Diary of a Kinky Librarian

In stark contrast to the post before this, I had a good time today with the Irishman. I was very nervous as I feel like I still don’t know him as well as I’d like to, but typical me I gave in to my sexual urges anyway. The situation with him is clearly just sexual but I don’t know that I mind that. I wish he was in better shape than he is but he’s damn good with his fingers. He’s very passionate and I like that. While he wasn’t the best I’ve had, he was enjoyable. I’m happy to be slutting it up again. *grin* (I also got down with Davey this weekend a couple of hot, hot times. And what’s good is that I feel like my old, wanton self - I keep gradually getting more and more back to feeling like ‘me’ again.)

I did have a “mortifying moment” today though. I had an upset stomach this morning (nerves) and while I thought I took care of everything I discovered ’skid marks’ on the bedsheets after he fingered me. Yikes. EMBARASSING! Horrifying. I didn’t want to point out that I squirted because the skid marks were right there along with the puddle. Gross! I felt freaked out but if he noticed (I’ll bet he did) he didn’t say. Argh! How awful for the first time you’re with someone to be a time when something gross and embarassing happens. And then a little later, because my muscles bear down when I come, I think a wee bit was er, coming out my butt. Eww! He stopped fingering me kinda abruptly and things seemed a little out of sorts down there when I used the bathroom shortly after. I just wanted to fall through the floor! Still, he didn’t say anything and didn’t seem weirded out by me, so either it wasn’t as monumental as I think it was or even if it was he wasn’t freaked out by it. *sigh* This is real life folks. It’s not as smooth and mess-free as the porn flicks would have you think. Gah! I’m still horrified by this. So this afternoon was a strange combination of hot and horrifying. lol I’d prefer if it was just hot.