Monthly Archive for February, 2009

10, 9, 8…

I had been feeling horny, so when we climbed into bed, watching porn on the laptop, I got worked up in no time. I felt that familiar ache in my crotch. I was sure that I was becoming wet watching the actors on the screen. It was a scene with one woman chained up and two men taking their turns slapping her breasts and stroking her pussy. I imagined that it was my pussy being roughly played with. MasterDoc stroked my back gently and I closed my eyes to enjoy his touch. “I like touching you,” he said to me, and I smiled languidly.

I rolled onto my back to face him. He told me to get on my hands and knees by the edge of the bed. I dutifully did, my collar already around my neck. I yearned to be touched as my ass sat in the air. He slapped me, a stinging slap, first on one side of my ass then on the other. He warmed me up quickly and started hitting harder and harder. It hurt, but it hurt deliciously. He flogged me with the black rubber flogger, and its small ends stung me. He slapped me again and again. I could feel my ass turning a warm red. My head was turned to the side and I could see when he picked up the large paddle. He walked back behind me and said, “This is going to hurt.”

I put my head down and braced myself for the paddling. And it did hurt, but I found myself moaning with each hit. Not a moan of pain, but a moan of pleasure - a moan that went along with my growing arousal. It hurt, but somehow I didn’t want it to stop.

After the spanking, I was left on my knees playing with the nea he had let me have at some point. I rubbed the vibrator against my clit, yearning for more - more hitting, more pain, more pleasure, more touch. He made me look at him, and I looked in his eyes as I played with myself. He took a long look at me and I found it hard to hold his gaze. “Look at me,” he said again and I did. With my attention on him he said, “I’m going to count backwards from ten. And when I reach one I want you to come.”

He started counting, and the pressure was on. I furiously rubbed the vibrator against my clit getting my arousal up, but not up enough to come. Trying to get to that perfect point where I could come at the drop of a hat. He counted down slowly. 10. He got up off the bed and walked around behind me. 9. 8. I focused my entire being on my clit and the sound of his voice. 7. 6. As he got closer to one, I grew more and more excited. I knew that just by the sound of his voice and the power of his control over me that I would come at his command. He paused for longer between two and one than he had between the other numbers. And when he said one, I grunted and my muscles contracted. He stroked my ass and back and told me what a good girl I am as my cunt convulsed in orgasm. I kept coming and coming and he stroked the inside of my thighs, pressing himself up against me. Just by telling me to come, he enabled me to have the most amazing orgasm. I quivered, grunted, moaned, whimpered. The power radiating out from my clit took over my focus. I’m getting hot thinking about it.

He had me rest after and I lay down on my stomach, breathless. A short while later he had me suck his cock until it was hard and then he fucked me as I lay on my back. Even though I was incredibly wet from the orgasm before, it still felt like he was pushing his way into my tight cunt. I could feel his cock stretch the walls and slide into me. It felt divine being fucked. He plowed into me, thrusting and thrusting. I felt every stroke along every square inch of my vagina. He fucked me for a while, I held off coming as I know he doesn’t want me begging too quickly. Unfortunately, I didn’t get to come that time around. However, I was still glowing from the orgasm earlier and I didn’t mind too much. He fucked me for as long as he pleased.

After an orgasm and a beating, I feel so calm, so happy. My devotion to MasterDoc is rock solid at that point. No one has ever been able to make me feel the way he does.

Sunday

The weekend started out dismal. I was feeling depressed after a rough week and MasterDoc had to cancel on me for Saturday night. (It was his daughter’s 18th birthday - a very good reason to change plans with me suddenly.) I managed to get myself in a better mood and spent a nice evening alone. Bright and early Sunday morning, MasterDoc called to see if I wanted to come over and visit for a few hours. I was delighted.

Knowing I had been feeling down (and was feeling desperate after two weeks with no sex), he set forth to give me a bunch of orgasms. Hooray orgasms! He flogged and spanked me a bit as well. We fucked three times (with a break in the middle for lunch and watching a movie) and his cock was nice and hard. Even when I came very hard he kept my pussy from pushing his cock out. It felt so nice to have his hard cock inside me after 2 weeks of no penetration. I like penetration! It was wonderful to be begging him for orgasms again. It’s funny, when I get the chance to orgasm at will I’m thrilled with the freedom, but when I have to beg him for orgasms I’m also thrilled. I like when he has control. (Guess that’s kinda why I submit to the man, eh?) We finished off with me on top, riding him. I just love falling forward onto a man’s chest after an orgasm. There’s something so very intimate about having a cock inside you as you cling to him closely, bodies pressed together.

Part of why MasterDoc wanted to make sure I was a happy girl was because last night I had scheduled my first date with a guy in who knows how long. MasterDoc has given me permission to date and fuck other guys (after frequent asking for permission on my part), but yesterday afternoon he instructed me that he didn’t want me having sex last night. After Sunday night I could do as I wanted, but this time I was to behave myself.

Of course, behaving is all a matter of degrees. After dinner at a Japanese restaurant, drinks at an art space/bar - where there was some making out - my date suggested that since I couldn’t fuck him we could go fool around in a video booth. You know, the ones with porn videos where MasterDoc and I have often tried to get up to no good. I was skeptical that we could find one in Manhattan where they’d actually let two people go into a booth at the same time. It worked at first, then came a knock at the door - it looked like we were going to be kicked out but somehow a bribe came into the picture and $20 later the guy left us alone, telling us to be quick. We made out like teenagers in the narrow little booth - my blouse coming open, my tits sucked on. Deep tongue kissing while I stroked his cock. He tried rubbing my clit through my jeans, although that’s always a difficult thing to manage (getting the right spot is hard). He was prepared with lube and put a little packet’s worth of it into my hand. I kept stroking and caressing his cock until he said he was going to come. Then I jumped out of the way (ha ha!) because I didn’t want spooge on my coat or clothes. He shot all over the seat in the booth, which we cleaned up with tissues I had handy in my purse. After, as we walked out I felt like it was the walk of shame. I wondered if the guys running the store thought I was a sex worker or not. No matter, it was dirty and fun and I get over the shame of walking out there pretty darn quickly. I guess I really am a shameless hussy. *grin*

So technically I did behave myself, as I didn’t have sex (my pants did not get opened at all). But like I said, behaving is a matter of degrees. In the end I was kinda glad to not hop in the sack right away. I have another date tomorrow night with someone else. We shall see how that goes - how good my ability to say “no” is.

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I’m feeling less sad and less down on myself today. I don’t have any hot sex stories as of yet, but hopefully will have something to share after tonight. In the meantime, while I’ve twittered this I’ve never posted it here - I have a fan page on Facebook. If you’re on Facebook and you’re a fan of this blog, please join and let me know!

Weekend

So this weekend didn’t turn out like I thought it would. Alas we did not make it to Dark Odyssey (and basically we donated money to them as it was much too late to get a refund). The bacterial vaginosis I had last week brought on a yeast infection (or at least the antibiotics used to treat it did) and the medicine used to treat the yeast brought on a herpes outbreak like it usually does. So there’s no sex for me this Valentine’s Weekend. Yes, I have V.D. for V.D. (Gotta laugh about it.) I debated being open about it on here or not - I mean, when I don’t have an outbreak I’m very open about it and very into being an activist to destigmatize stis. When I have an outbreak, however, all that goes out the window and the weight of social stigma comes crashing down on my shoulders. I spent a lot of time Friday night and Saturday morning feeling depressed, not just for missing Dark Odyssey but I felt like the sum of my parts was an infectious disease and I felt humiliated and dirty. I actually had thoughts of suicide. Now, the rational part of me (heh, or MasterDoc that is) reminds me that it’s minor disease and I only get one outbreak a year (!), so this will soon pass and life will go on as normal. How horrible would it be to kill yourself over something silly like herpes? But the stigma is such that you really feel awful for having it. Even I, Ms. Positivity about living with herpes, gets super depressed about it. Please, if you know someone with an sti be kind to them, be rational about the risk - they have enough shit on their shoulders from the existing social stigma. They don’t need more from you. The stigma from herpes is always 100 times worse than the virus itself. (I’d also say that the stigma is more contagious, especially if you’re on daily suppressive therapy like I am.)

So after much crying and much depression (and man, was I negative during that time. I really picked on MasterDoc - you’d think I’m miserable with him the way I was talking.) I started to cheer up and realize that I still have a few days off from work, and I’m spending the weekend with MasterDoc anyway. (He’s working a few hours tonight, got an extra shift, but this just means I can take over his new Wii for a few hours. Ha!) Davey already had plans with one of his other girlfriends, and I certainly wouldn’t want him to cancel with her just because my plans had changed. Ultimately, it wasn’t the weekend I had hoped for, but really, how it goes is up to me. I can be depressed all weekend and miserable, or I can enjoy the various parts of it. Tonight I’m determined to enjoy some alone time.

Last night, MasterDoc and I went out to the local bdsm club. After all, my pussy was out of commission but I sure could still be spanked and flogged. I think sometimes I forget how much I enjoy bdsm in its own right, and not just as a precursor for sex. I thought maybe I’d be frustrated getting worked up and not able to finish, but I didn’t feel that way. I got dressed up in my fetish finest (a red pvc dress) and we packed a toy bag and went out.

We spent some time hanging out, watching the slave auction. (Thankfully MasterDoc did not put me in it - I was in no mental state to be given away. I’m sure he knew that.) I don’t know what I expected a slave auction to be like, but somehow it was different than I envisioned.  I think it was reality vs. fantasy at work. For the most part the slaves were pretty normal looking - not like hot fetish models. And some of the male slaves didn’t get bid on. (So sad.) Playing commenced after the auction and we walked around checking out the goings-on. There was a female sub getting flogged but good - two floggers at once even - although MasterDoc said the Dom had no follow through and he wasn’t hitting her as hard as he hits me.

I was anxious to play as after my depression earlier that day I really felt like a beating would do me good. We found a spot with a padded bench for me to lean over. MasterDoc put on my collar and had me pull down my panties and tights. He flogged me and my pain tolerance was pretty good. I enjoyed the feeling of being hit. Then he switched to his hand and hit the same spot on each cheek over and over and over again. Man, that hurt. Now one of the problems with playing at a club is the loud music - you don’t get the feedback from noises that you do in a quiet environment. I did cry out louder when it hurt too much. I felt pushed but ultimately after I felt really, really good. He flogged me some more and I hit subspace somewhere along the way. Afterwards, he sat down and I asked if I could sit down. He said not yet and I started feeling funny like I really needed to sit down. With the collar on I should have said, “I need to sit down, Sir.” but I felt so weird that all I got out was, “I need to sit down.” I got scolded for that, but he did let me have a seat. He held me for a few minutes as I recovered.

We moved on and found another place to play, this time it was a doctor’s examining table for me to bend over. (How appropriate!) MasterDoc remembered my none too subtle hints about wanting my hands cuffed behind my back and he got my cuffs out of the bag. He secured my wrists together behind my back and gave me a flogging. I liked the feeling of being helpless, but my shoulders started to ache after a while. Unfortunately they ached before my butt was done. The spanking was cut short. MasterDoc told me to stand up and I couldn’t with my hands behind my back. He tried to help me but my shoes just slipped out from under me. After a few moments of feeling completely helpless he uncuffed me and I got up. We enjoyed a soda, and then called it a night.

I’m hoping if I’m a lucky girl that I’ll get another beating this weekend. Fingers crossed!

Pleasurists #15

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Davey’s Birthday

This past week Davey had a birthday, and besides the usual taking him out to dinner and giving him a couple of gifts and a card, I participated in something he put together - a “reverse” gang bang. I don’t know that “reverse” is truly accurate, it’s a gang bang, but merely one where the women outnumber the man. He invited myself, S. and a new woman he’s been seeing who we’ll call Raven. This brings the number up to three, which is more than last year’s threesome S. and I gave him for his birthday. I wonder if next year will bring the number up to four women. *grin* Of course, leading up to this I kept saying to Davey that I had no idea what he was going to do with three of us at once. Certainly, he wanted us taking turns blowing him. And he wanted to fuck each of us. But how do you rev up and keep warm three women at once?

At some point on Friday night either MasterDoc or S. came up with an idea - MasterDoc could be fluff boy! He would warm us up and keep us warm for Davey. It turned out to be a brilliant idea, especially since I react far more to kink than vanilla sex these days. MasterDoc gave me a flogging to start the whole thing off. Soon, the ladies were in bed with Davey, taking turns going down on him. Now, he hadn’t had any luck finding a female condom (believe me, he searched all the local stores on Sunday morning) so it looked like he was going to end up only being able to fuck me up the ass. (He didn’t seem THAT disappointed.) But while we were getting things going, somehow the idea of the avanti condom came up - it’s a male condom made of the same polyurethane as the female condom - ergo, it does not break down when it comes in contact with oil. Amazingly, S. had one at her place. Hooray! Davey would get his wish to fuck all three of us after all.

There was a rotating parade of women for Davey: going down on him, licking his neck (where he’s so sensitive), licking his balls, caressing him. He was in heaven. Raven rode him for a while. Next he took a turn fucking me. (MasterDoc had warmed me up with a little bit of flogging and oral sex - yay!) We had to make the round with me count as we only had one polyurethane condom. (BTW, my vagina should be latex-ready again at this point.) Davey gets really excited at sex with me and he had a great orgasm.

We took a break, MasterDoc and I went out to get dinner while the other three played around from what I understand. After dinner, it was time for round two and Davey fucked S. this time. She squirted a river (when doesn’t she squirt a river) and bathed his balls in her come. He got cleaned up after and Raven rode him again (that girl has energetic thighs!) MasterDoc headed out early. S. and I got to chatting while Davey fooled around with Raven, so she and I went into the living room to leave them alone. From what I hear he had a good time. (There was loads of new relationship energy going on between those two.) Davey slept like a log last night and had a hard time getting up in the morning. We ladies succeed in what we should have done for him - we exhausted him. He is a very happy man.

Female Condom Saves the Day

So going into the weekend being treated for a vaginal infection, I thought I would end up in a sexless weekend. Sure the beating I received on Friday is sexual in a way, but it acheived subspace rather than an orgasm. (What wonderful subspace it was though. I mean I really went deep into subspace.) However, MasterDoc is not one to be thwarted by some mineral oil-based medication in my vagina. Nosiree, he pointed out that he could fuck me up the ass. Fuck me up the ass! I was delighted. It’s been a while since we’ve done that.

So on Saturday morning we spent some time in bed - cuddles, fondling, blow job, etc. It’s a couple of days later so I’m fuzzy on the details. Before we got to the sex MasterDoc had a revelation. “Get the bag from the living room table.” My For Your Nymphomation Big Foot case was out there and I brought it in. In the case was… *drum roll* … a female condom. Ah! As soon as I saw it I realized what MasterDoc had realized - it’s polyurethane, and thereby not subject to breaking down when it comes in contact with oil. Vaginal fucking would occur after all! (I was, and am still, a little disappointed there was no ass fucking. It’s been a while.) We could use baby oil as lube! I’m not a big fan of the female condom, but it did what it needed to for the weekend. And so I was enjoyably and roughly fucked by MasterDoc. A word of advice, use some lube inside your pussy before putting in the female condom - with thrusting it does rub against the vaginal wall and if you’re not sufficiently wet beforehand it can feel really rough.

I was allowed to come - after a teasing comment by MasterDoc that it would be fun to take me to Dark Odyssey not having had an orgasm in a while. Luckily, he’s a very kind Dom and he let me come. The only down side to the female condom is that some of the antibiotic cream came out stuck to the outside of the condom. But I seem to be back to normal now so fingers crossed it’s done its job and I am back to having a totally happy vagina. (It *feels* happy right now.)

Review: Large Black Rubber Whip

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Ok, I have to start off by pointing out that the large black rubber whip (on the left) from Babeland is not a whip, nor is it especially large (although it’s larger than their small and medium “whips”) but it is in fact a flogger. That distinction taken care of, here’s the review.

From left: MasterDoc’s buffalo flogger (heavy, thuddy), Babeland’s large black whip (lightly stingy) and MasterDoc’s small flogger (stingy!)

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Our friends S. and V. came over last night to hang out. We spent a lot of time talking. It was, for all intents and purposes, a non-kink evening. Out of the blue, MasterDoc tells me to go get the “whip” we need to review. He has me kneel in front of a chair and take down my pants, something that was embarrassing in front of my friends. I’m not entirely sure why since they’re kinky and both have seen me naked and sub before, but it is a little humiliating to be the only person in the room with your pants down. I felt that familiar vulnerable state of submission. MasterDoc warmed me up with the little flogger.

He alternated among the three floggers, and the Babeland one was definitely different. V. characterized it being a little like having a koosh ball thrown at your ass. The strands are made of the same rubber material. She also pointed out that this flogger is vegan - having no animal materials whatsoever. On my ass it felt like lots of little points hitting me at once. The surface space of the strands is so very different than the leather floggers. It felt good mostly, and stung now and then. He gave me a good thorough spanking and I totally went right into subspace. I really needed the beating. It was relaxing and liberating to kneel there, head on the armchair, as he flogged and spanked my ass. While I wouldn’t want the Babeland one as my only flogger, it does give a different sensation than the others - so it’s wonderful as part of a collection of floggers.

Next, he gave V. a flogging as well. (S. didn’t want to get a flogging, pain is not her thing.) It was wonderful to watch MasterDoc at work. I think I went into subspace just watching him. He knows how to wield a flogger like a craftsman. After, V. talked about how she worried that with the rubber whip there’d be wrap around issues, but there weren’t any - and we attributed this more to MasterDoc’s skill than to the flogger. In inexperienced hands it would probably be difficult to control. MasterDoc critiqued it from the giving side and said it was difficult to get a hold of the strands when he’d draw back for the next hit.

It was amazing watching him, he was really “on” as a Dom last night. *sigh* Dreamy. V.’s ass ended up all rosy. All in all, we enjoyed the large black rubber “whip” but think it’s best as part of a collection of floggers rather than the only one you have. Not necessarily the best for beginners as it’s difficult to control, but it doesn’t hurt too much either.




Unhappy Vag

This week I have an unhappy vagina. There will be no wild escapades on Friday night because I’m being treated for bacterial vaginosis. Before you go, “Ouch!” I should mention that it doesn’t hurt at all, in fact if I didn’t have a doctor for a Dom I might have not noticed it at all. A couple of times MasterDoc has told me, “I think you have bacterial vaginosis,” and I’ve just whined that it’s a pain to get a gynecologist appointment and I didn’t notice anything’s wrong so I just let it run its course and ignored it. This time, I knew that he would be most unhappy with me if I did not get it treated so I went to the gyn. The only symptoms I had were a slightly off odor coming from down there (and I do mean slightly) and some dryness during intecourse last time I had it. But I knew from the off odor that I had an infection again and this time I should take care of myself properly.

BV is apparently the most common vaginal infection in women of childbearing age. It can be spread through sexual intercourse, but even women who don’t have sex can get it too. So I thought I’d share a link (or two) to info for you all (especially for those of you who have vaginas out there). It’s easily treatable - I was given a one-time use antibiotic cream to put in. I can’t have sex for 5 days, however as the cream contains mineral oil and I depend on condoms for birth control (as well as STI defense) and the oil will degrade a condom. The doctor gave me a prescription for a yeast infection treatment as well because odds are good the antibiotic, while killing off the bad bacteria, will kill off the good, yeast-controlling bacteria too. I’m taking acidophilius in an attempt to stave off a yeast infection though (and eating lots of soy yogurt!) I’m glad that this time I was responsible about my health rather than the last times I ignored it because it was something barely noticeable. I think MasterDoc is much happier with me too. Getting treated is a good thing. Ignoring infections is a bad thing.

I’m sure most of you are going, “Eugh! I don’t want to think of your vag as infected! I want to hear about your happy, orgasmic, squirting vag!” And surely, soon I will be back to normal and having a wonderful time. But this is real life and sometimes infections happen. No biggie. (Some times I get colds, or sinus infections - doesn’t make me a bad person or dirty or anything like that - and neither does BV.) I should be all healthy again just in time to have a wonderful time at Dark Odyssey Winter Fire. Cool. The timing could have been a little better, as there’s a special foursome planned for Davey’s birthday this weekend (the lucky boy is getting three women, all to himself) and I won’t be able to participate fully now, but it could have been worse and ruined my first Dark Odyssey experience.

Best Sex Toy Reviewers of 2008 (and I’m one of ‘em)

“Best Sex Toy Reviewers is an annual list compiled by Domina Doll and Scarlet Lotus Sexgeek. Only reviewers who reviewed during the year of 2008 were considered, there will be a list for 2009 next year.”

Whee! I’m number thirty-three! Go take a look at the illustrious names on the list.