Diary of a Kinky Librarian

I asked for a beating on Sunday, it had been a while since I had one. MasterDoc was happy to oblige although at the outset he wasn’t in the beating mood.

First he played with clothespins on my outer labia. He had me hold them to my thighs so that my lips were spread wide apart. The clothespins pinched my skin. He used the Babelight on my clit. He looked intently at my cunt and ran his fingers over it.

After he removed the clothespins he had me get on hands and knees. This time he used the clothespins on my left breast. He had me use the vibrator on myself to get warmed up. He spanked my ass a few times and then decided to fuck me.

Thankfully he used some lube because I don’t think I was wet yet. As he slid into me I forgot all about the idea of a beating and just wanted a good fucking. But he kept spanking my ass - hard. He also got the small flogger and flogged my upper back. My pain tolerance wasn’t great yesterday, so I found that while he was just fucking me I’d get really aroused and want to come, but when he’d strike me the arousal would subside a bit from the pain. Not every beating puts me right into subspace, sometimes the damn thing hurts. It’s funny how sometimes the pain enhances my arousal and other times it inhibits it.

He teased me for a while, getting me on the edge, begging. He allowed me to come, and as I came he hit my ass some more times - I feel that the intensity of the orgasm was diminished by the pain. I just didn’t have good pain tolerance yesterday.

He had me suck his cock hard again a short while later, and he fucked me some more. This time he pulled out before I reached orgasm and told me to make myself come (I was using the vibrator on my clit) but every time he hit me the pain interrupted the flow of energy and I just wasn’t able to come, which was a bit of a bummer. I wish my pain tolerance was more consistent - particularly in the way of being enjoyable! I wanted a beating but then I had a hard time taking it. Feh. I guess not every beating can be cathartic and orgasmic.