The blindfold blocked out all light and sight. He beat me some more, and I was unable to anticipate the blows. He’d finger my pussy a little, get me breathless and worked up, then start slapping my thighs again.

After the beating, he grabbed my new Curve dildo. I was probably already quite wet, but he used some lube on the toy. “Are you ready to get your pussy stuffed?” “Yes, Sir,” I replied.

The dildo is fairly thick and while parts of the the silicone are smooth the rest is somewhat textured. I needed more lube to get it inserted comfortably. He played with it, thrusting it in and out. The curve met my g-spot, but sometimes if he thrusted too hard he’d bang against my cervix, which hurt. He adjusted his thrust and soon I was moaning as he fucked me with the dildo. After a short while, he reached for the Hitachi Magic Wand and placed it against my clit. Ohmyfuckinggod! Being filled with the dildo and having my clit vibrated with the wand I was close to orgasm in no time. I started to beg.

“Oh, please Sir!” I gasped, “Please let me come! Please, please, please!” I was so close to orgasm I couldn’t stop begging for release. He kept me begging for a little while. I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to hold back.

With the curve filling me up and the wand working on my clit, when he gave me permission to come I had one of the most amazing orgasms I have ever had. I screamed out. I writhed so that the blindfold eventually slid off my head. I grabbed at his back and the bedsheets. I kept saying, “Fuck, fuck, fuck!” over and over again. It was a very long, very intense orgasm, or series of orgasms. I squirted a big puddle on the bedsheets. The combination of The Curve and the Wand is phenomenal. I don’t know that the Curve will be my favorite dildo (I still like the glass dildoes better), but it’s definitely a hit.

The Fun Factory Curve is silicone and therefore sterilizable and phthalate-free. It’s available at sex toys shop Vibrator.com and is in their dildo section. It comes in violet or pink (I was sent my favorite color - violet!) and has a head that comes to a prounounced bump to hit your g-spot. The handle can be used to thrust it or rubbed up against your clit while your pussy is stuffed with the dildo. It’s flexible yet firm.

The Rest of the Weekend

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Nadia

on June 2, 2009

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My mood improved over Saturday. By Saturday evening I was feeling reasonably sociable and our friend V. came over. She had a new flogger that her friend made from salvaged material (rubber) and she wanted to try it out. She had tried it with her girlfriend, but there was an issue with controlling it. She wanted to have MasterDoc try it since he’s much more experienced with floggers. It quickly became clear that the strands were too long and that was the issue. After a moment’s hesitation, V. agreed that he could cut the flogger down a bit. Eight inches or so later, the flogger was much more manageable. MasterDoc used it on V.’s butt for a while, then I got a turn. Man it stung!

On Sunday he and I went out to lunch and otherwise spent the day around his place. After I finished my required Wii Fit, I went to see MasterDoc who was lying in the bedroom, watching porn. We hadn’t necessarily planned to have sex just then, but he was inspired by a bit of the porn - the submissive was tied up (suspended but on her feet) with a magic wand at her clit. She was given two minutes to come. He had me get the magic wand out, put my collar on and get undressed. He teased me with the wand until I was aching to come. Then suddenly he said, “You have two minutes to come all you want. Go.” Instantly I started to come, screaming and quivering. I kept right on coming for the full two minutes, and it was hard to stop myself when he told me to stop. It felt amazing. Next he asked me if I was ready to be fucked. Oh yes please! He had me get the Liberator Wedge to put under his ass and I got on top for a ride. I was all wet from coming just moments before. We hadn’t had sex in two weeks and it was heavenly to feel his cock inside me.

Yesterday I was acutely aware of what at turn on it is for him to have control over when I orgasm. As I rode his cock I got more and more turned on thinking about how much I wanted to come, but that I wasn’t allowed to as of yet. I kept moaning and breathing heavy, fucking him frantically, feeling his cock slide in and out of me as my clit rubbed up against his tummy. At one point he slapped my face a few times and called me a whore. Jesus, that turned me on even more. I kept hoping he’d do it again. He made me promise that if I was allowed to come that I wouldn’t let my vaginal muscles push his cock out. I knew how hard that would be but I whimpered, “I promise I’ll try my best, Sir,” as I was desperate to come. Initially it worked, I focused on controlling my vaginal muscles while also letting myself orgasm. I struggled with it and ultimately got the point where I said, “Oh I can’t help it anymore!” and my muscles clenched down and pushed his cock out. Since he had said I was only allowed to come as long as his cock was inside me he ordered me to stop right then. The command didn’t sink in and I came for another few seconds, which he was not happy with. He asked me about it after to make sure it wasn’t me willfully disobeying, and I didn’t do it intentionally.

Since MasterDoc’s been sick lately, I didn’t really think we’d have more sex later on, but we did. Lucky me! The BDSM porn from before was put on again, and I reached down into my panties and played with myself - thinking how hot it must be to see a woman who is so horny that she will just lose herself in playing with her pussy. I would steal glances at MasterDoc stroking his cock, and at the porn. I worked myself up into a frenzy and hoped that my masturbating in front of him turned him on. He had me get lube and a condom and he fucked me from behind. There was much moaning and whimpering from me as it seemed to last forever. Oh dear god, it feels amazing and frustrating at the same time. When I have vanilla sex with someone, there’s this build up to orgasm and then an orgasm. It’s pretty quick. But with submitting to MasterDoc I’m held in state of all-consuming arousal for an extended period of time. I had such a hard time holding back. He fucked me hard and made me desperate to come. When I came, I squirted and fell forward after his cock was pushed out of me. I kept coming, and he kept stroking my back, grabbing my hair and touching me to prolong the feeling. I later had the thought that it must feel amazing to be able to make me come like that - intense orgasms even while there’s no direct genital contact.

After rest, there was some more fucking. This time I was on my back. I was pleasantly surprised at MasterDoc’s stamina considering he’s been sick and having back pain lately. Usually, after we fuck I’m in this blissful state where I curl up against him and stroke his chest… my arousal not abating. I get hopeful that my touching him and kissing his chest will get him to fuck me again, and very often I’m successful. (Of course, it is more than likely true that he wants to fuck some more and it’s not just my desire that fuels it.) On Sunday night I didn’t want to be too aggressive though, as I knew he hadn’t been feeling well. But he fucked me for a while and let me come - slapping my pussy to keep me coming (and squirting).

Now, three wonderful fucks in one day would have been enough to make me VERY happy. But he decided to fuck me again, this time with me on top. He reached around and slapped my ass which just drove me wild. I’m very lucky to have a Dom who wants to have sex over and over in an evening. By the time the evening was over, I was grinning like an idiot and amazingly happy. Good sex cures my depression pretty much every time - I haven’t felt depressed since.

I noticed that evening the feeling of intimacy that comes from being submissive to someone (over a long period of time). It’s not quite there in vanilla sex. My pleasure is directly tied to his pleasure and choices as to what we do, and as such that’s extremely intimate.

He asked me, “So was that worth waiting two weeks for?” Hell yes!

Passionate Fucking on a Sunday Afternoon

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Nadia

on May 18, 2009

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I had expected to not see MasterDoc for a stretch of 10 days, thankfully he found free time a couple of times this week. Sunday afternoon I got to spend time time at his place. He was tired when he first got home so he held me off for a while, but then he decided he was up for it. While he has guests staying at his place this week (his friend Liz’s parents) they were out for a while, so we had the place to ourselves. But rather than having sex in the living room on the floor, or in the spare room, we were confined to the master bedroom with the squeaky bed. On the up side, the squeaky bed is king-sized.

We got naked and he had me set up some porn on the laptop (which we never ended up turning on). I had been really horny for days so I started stroking his cock without being told. We cuddled up close and I kept his hard cock in my hand. I caressed his inner thighs and near the base of his cock. He complimented me on my skills - which is very satisfying to hear. I sucked his cock for a little bit, and then went back to stroking it. He rolled over onto his side and as I continued to stroke his hard cock he reached over and started playing with my pussy. He had me wet his fingers with saliva and he caressed my cunt, getting me aroused. He had me wet his fingers again and he slid them into me. He fingered me, prodding my g-spot. It felt so delightful that I was breathing heavy and pressing back against his fingers. He had me beg before he would allow me to come. When I came, his fingers kept right on stroking the inside of me and I felt like I squirted but I’m not sure that I actually did. His strong fingers pressed inside me and my orgasm went on for a while.

After, I was in a daze but quickly thanked him for my orgasm. I felt amazing, but I was glad when it turned out we weren’t done. I sucked his cock for a while, making sure it was hard. He had me put a condom on him and we decided to use the Liberator Wedge underneath him while I got on top. This put his hips up higher than usual and kept his cock deep inside me. I rode his cock, and it was like every nerve ending in my vagina was on full alert. I closed my eyes and concentrated on fucking him. The wedge helped him thrust especially deep. I gasped and started hoping he’d let me come. I kept fucking him, rocking my body back and forth, listening to the incessant squeaking of the bed. When he let me come I grunted and moaned like an animal in heat. His cock stayed in me longer with the wedge underneath him. After the orgasm, I took a break and rested on him. We talked and cuddled a bit, but then he started moving his hips again. I thought I was too tired to go on but I became aroused again. We fucked a bit longer until my vaginal muscles pushed his cock out and I said, “Shit!”

We rested and cuddled some more. I love being pressed up close against him, my hand stroking his chest. I was already feeling quite satisfied when he said, “Is your cunt wet?” I reached down and found that I was still dripping wet from before. He had me get on my hands and knees and bend over the wedge. He fucked me from behind and it felt so wonderful that I almost didn’t want to come, because I knew if I came that would end the fucking. He fucked me hard and I kept moaning and crying out in pleasure. I made such a racket, it’s a damn good thing no one else was in his apartment. I wondered if I would manage to hold back coming until he gave permission. I waited a while before asking for permission but the pleasure became too intense I had to start begging. But he didn’t let me come. He told me that I wasn’t going to be allowed just then. I went back to savoring the feeling of his cock sliding in and out of me. I made noises as if I was coming but it was just from the rolling waves of pleasure coursing through me.

When he did let me come it was intense. I lost track of my surroundings and all I was aware of was my vaginal muscles clenching, and squirting a whole lot of liquid, and his hand slapping my cunt as I kept coming and coming, my juices splattering. The bed and wedge were soaked. Thankfully he didn’t mind.

I thanked him, and was a very, very happy and satisfied slut.

The Evil Strap

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Nadia

on May 2, 2009

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He hadn’t beaten me in a long time, and I was craving it. I had asked for it a few times recently, but only got a small amount of spanking during sex. The other night, however, he brought out some impact toys. We’re unfortunately missing a few (the black hole of sex toys in his apartment hasn’t been identified yet, despite my bullet vibe turning up and making us hopeful) but of course the evil strap (I should take a picture of it. I forget what he says it’s actually for - it’s a pervertable you see) is still around. Can’t lose that thing.

Funny though, depending on how my pain tolerance is sometimes the evil strap isn’t such a bad thing. I probably shouldn’t say that because there are days where it’s intolerably painful. But Thursday night my pain tolerance was pretty good, and I was so ready for a beating. He spanked me hard with his hands to warm me up. He used the flogger a little, but he really used the rubber strap. But strangely, I liked it. I’m sure he didn’t hit me really hard with it, but while it hurt it also felt really good. He had teased me and gotten me really horny first so I was aching for orgasm and I have to say, I felt almost like the beating by itself could make me come. He got into it, telling me to, “Take it, bitch.” Ooh sometimes I just love when he’s mean.

I’m getting horny writing this.

He had me on my knees for a while, which was difficult as my knees have been a little sore lately. I really struggled to keep myself there without asking to change positions. He fucked me from behind and let me come. Rowr. Hot. Then we rested and I lay down and stretched my legs out. Ah relief.

Next he has me get on top, and again my tired knees and hips were trying to convince me to give up. I struggled to keep the momentum going riding him. But the funny thing is I’d go from aching and thinking I couldn’t keep going, to suddenly not noticing the soreness and fatigue because I was so stimulated by his cock sliding in and out of me. It’s amazing what arousal can do for your stamina. He teased me for quite a while and it felt amazing - when I’m aroused like that it’s such a fine line between feeling wonderful and feeling frustrated. I kept hoping for permission to come but he told me that I wasn’t going to come right then. Aw! I leaned forward, whimpered, and cuddled him as I tried to cool myself down.

Thankfully for my sore knees next time he took me and got on top. My arousal was so high at this point I suppose it’s inevitable that I’d squirt - and when I came I squirted a huge puddle on the pillow underneath my ass. He slapped by clit to keep me coming after he pulled out and I kept right on squirting.

Fangirl Divasub

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Nadia

on February 4, 2009

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It’s kinda funny how this little blog has netted me a few “fans.” I’m really glad that people enjoy reading about my adventures and I hope I inspire them to get up to a few adventures of their own. It’s interesting meeting a fan in person because they know so much about me, and I know so little about them. They’re excited to meet me because they have his image of who I am, but who I seem on my blog is not the entire story.

Last night I met divasub. We’d emailed on collarme and fetlife off and on for a while, and she became a fan of this blog. It was a great pleasure to meet her, and while there were fangirl moments for her it never got weird. And she acknowledged the fact that despite how outgoing I seem on here I can actually be a shy person, and I was a bit shy. She came over to MasterDoc’s (turns out she’s in the neighborhood!) for dinner and left a happy girl.

We ordered Indian food and hung out, talking about all manner of things from sex work (you just never know who’s been a sex worker in some form or another), to her stripey socks (they were really cool). When the food came, MasterDoc got the door and he had a chuckle when he came back to us. Apparently the guy delivering the food looked past MasterDoc, saw us two young ladies chatting on the sofa, and he looked longingly like he wanted to come in. More confirmation that MasterDoc is the man.

After dinner my collar came out. I wasn’t sure if he was going to dom me in front of her or not - I had planned a nice innocent evening playing games. Apparently MasterDoc had other things in mind. It can be a little humiliating to be dommed in front of someone new. Luckily I like a little humilation play. But yes, it is hard to switch into sub mode and be used in front of someone you’re hoping to develop a friendship with. He had me suck his cock for a while and divasub watched. In between there was some talking, some girl-on-girl mouth action, and MasterDoc succeeded in getting divasub to show us her stripey underpants. There was much flirting, much laughing and occasionally my collar came off because we were having too much fun laughing and talking and not getting up to kink.

When the collar went on again, MasterDoc led us into the bedroom. There he had me take my pants down and he gave me a good thorough spanking. It’s interesting trying to figure out what implement he’s using. It wasn’t until he leaned in close to whisper to me that I saw the pedicure file in this hand and knew what he was using (it’s like a small paddle with a rough surface). I was still feeling embarrassed at being used, but divasub seemed to be enjoying herself immensely. He got rough but my pain tolerance was pretty good last night. A few yelps here and there but overall I did well. From their talking I could tell my ass had gotten nice and red.

MasterDoc had me turn over, I asked to take my sweater off as I was hot, and he spanked my inner thighs a bit. Then I well and truly lucked out, he felt like going down on me and did so for a while. Rowr. It felt lovely and divasub stroked my leg at the same time and it all felt electric. He teased me with his tongue and lips until I was panting. (He commented on how most porn movies seem to teach exactly how NOT to go down on a woman. MasterDoc is certainly someone who knows how to do it properly.)

The hitachi magic wand made an appearance and he teased me with the wand. Divasub had just gotten one a few weeks back for her birthday, so she had been getting familiar with this wonderful toy. MasterDoc gave pointers on technique as he teased me. Then, he offered the wand to divasub, who seemed really happy to take over. She placed it directly and firmly on my clit and I thought my head was going to come off my shoulders. I begged MasterDoc for permission to come. He asked her to back off a little, as he hadn’t planned on letting me come yet. She moved it off a bit but still the stimulation was a lot. He asked her if she thought I deserved to come. She pointed out that what I deserved aside, she wanted to see me come. And for her benefit he let me come - something which MasterDoc has said he should sell tickets to. When I come I scream, moan, pant, grunt. My body tenses and quakes. I squirted a little but thankfully didn’t get any on divasub.

Around this time it was time to call it a night. Divasub and I both had work in the morning. I took my bra off since I was otherwise naked anyway, and from her email today apparently it was a real highlight when I gave her a hug while naked before she went out into the cold night. Her memory is better than mine, and she sent me a timeline today that helped me construct this blog entry. (Thanks!) I enjoyed the night on several levels - getting to know someone who could become a good friend, getting spanked and tongued and allowed to come, getting my ego stroked by divasub’s fangirl moments. It can feel odd having fans, but damn do I like it.

Afternoon Fucking and Squirting

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Nadia

on January 25, 2009

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I’m not going to see him for a few days, but I was very lucky and we got in a couple more fucks before I left. He teased me with the magic wand, getting me writhing and moaning. I would gasp as he moved the vibrating head over my clit. He had me wiggling and trying to press my cunt harder against the wand. He would leave the wand resting on my clit then suck my breast into his mouth. I would miss the pressure of him holding the wand on me. Then he’d pick it up again and reposition it over my clit. I’d moan some more, trying to rub my clit up against the vibrating head. He got me into such a frenzy that I started to beg for permission to come. “Not yet,” he said. I was so eager and horny at that point. The vibrations felt delectable but an orgasm would feel even better.

He switched the wand off, telling me that we don’t want me to get numb (the vibrations can make me numb sometimes). He got a condom and put it on. He made me say please before he would put his cock inside me. After I said please he slid it in. I moaned slightly. He fucked me for a bit, my arousal not quite where it was with the magic wand. But then he did something different, and my arousal shot up - he slapped my face and fucked me hard a few times. Immediately I was ready to come. I gasped out, “Please.” So often I can’t get the full phrase out, “Please may I come, Sir,” so I just beg, “Please.”

He grabbed my hair and I moaned. He kept fucking me and teasing me. He slapped my face again. Finally, he said, “Come, cunt.” My cunt clenched and bore down on his cock. I grabbed at his hips, trying to pull him deeper inside me. Eventually my muscles pushed him out, and he slapped my clit hard as I continued to come. Finally he told me that I’d had enough. As I lay on the bed he turns me over a bit and slaps my ass hard several times.

We rested, I snuggled into his chest and thanked him for the orgasms. After a short break he told me to suck his cock again, that if I made it hard maybe he’d fuck me again. I ran my tongue along the shaft and around the head, I sucked it into my mouth and ran my lips tightly over the length of it. Before long he was hard again. He told me to get a condom and get on top.

His cock softened a little so it wouldn’t go in very well when I got on top. After just a few seconds, he told me to get off and suck some more. He gave me the option of taking the condom off (he knows the reservoir tip makes me gag) but I just pushed the tip down with my tongue and struggled against my gag reflex. I sucked his cock enthusiastically and it was soon hard again. I got on top and we fucked.

After a short while, his cock softened a bit again. He commanded, “Come.” and my whole body immediately tensed and I fell forward onto his chest. My legs and arms clenched as I orgasmed. I held onto him tightly. Again, I felt so lucky to be with him.

As we lay on the bed after, he turns to me and says, “Make yourself come really quickly.” It takes a few seconds for that to register in my brain but then I rub my clit frantically and within seconds I’m coming. And I’m not only coming but I’m squirting a whole lot as well. He spurs me on saying, “Yes, that’s a good girl.” When my arousal wanes slightly he says to me, “Come on, again,” and I come again. I keep squirting and coming as he strokes my body. “One last time,” he says and I rub another one out, moaning and writhing as I rub my clit. The last orgasm lasts a while and I feel so wonderful. It’s amazing how he makes my body feel. After a bit he tells me that I’ve had enough and I slowly take my hands away from my pussy. I left such a large puddle that I had to change the sheets before I left.