Diary of a Kinky Librarian

On Wednesday, I twittered about some porn I was watching and masturbating to. MasterDoc took notice of this and had me re-create my masturbation session for him. He wanted me to come at the same points I came the night before. He had me put clothes on and everything to re-create how I was when I masturbated (hands down pants with the bullet vibe, on the living room sofa). We watched the long training of Delilah Strong video, and I realized that I had watched quite a bit of it before I got myself off.

Masturbating for him got me more worked up than masturbating by myself did. I wanted to come much earlier than I had the night before and had to fight off the urge to come. I was supposed to come only when I had come the night before, or the best approximation I could make of it. While we watched the video I realized that the things that got me off weren’t things that were directly sexual. If you go watch the video, you’ll see that it’s largely submissive training with the subject being made to hold difficult physical positions for lengths of time. Only when she’s done satisfactorily do they give her a magic wand and 30 seconds to get herself off. I came as she masturbated the first time, and MasterDoc made me stop after 30 seconds like she did. We watched some more, MasterDoc telling me to keep myself at the height of arousal, ready to come at any time. When she was given the magic wand again I was told to come again and I was so turned on that I came really hard - the type of orgasm where you totally lose consciousness about your surroundings. Again, he had me stop after 30 seconds. I could have kept going for 30 minutes.

He was stroking his cock the whole time I worked myself up with the vibe. I’m sure he could tell how aroused I was by my breathing growing ragged and little gasps that I’d let out. He decided to fuck me and had me get up on hands and knees. I was so wet and hot that he slid in easily. I wanted to come almost right away and I moaned loudly. He pounded me and I felt it deep within my abdomen. I started begging to come and he responded by spanking my ass. This just made me want to come more and I had to work hard to hold off coming. I moaned more and more, yearning for release. When he finally let me come my vaginal muscles contracted and as they pushed his cock out I fell forward, coming convulsively even without vaginal stimulation. He spanked my ass, stroked my body, clasped my thighs and I just kept coming. I lost all awareness of my surroundings, my entire focus was on my body, the orgasms I was having and him touching me. I squirted a huge puddle in the middle of the bed.

After I recovered, and he embarassed me by making me show our friend Liz the huge wet spot on the bed, we went back to watching the video (it’s over an hour long). I was horny again but somehow wasn’t sure if it was okay if I played with myself. MasterDoc pointed out that I could (doh!) and I started stroking my wet pussy. I’m so used to playing with a vibe that it can be difficult to bring myself over the edge with just my fingers. I worked at it though, but after a while grabbed the bullet vibe again. He let me come again, and this time he kept telling me to come. I milked my body for all the orgasms I could - continuing on even after I thought I would run out of steam. I had long dreamed of being forced to orgasm and this was the first time (I think) that he had me go and go and go. He asked me if I’m a dirty whore and in the heat of passion I had no trouble saying, “Yes, Sir, I’m a dirty whore.” Eventually, he told me that I had enough.

He fucked me again, from behind, and again I moaned like a bitch in heat. I was so turned on - I don’t know how I could hold onto that level of arousal for that long but I did. When he told me to come again it was like last time, only even more intense. I fell forward, screaming and coming. It amazes me how I will keep orgasming even after stimulation has stopped. My brain was totally in another world. When he stopped, I lay on the bed, face down, spent. I quickly said, “Thank you, Sir.” because the porn was on my mind where she got scolded for taking too long to express gratitude. I lay there for a while after this as I was still out of it - and feeling very, very satisfied.

The next morning, I was in the best mood ever. And I enjoyed one of those rare times when I feel sexually satisfied and no longer horny (although always ready for more!) Tomorrow night we’re going out to a bdsm party and I look forward to being in submissive mode and playing around/with others. There’s a lady who’s going to be there who is keen to play with me (rowr!)