This entry is kinda random and I couldn’t come up with a title.
I got to see MasterDoc again on Sunday evening. My depression is still lingering although being around him helped cheer me up some. Again, he gave me lots of lovely orgasms, which helped my mood. We fucked with me on top and after I had gotten myself on the edge of orgasm, but before I broke down and begged to come, he told me to come. I came and my body convulsed with pleasure. After my vaginal muscles pushed his cock out I kept coming and spasming. He held me close to him and slapped my ass a bit and I just kept right on coming. It is absolutely amazing what he can do to me.
He had me get the archer wand and my bullet vibe. I rubbed the vibe against my clit as he slid the cool glass along the opening to my cunt. He gently slid the bulbous end into me. I could feel it against my g-spot as he jiggled it in and out. Before long I was moaning and desperate to come. He gave me the command, and I came long and hard. I had to try to stifle my screams as it was late but it was so hard to quiet down. I was lost in multiple amazing orgasms. He’s very good to me.
He fucked me some more from behind, then he lubed up my asshole and played with it while he fucked me. He planned to fuck me up the ass but somehow he couldn’t get the right spot. He pushed against me but it wouldn’t go in. It felt like he was just slightly off from the opening. I’m a little sore from the pushing. He decided it wasn’t worth the effort since it wasn’t going in easily. He apologized for the soreness when I told him about it last night. With him there’s definitely a difference between intentional pain and unintentional pain.
I have such a peculiar life. I’ve been spending about three nights a week at MasterDoc’s lately. I feel very much at home in his place, and of course I feel at home in my actual home. I spend nearly as much time at his place as I do at home. This poly thing is certainly different - different men, different nights, different abodes. I regularly pack an overnight bag, and I go to work from different places on a regular basis. I’m not complaining one bit, as I’m very happy. But it’s definitely unconventional and I realize that. It’s a strange life to be living out of a backpack a few nights a week. I’ve kept toiletries at MasterDoc’s for a while now, so I don’t have to pack everything I need every time I go over there. It feels like a second home. I don’t know how he’s going to react to me saying that, as recently I accidentally referred to going to his place after work as “going home” and he was a bit taken aback by that. (Quite honestly, any place I’m staying/going to after work can be referred to as “home.” It’s like work and home are opposites. If I’m not at work, then I’m at “home.”) I certainly do feel at home at his place, but I never forget that it’s not my actual home. My home is where my stuff is, and where I pay rent, and where I share life with Davey. But it’s kinda nice to feel at home at two places, just like it’s nice to feel loved by two men. I like this poly thing.
Things have been quiet in my life lately. I saw MasterDoc briefly on Saturday morning but we just hung out. My butt is unfortunately completely bruise-free at the moment.
I had a hot thought today - if I ever engage in play piercing I *have to* have a camera handy as I want pictures of the work.
MasterDoc and I may be going to TESFest, this is not definite yet. I’m keen to go to the beginning needle play class, and the class on cutting. When I was younger I used cutting as an outlet for bad feelings, and I think it would be interesting to play with it in the controlled environment of my relationship with MasterDoc. Instead of doing it to myself under emotional duress, it would be administered to me in the context of a scene. I imagine that it might have the same cathartic effect. It’s funny, the classes that catch my eye at TESFest are all under the category of “edge play.” I haven’t ever thought of myself as an edge player, but I think I’ve moved further in that direction as my submissive journey goes on.
I hope we go to TESFest as there’s a local group of people from FetLife meeting up, and it would be cool to put faces and names to the online personas.
In the meantime, I’ve been discovering more and more kink blogs while on FetLife. I’ve added a few to my feed reader and hope to add them to my links list when I get around to it. I may only update my new site, however, as I keep hoping to move over there and leave blogspot behind. Ok, this isn’t the grand unveiling I wanted it to be (the site still doesn’t have the banner I created for the top. I’m having problems with wordpress and I’m not tech savvy enough to solve them) but the new blog site will be at kinkylibrarian.net. Yup, I’ve finally got my own kinky librarian domain like I always wanted. I’ve been mirroring the entries I have here on that site, and I uploaded my old entries a little while back. You can read the blog at either site. Eventually, however, I will move over to that one exclusively. Anyone who links to me, please update your links. Thanks.
Well having the widget hasn’t yielded much. First person to message me was trying to speak to me in Turkish. (I only know this because the only things I could understand were “No English.” and “Turkish.”) Alas, I do not speak or read Turkish (and babelfish doesn’t translate) so I couldn’t have a conversation with this person. Next, someone sent me a message saying they like my blog. This was really nice and I would have responded but I was away from the computer having dinner at the time. By the time I came back they were gone. It’s nice to see people are looking at my blog, however. Nearly all the time I’m online (usually in the evenings) there’s someone or another showing up on my blog widget, even if they don’t say hello. (Everyone’s called “guest” and a number.)
Looking at my site stats has become a daily diversion. The most oft used search term to find my blog? “Sex” Some people also search specifically for the kinky librarian or masterdoc. My fetlife profile has been getting me a little bit of traffic as well. Links from other blogs are great.
Today I’m going over to MasterDoc’s but he has a guest staying with him this week. Puppy is a 21-year-old submissive of his, who’s been away at college across the country. Needless to say he’s looking forward to having a threesome with us. He also may be planning a show with the two of us. And, he plans to take us both out to one of our usual swing clubs tomorrow night. Ah the perks of being a Dom!
Sometimes I wish being a fem sub had some of the perks of being a fem domme. I’d really love to get Photoshop (and/or Dreamweaver) so I could make my own site but it’s friggin expensive ($649 and$399 respectively) and I rather doubt anyone would give a fem sub tribute. lol I’m thinking about getting my own domain name and switching to typepad or word press to do my blogging. I’m pretty sketchy on how all this is done but D.S. and one of my librarian friends are willing to help me. (Yes a few librarian friends know about this blog.) I’d consider buying Photoshop Elements (downloaded a free trial yesterday) but it’s really not what I’m looking for. The free Photoshop Express is way too limited to be of assistance too. Anyone know where I could get these cheap? I know of a site that is cheaper for non-profits and students and such, but I don’t have a current student ID anywhere. *sigh* Too bad I didn’t know about that when I was working on my Master’s degree. I’ve never used Dreamweaver but I’m familiar with some other Adobe products. Anyone know of comparable freeware?
I saw my psychiatrist today and he’s reducing my dose of prozac. He says I should give it two weeks and if my libido and orgasm issues haven’t resolved themselves by then I should call him and we’ll try something different. I like my shrink. He’s someone who you can talk about sexual issues with in a calm, no-big-deal sort of way, like two adults.
I’m feeling lonely tonight. Davey was away all weekend (and D.S. canceled plans on me again) so I’ve spent a lot of time by myself since Saturday morning. Davey’s out tonight at a hockey game, a birthday present to himself. I’m happy for him to go enjoy a hockey game, I’m just feeling sorta lonely and cranky tonight. I’ve been feeling like I want attention all weekend. Of course, I’m sure my being premenstrual plays into all this.
Aww, MasterDoc and S. just called me. MasterDoc picked up on my glum mood via my IMing with him a short while ago so he decided to give me a call. I tell you, he’s really good at picking up on my moods. Having some human contact perked me up a bit.
Looks like HPV is becoming a bigger issue for men now as well. Of course, I don’t think getting paranoid about HPV is useful since it’s an extremely common virus. It just makes checking up on your health even more important. I stick to a schedule of regular pap tests because it would be idiotic in this day and age to skip them and end up with cervical cancer. (Ok so the test doesn’t prevent cervical cancer, but it does detect cell changes early.)
I think that’s all I had to babble about tonight.
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