Diary of a Kinky Librarian

A couple of weeks ago MasterDoc asked me if I thought we were getting too casual. I don’t wear my collar so often these days and he felt that maybe this wasn’t a good thing. At the time I shrugged it off, having a relationship that’s not too serious is one of the things that I like about our relationship - we joke often and have a good time with each other.

However, this past weekend I started to feel like I missed my collar - I barely wore it this weekend. Now while I’m always his submissive and I always do things to serve him like draw his bath or get him something to drink from the kitchen, when the collar is on I’m supposed to be a bit more serious and focused on submitting and service. One thing I stumble over regularly is remembering to call him “Sir” when I have the collar on. So while I anticipate struggling with the “Sir” bit, I do find that I miss my collar and wish I had it on a bit more. (Of course, my luck will be he’ll decide I should wear it when I’m totally not in a submissive mood and then he’ll point out, “But you said you wanted to wear it more on your blog!”) There’s something I like about how I am when I’m in the collar - I’m very focused on him and on being a good girl. I become quiet and, well, submissive.