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Weekend

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on May 3, 2009
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I had a good weekend, but of course like all good weekends it went by too quickly. Yesterday I did what was perhaps the most poly thing I’ve ever done - I went to a pig roast with MasterDoc, Davey, J. (who dates MasterDoc and Davey), S. (who dates MasterDoc and Davey) and MasterDoc’s friend (and my friend) Liz. We were also joined by a guy friend of S. and a guy friend of J. Yup, there were 8 of us there and most people were connected in a poly dating sort of way.
I had a blast. There was a wine tasting to accompany it and tons of food. The musicians performing were so bad they were good. Imagine if you will, a very white, middle-aged lady singing YMCA with two middle-aged Korean gentlemen. I mean they sang well and played their yamaha synthesizer well. But it was schlocky. With a little wine in me I was was singing along. *grin* (The sad truth is that I would have done so sober as well. I’m a dork.)

After, Davey went with J. back to her place and I got a ride with S., MasterDoc and Liz. I stayed over MasterDoc’s place and got some nooky. Whoo hoo! (Apparently he had given J. some nooky in the morning then took care of me at night. He’s such a slut. *grin*)

He had me put my collar on and select a couple of insertable toys - one for ass and one for vagina. I chose the new glass dildo I have and a medium-sized silicon butt plug I have. MasterDoc looked at me evilly. “These are both clean?”

“Yes, Sir.”

He held out the butt plug, “Suck it.” I hesitated, made a face and really didn’t want to do it. I mean, I know it was clean, I had washed it last myself with soap and water. But that’s been up my ass - I really didn’t want it in my mouth. He wasn’t going to back down, however, so I braced myself and took it into my mouth. Of course it had no taste as it was clean, but it was hard for me to suck and lick it. MasterDoc, however, seemed pleased that I obeyed despite my not wanting to. And doing so certainly put me in a bit of subspace. Yes, I’m a perv, I get turned on by a little degradation.

I sucked his cock quite a bit. He had me lick the glass dildo to get it wet and he slid it inside me. He got me really worked up by fucking me with it. But, no, I wasn’t permitted to come. He then told me to take over and keep myself worked up. While I don’t usually get off on fucking myself with a dildo (I’m not coming at it from the right angle after all) I did get turned on knowing that he wanted me at the precipice of coming and that he was going to fuck me. When I was good and worked up he put a condom on and got on top of me.

Oh god, I wanted to come so badly. I clenched my eyes shut and focused on his hard cock fucking me. He would vary the pace, tease me a bit. He slapped my face, which just gets me worked up even more. It felt like he was fucking me forever and I had a hard time holding back. I kept saying, “Oh my god!” as it felt incredible and I wanted so badly to come. After what seemed like a tortuously long time I gave in and begged for orgasm. But he teased me much more. It’s amazing to spend the entirety of a round of fucking hovering at the edge of climax.

I was struggling to keep control of myself. I really didn’t want to stay in control. I wanted nothing more than to come. He stops fucking me, keeps his cock deep inside. He says, “Look at me,” and I open my eyes, look him right in the eye and he says, “Come.” For a split second I think, “I wonder if I’m going to be able to - OH MY GOD!!!!” Jesus did I come. I mean, I came really hard. I was a sputtering gasping mess as my body contracted. I leaned upward and grabbed hold of him, pressing my face to his chest. I kept coming and he just kept his cock still inside of me. After that, I needed a little rest.

Whew. I was happy and feeling terrific. Next he had me help him come, I played with the butt plug up his ass while he stroked his cock. He kept giving me instructions as to what to do with the butt plug (angle it towards the front of his body so it gets his p-spot). I played with it intently and it was wonderful to watch his face as he moved towards orgasm. He came, and I remembered my instructions - I played with the spot behind his balls, milking out the orgasm for as long as I could. He kept twitching every so often. I was surprised how long he had me touch him to prolong the good feelings. Rowr.

This morning I got a lot of cuddles, but we didn’t end up having sex as I was feeling inexplicably down. (I mean, how can I feel down after the way he made me feel last night? Seriously.) He made me put some time in on the Wii Fit, despite my feeling totally lethargic, and it improved my mood somewhat. I have to get in some exercise either tomorrow night or Tuesday. Dom’s orders. I’m still feeling lethargic and unmotivated but I will have to push past that.

The Slut at a Party

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on April 20, 2009
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MasterDoc took me a private play party this past Saturday. I had a wonderful time and hopefully I’ll manage to capture the best moments here in my blog.

When we arrived MasterDoc was immediately accosted by bratty sub Patty, who he’s played with before. I watched in horror as she twisted his nipples (something he HATES) and it was clear she was looking for punishment. MasterDoc wasn’t quite prepared to give it at that moment, however. I was supposed to play with Patty that night but with her brattiness in high gear MasterDoc decided no pussy for her (which ended up meaning no pussy for me). When she kissed him hello it was fun to watch the chemistry between them but that nipple twisting still boggles my mind. I’m not a bratty sub so I can’t imagine going out of my way to antagonize MasterDoc. If I want a beating I state that I’d like a beating… no bratty manoeuvres to get one. If I behave in a bratty manner I’m less likely to get a beating. (When I do get emotional and insufferable it’s never intentional and certainly not in seeking a beating.)

After some noshing and talking with people we ended up in the basement. MasterDoc had brought along the sybian (always a hit at parties!) and he set up the hostess on it. When her fiance arrived he handed the controls over to him and it was a joy to watch her come really hard over and over again. While orgasms always take your mind off your surroundings there’s something about a sybian orgasm that totally turns your brain to mush. After, MasterDoc asked if anyone else wanted a ride, when no one else volunteered he asked if I wanted one. It’s been weeks since I had a ride so I enthusiastically went for it. MasterDoc played with the controls and soon I was a blubbering, orgasming mess. My head fell forward into his lap (he sat in a chair in front of me) and my hair got all mussed up. I was asked by the hosts to keep the noise down at one point - I’m sure during an intense orgasm I could wake the dead. It’s hard to keep the noise down but burying my face in MasterDoc’s pant leg helped. He kept revving the sybian which would just turn me back to mush in an instant. Eventually, after I had come long and hard, he decided I had enough and I came back down to earth.

By this point there was some play going on, a lady was on the pool table being treated to a violet wand (something I’ve never experienced myself). We went upstairs and the hostess was lounging languidly on the bed as people played with her tits. MasterDoc started spanking her pussy and she just writhed and moaned under his hand. Another lady joined in when he took a break. She didn’t come from this but it was clear she enjoyed herself. In the meanwhile a guy we had met before asked if he could play with my tits (he asked MasterDoc, of course) and permission granted he pulled my breasts out of my bra and started sucking on my nipples. I closed my eyes and enjoyed the sensation. After a few moments, MasterDoc had me get on the other side of him, and the hostess reached out and started rubbing my clit. I stood there enjoying how it felt until the hostess was fucked by someone and she lost her sense of direction with her hand (understandably!).

MasterDoc had me suck his cock and I went at it with great passion. I love sucking his cock. Getting it from a soft state up into hardness is a fun process, and I sucked and licked until he was good and hard. I moaned and slurped, hoping that I was putting on a good show for all in the bedroom. MasterDoc decided to have me ride him and I got on top of his now quite hard cock.  I fucked him passionately and had a mind blowing orgasm (with permission of course). There were other people on the bed and hands caressed my body from various angles. Another Dom asked him if he could kiss me and MasterDoc said yes so I made out with this guy while sitting on MasterDoc’s cock.

After a break and caressing another sub’s body for a while I was asked to go back to cocksucking. I also at one point was told to lend a hand to a guy stroking his cock near me. He played with my breasts while I did that and I just closed my eyes, enjoying the feeling. MasterDoc had me get on all fours so this guy could fuck me and he fucked me really hard from behind. I was allowed to come again and came really hard, over and over again while this guy fucked me. It might be amusing some day to have someone record the racket I make during orgasm.

A paddle appeared and MasterDoc took to the hostesses ass with it. Her fiance came in and said that no, she’s not a pain slut, just a slut and MasterDoc had me turn around on all fours so he could paddle me instead. I think I more accurately fit the term pain slut. I was unhappy that it ended so quickly after it started. I wanted more. I could really do with a good beating.

After another short while, MasterDoc had me get out my acrylic wand and he fucked me with it (and let another guy have a go although he didn’t quite do it right). I came some more, brain totally turned to mush, and I felt so free being so slutty. I had such a wonderful time and I can’t picture my life without adventurous sex and sex parties and bdsm. I feel freed when I’m in slut mode and I just give in to my desires without any apologies.

MasterDoc was tired so he napped a little bit. I cuddled up to him but also kept an eye out for what else was going on in the room. Patty gave a guy a blow job, and when I looked over to the black lesbian Domme (who I wanted to have beat me) she had her hand down her pants playing with herself while watching. There was a funny moment when she caught me looking and we both laughed. MasterDoc sleepily asked what was funny but I just let him go back to sleep. It was such a naughty evening. I could have kept going all night if not for having work the next day. I could write a longer blog entry about the evening, but I know how long entries can get boring for the reader, so I will leave my account at this.

Two days later my pussy is still a little sore from the hard fucking.

Slut

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on April 9, 2009
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We went into the bedroom and I wondered what he had in mind. He plans out, more or less, what he intends to do to me in a given night and I get to feel the anticipation of not knowing and wondering what the glint in his eye holds. We started off slowly with cuddles, him spooned up against me. He stroked my ass, my tummy, as I start to breathe heavy and relax into his touch he slides his hands up to my breasts. Every touch is thrilling. He grabs hold of my ass roughly and pulls my cheeks apart, exposing me. I feel him stroke his cock head against my ass and I try to push back into it a little. He grabs my ass some more, manhandling me.
I don’t want to move, I’m lost in reverie. But he tells me to get up and get some lube. I grab the new Wet Together lube I’ve gotten samples of - it’s a pair of lubes, one for him (water-based), one for her (silicone-based). His is supposed to be warming, hers tingling. We each use the designated lube and both experience a warming sensation. We joke about how they’re encouraging unsafe sex by encouraging people to combine the two lubes together. I’m nice and slippery and horny when he has me lie on my back. He kneels between my legs and strokes his cock along my labia, rubbing the two lubes together. I’m aching for him to enter me, my pussy tingling and warm, and just as it becomes unbearable he puts a condom on, uses a bit more lube on the outside of it, and slowly slides in. I feel every inch as his thick cock head pushes its way past the muscles of my vagina. I gasp as it pushes in just a little bit farther. Soon, he’s fucking me.
I close my eyes and focus on his cock sliding in and out. He fucks me hard and in no time I wish I could come. I try my hardest to hold back asking for permission. It feels amazing to be held on the edge like that. I gasp and moan, yearning to come. I keep hoping that my gasps and moans will cause him to give me permission to come. I let him know how much I want it, but without using words. Amazingly, I manage to hold out until he gives me permission. “Come,” he says and in a few seconds I’m coming hard. My vagina pushes his cock out of me, but I still keep coming. So intense are my feelings of arousal that I’ll come at the drop of a hat. He encourages me to keep coming and it seems to last for several minutes, although it was probably much shorter than that. I keep coming until he says I’ve had enough.
We return to the porn that we were watching - a hot film about a woman being used like a doornob - i.e., everybody gets a turn. He teases me that I’d like that - to be passed around and used. I blush and look away because it’s true. As I watch the film I realize how hot it is for a woman to be a slut; for her to be enthusiastic about sex and ravenous for it. The way she gives her body over to the man and woman dominating her is just so hot. They pass her back and forth between them, having her suck cock and lick pussy alternately, then they pass her on to other people in the room. I can imagine the humiliation of being used like a cheap whore in front of and by strangers but also think that this is really hot.
MasterDoc asks if I’m ready to climb on top of his cock and I say, without hesitation, that yes I am. I’m still so turned on from before, and from watching the porn. He teases me, telling me I’ll be used like a doornob. He fills my head with such delightful imagery and makes me feel like such a slut that I’m moaning in no time. I ride his cock hard, rubbing my cunt against it furiously. He tells me to come and I come - again his cock gets pushed out but I continue to rub my cunt against his hard cock and I keep coming and coming. He spanks my ass, grabs hold of me and my body continues to convulse. Just when I think the pleasure is subsiding a bit he gets me to come again and I tense up so hard that I can barely breathe. I surrender to the power he has to make me come over and over - even without direct genital contact. It’s absolutely amazing what he can do to me - how turned on he gets me and how hard he can make me come. Afterward, I lay on the bed next to him, smiling and looking at him adoringly. How could you not love a man who makes you feel like that?

A Fun Reason for a Sick Day

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on March 30, 2009
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Sunday afternoon MasterDoc got a message on fetlife about another gangbang party. I had work the next day but we had been toying with the idea of me calling in sick one day so we could get to some events on work nights. Naughty girl that I am I opted to call in sick. I feel like such a bad girl - calling in sick to work so I could go get fucked. We got to the gangbang a little late - the ladies had already chosen their men. We went in back to the bdsm room and relaxed a bit, figuring that guys would make their way in. There were only 2 or 3 women there. MasterDoc had me suck his cock and that got a bit of an audience. He told me to look at them, which I always find hard to do. Last night I was acutely aware of how humiliating it is to be someone’s submissive cunt. Not that this is a bad thing, mind you. But I really felt the humiliation play a lot.

He spanked my thighs and cunt, trying to get me wet. I kept my eyes closed and wished that I had thought to pack the blindfold in the toy bag. I have a few light bruises from thigh spanking this weekend to remind me of the fun I had. I bruise so infrequently these days! He fucked me with the acrylic wand (see last entry) and made me come in front of all those guys. He had me get on all fours and he spanked my ass but good - I was really enjoying being spanked this weekend. My pain tolerance was good and it felt great to be spanked. Plus, I didn’t have to look at the small crowd that had begun to form. It’s funny how I like having an audience, but I don’t like having to look them in the eye. MasterDoc offered me to one of the guys there and he asked if he could go down on me first. MasterDoc would have preferred me getting fucked without ever seeing the guy, but he obliged and I lay on my back. While the guy licked furiously at my cunt MasterDoc talked to me, “Are you getting your cunt licked? You like getting your cunt licked don’t you, slut?” Oh dear god the dirty talk was driving me nuts. I felt embarrassed and turned on at the same time. The guy put a condom on and fucked me and I got to come. As I lay there moaning and panting MasterDoc said something along the lines of, “That’s it. That’s what you’re for, cunt.” And it felt so good to be used. I like that I’m a filthy slut who will fuck whoever MasterDoc tells me to.

Only bad part of the evening was that the first guy was too stupid to hold onto the condom as he pulled out and he left it behind. Ugh. This is seriously bad manners. Guys, do not ever forget to hold the condom as you pull out. A condom should never be left behind after you’ve fucked a girl.

Right after guy number one finished MasterDoc had guy number two all ready. This guy was a big black guy with a huge cock. I mean, it really brought new meaning to BBC. He stretched my pussy wide and I don’t think I’ve ever felt so filled up. At first it was a turn on and I came, but then it got to be too much and in amongst the “unhs” of pleasure came a few “ows.” I think this was the biggest cock I’ve ever had - really thick. It was too much of a good thing.

In came a third guy right after the second. This was the first time I’ve been fucked by a north Asian guy (not sure what nationality). He had fantastic tattoos including a large buddha on his chest/tummy. I came again, but I was starting to get tired already - must be all that Wii fit I’m doing these days, wearing me out. MasterDoc gave me a break after the third guy and after I had rested offered me to a fourth guy. The fourth guy fucked me and alas he was small and I could barely feel him (particularly after that other guy stretched me out). MasterDoc saw that my excitement was waning and he slapped my face a few times telling me to “come cunt!” and I came, purely off the kink of being slapped and called a cunt. I still marvel at how he can make me come without genital stimulation.

We got dressed after this and socialized a minute before heading out the door to the next party. At the door, a hot woman who had said hello earlier as she set up her gangbang near where we were sitting said, “No, you’re not leaving! You’re not taking her away are you?” She was distressed that I was leaving so soon and she passionately kissed me by the elevator. Rowr. It made us think for a second about going back in.

Next we went to a popular fetish event that takes place every month in NYC. I’ve been keen to go since it’s “the” event to go to. Well, I’m sad to say it wasn’t my speed. First we get there and the guy from the gangbang party had told us to ask for someone at the door and say that he sent us. MasterDoc gets out his doctor’s coat and speculum as his fetish outfit. The guy makes a comment about how he has to tell the guy who referred us that, “It’s really dress fetish.” Oh, sorry, I didn’t realize that we were playing “more fetishy than thou” tonight. *sigh* We were the only ones there not in full fetish get ups. Now, I’m all for dressing fetish if that’s what turns you on, it’s wonderful to see people in great fetish costumes. However, I don’t like feeling that I’m somehow “not kinky enough” if I’m not in corset and latex. I don’t need the “fetish uniform” to be kinky or submissive. I can’t picture MasterDoc in a typical Dom costume. I like him how he is. It felt like how you’re dressed mattered much more than how you play. Not that we got a chance to play. The place was crowded and hot - we could barely find a place to stand let alone play. If MasterDoc had tried to flog me he would have hit a dozen people in the process. I was really unhappy. Big crowds in small spaces are not my thing. If I ever go again I will have to dress up in my little bit of fetish gear so I won’t feel so out of place. I hope they find a bigger venue. The whole experience lasted about 10 minutes before I was desperate to get out of there. We did run into our favorite bartender from the swing club, who was there with her Dom. It was great to see her even if I didn’t like the rest of the scene.

All in all it was a fun evening. So decadent to skip work and go to sex/bdsm parties. I love decadence.

Quiet Night In

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on March 15, 2009
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I was feeling tired Saturday after working all day and MasterDoc decided that we could stay home and have a quiet night in. But if you’ve read this blog before you realize that quiet nights in with the two of us are usually pretty hot affairs.

I was really horny all day, so even being close to MasterDoc with my collar on made me really hot. The feel of his skin against mine was all that I needed to get worked up. We got comfy on our Liberator Escape mat on the living room floor. It had been a while since we fucked on the floor. I got a bunch of pillows and he got comfy. I cuddled close to him and even the closeness got my breathing heavy. I fantasized about coming with him, I yearned to come. He had me suck his cock and I really got into it. He reached over and slid his fingers between my cunt lips. I sucked and slurped and slid his cock in and out of my mouth, listening for his heavy breathing.

He had me get on top for a ride and I slid his hard cock into my waiting pussy. I lustfully writhed on top of him, getting right on the edge of orgasm in no time. I rode his cock and rubbed my cunt up against him. I was breathing heavy, gasping and so very aroused. He had me hold myself at the edge of orgasm for what seemed like an eternity. His cock just felt amazing sliding in and out of me. He had me hold on to the edge… hold it. I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to hold back. He’d touch me at various points on my body where he knows he will increase my arousal. I could hardly take it. He let me come, and I came explosively.

I lay beside him and he turns on his side so that I’m cuddling him from behind. I’m intoxicated from being so close to him, my face pressed up against his back. My cunt is soaking wet. I’m still really horny.

We fucked again, me on top. Again I went to the edge of coming and held it there for so so long. He had asked me to try to hold out longer before I ask to come and I did my damndest to not ask. I let my moans and gasps talk for me. Apparently he was just about to let me come when I thrust too far forward and his cock slid out. Damn.

I stayed really horny although I think MasterDoc was done. I kept telling him, “But you make me so horny!” Every touch, every caress made me want to come. I had the thought that no wonder he’s so confident - if i could make a woman feel like he makes me feel I’d be pretty damn confident too. He had me touch myself and he would touch me gently at various points to work me up more. He asked if I could come right then and I said yes. He teased me for a while asking if I’m sure I could come right now. When he told me to come I exploded. I came and came and while I did so he told me how beautiful it was to watch me. I wanted nothing more than to feel his hands on my cunt, that was the one thing that would have made it perfect. But I came, twice, from masturbating. And you know what? I was still horny afterwards. MasterDoc told me that I had to cool down, that that was it for the night. Only maybe if I was good there’d be more later (there wasn’t). I felt insatiably horny and insatiably hungry. I think that might be partly due to pms. I was one walking appetite and I wanted to either eat lots of wonderful food or come over and over again.

MasterDoc pointed out that he really does spoil me. And he definitely does. Plenty of Doms practice orgasm control on a much greater basis - denying orgasm for long periods of time. But he makes me feel amazing on a regular basis. I’m very lucky indeed.

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Embracing My Sluttiness

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on March 2, 2009
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Sometimes other people’s blog posts are timely. I just got back from a date where I had, within two hours, met the guy, had a drink, went back to his place for fucking and went home. And I come home to find that Sexie Sadie has written about owning the word slut over at Best Sex Bloggers. I am a woman who embraces her sluttiness. Why is it that a woman is a slut but a man is a stud? It took two people to make the beast with two backs this evening and he is clearly just as much a slut as I am.

Not that being a slut is a bad thing. Not at all. I wear my slut badge proudly. I like sex so why the fuck shouldn’t I have it if I feel like having it? Anyway, on to the story.

We met for drinks at a Mexican restaurant - margaritas in the afternoon with chips and salsa. My ad states that I’m looking for a friend with benefits, so there’s been no pretensions that this is dating in the traditional sense. We were going to meet last week but something came up, luckily the weather didn’t necessitate us rescheduling again. I was nervous - do you think I walk into all these situations with total confidence? I have a definite shy streak and it’s hard to make conversation with someone new. He’s read this blog so immediately he commented on how much he’s enjoyed reading it and how hard it made him. I’m not aggressive sexually, so it was lucky for me that he was (without being pushy or rude). He suggested going to his place, just a couple of blocks away. I thought about it for a bit, then decided that yes, I wanted to do this.

As usual I find it easier to get naked and fuck someone than to talk with them (after the fucking, the talking is usually easier). We made out in his living room for just a moment, then he took me by the hand and led me to his bedroom. We made out some more, with lots of groping. Then, he told me to take off my clothes. Um, yeah, I think he’s got my number already. I took my clothes off while he took his pants off. “Come over here and suck my cock.” Well, if you insist.

Have I ever mentioned here that I’m easy? I suppose it goes without saying.

Thanks to being trained by MasterDoc I’m pretty darn good at giving head these days, and was complimented on my skills. He reached over and stroked my clit as I sucked his cock. I got it really hard and tried to move things along. He asked if we could do anal, I asked if he had lube. Nope. No lube, no anal. He asked if he could spank me and I explained that no, MasterDoc is the only person allowed to spank me. We kissed a little then he straddled me, placing his cock between my breasts. I held them up to embrace his cock. He reached behind himself and played with my clit, making sure that I was enjoying it. I asked him to put fingers inside me and he asked how many (two). He told me that I could make as much noise as I wanted and I took this as an invitation to get noisy. Soon, I was coming.

After I came, he slid up further and got his cock into my mouth. I wasn’t sucking for long when he declared that he was going to come. I took it out and stroked it while he reached climax. He came all over my upper chest. He got me paper towels to wipe up and we lay in bed chatting for a bit. I was wondering if we were going to fuck - I was eager to fuck. Apparently he was thinking the same thing at the exact same moment because he suggested I get his cock hard again. Yay! Fucking!

I got him hard then he dug out a condom. We tried it from behind with me bending over his bed, but we couldn’t get the right angle. He had me get on my back and we fucked. I came again. After fucking, we lay in bed chatting - by this time I was more talkative. He got a phone call and I figured it was time to get going so I got my clothes on. He asked if I enjoyed myself and asked if we’d do it again. I said yes, I think we’re going to have fun together.

I got home about 2 hours after I had left and Davey was gobsmacked (my anglophilia is showing) when I told him that we had met and fucked in that period of time. MasterDoc called me a little later and he exclaimed, “What a slut!” when I told him about it. It’s all in good natured fun as Davey and MasterDoc both love the fact that I’m a slut. Hooray for sluts!

Sunday

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The weekend started out dismal. I was feeling depressed after a rough week and MasterDoc had to cancel on me for Saturday night. (It was his daughter’s 18th birthday - a very good reason to change plans with me suddenly.) I managed to get myself in a better mood and spent a nice evening alone. Bright and early Sunday morning, MasterDoc called to see if I wanted to come over and visit for a few hours. I was delighted.

Knowing I had been feeling down (and was feeling desperate after two weeks with no sex), he set forth to give me a bunch of orgasms. Hooray orgasms! He flogged and spanked me a bit as well. We fucked three times (with a break in the middle for lunch and watching a movie) and his cock was nice and hard. Even when I came very hard he kept my pussy from pushing his cock out. It felt so nice to have his hard cock inside me after 2 weeks of no penetration. I like penetration! It was wonderful to be begging him for orgasms again. It’s funny, when I get the chance to orgasm at will I’m thrilled with the freedom, but when I have to beg him for orgasms I’m also thrilled. I like when he has control. (Guess that’s kinda why I submit to the man, eh?) We finished off with me on top, riding him. I just love falling forward onto a man’s chest after an orgasm. There’s something so very intimate about having a cock inside you as you cling to him closely, bodies pressed together.

Part of why MasterDoc wanted to make sure I was a happy girl was because last night I had scheduled my first date with a guy in who knows how long. MasterDoc has given me permission to date and fuck other guys (after frequent asking for permission on my part), but yesterday afternoon he instructed me that he didn’t want me having sex last night. After Sunday night I could do as I wanted, but this time I was to behave myself.

Of course, behaving is all a matter of degrees. After dinner at a Japanese restaurant, drinks at an art space/bar - where there was some making out - my date suggested that since I couldn’t fuck him we could go fool around in a video booth. You know, the ones with porn videos where MasterDoc and I have often tried to get up to no good. I was skeptical that we could find one in Manhattan where they’d actually let two people go into a booth at the same time. It worked at first, then came a knock at the door - it looked like we were going to be kicked out but somehow a bribe came into the picture and $20 later the guy left us alone, telling us to be quick. We made out like teenagers in the narrow little booth - my blouse coming open, my tits sucked on. Deep tongue kissing while I stroked his cock. He tried rubbing my clit through my jeans, although that’s always a difficult thing to manage (getting the right spot is hard). He was prepared with lube and put a little packet’s worth of it into my hand. I kept stroking and caressing his cock until he said he was going to come. Then I jumped out of the way (ha ha!) because I didn’t want spooge on my coat or clothes. He shot all over the seat in the booth, which we cleaned up with tissues I had handy in my purse. After, as we walked out I felt like it was the walk of shame. I wondered if the guys running the store thought I was a sex worker or not. No matter, it was dirty and fun and I get over the shame of walking out there pretty darn quickly. I guess I really am a shameless hussy. *grin*

So technically I did behave myself, as I didn’t have sex (my pants did not get opened at all). But like I said, behaving is a matter of degrees. In the end I was kinda glad to not hop in the sack right away. I have another date tomorrow night with someone else. We shall see how that goes - how good my ability to say “no” is.

Three Thumbs Up!

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on December 7, 2008
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I feel very fortunate to have so many wild, fun sexual experiences. I really am very lucky. While I was a total pervert before I met MasterDoc, he has led me further down the path of debauchery and I love him for it. Last night we had some guests - a Dom, his slave #1(who lives in NY), his slave #2 (a Canadian down for a visit) and a woman who is potentially going to be his, so right now she’s a submissive under consideration I guess. (Edited 12/10 to get the hierarchy correct.) Liz was visiting and MasterDoc got her to cook dinner - a spectacular feast as always (complete with made-from-scratch apple pie!) We got settled with our guests and enjoyed some wine with dinner. Now, as a submissive I call MasterDoc “Sir” and not “Master” since our relationship is not that of Master and slave. I don’t think I have it in me to be someone’s slave. I’m too spoiled, cantankerous, and selfish to commit to being a slave. I’m really very happy with the situation I have with MasterDoc. He knows how to work with my difficult aspects, but I digress. It was different to be around submissives who refer to their Dom as Master. Not bad, just different. I can see where I’m much more autonomous than they are. I don’t have to call MasterDoc Sir when I don’t have my collar on (unless he’s just given me a direct order, then it’s appropriate) and things are on a closer-to-equal footing when I’m not in my collar. (They’re never truly equal, but then that’s part of the attraction of a Dom/sub relationship. I want him to be in charge, even when I’m feeling stubborn.) I think I’ve found a D/s relationship that works well for me, and I very much respect the other types of D/s relationships there are out there. It’s fascinating to discover that each one is so different. You’d think there’s one way to be a Dom but there really isn’t. There’s as many D/s relationship structures as there are people who practice power exchange.

The slaves and sub were all good about doing things like dishing out food at dinner and what not. As hostess I really should have been better, but I’m a crap hostess. lol I did set the table, and take their coats and stuff like that. I tried to be on my best behavior. I missed a few things like putting out napkins on the table, but I remedied it as quickly as possible when it was noticed. I was feeling really shy last night. Not shy sexually, after all, when am I shy sexually? But quiet, not talkative. Luckily the other ladies were friendly and engaged me in conversation. The Canadian one really caught my eye - curvy with a nose ring and color streaked hair - definitely my type. The other two were hot as well but some people are just more your type than others. The Dom is a handsome man, in his 40s, and his ladies seemed quite devoted to him. All in all, everyone was nice and I really enjoyed the time we spent with them.

After dinner, we hung out in the living room. Dynamics-wise it was interesting as the other ladies sat on the floor (out of choice, I believe) and I sat on the sofa with the two men. I’m not sure exactly how we got things started, but MasterDoc asked to borrow some wax to do some wax play on me. I spread out on the reclining chair and he dripped wax all over me. It hurt, but in a wonderful, sensational way. The first candle he chose was white, so the wax didn’t show up in the dim light, but he switched to a red candle at the other Dom’s urging. I braced myself since darker candles are supposed to burn hotter. I don’t know that there was a significant difference, but he sadistically dripped wax in the delicate area next to my mons.

He sent me to clean up, and I’m foggy on what exactly happened next. There was some spanking at one point. There were clothespins put on the nipples of one of the ladies. The Canadian knelt in front of her Master and he lulled her into the submissive headspace. I was told to come over to her and play with her tits. I felt shy but slowly made my way over. He directed the action every step of the way. I was to suck on one tit, then the other. He had her and me lean in close to each other, not kissing just yet but leaning in close, cheek to cheek. He told us both to smell each other and we stroked our cheeks against each other and sniffed slowly. He told us to start kissing, but not on the mouth, on the cheek, the neck, any place else. She really dove in and started to work on my neck. I’ve got a bit of a hickey today from it. I was in such a happy place. He slowly moved us towards kissing on the lips, and she dove in before he gave permission. I was so hot for her at this point, the slowness was agony (and I’m sure he knew it!) He got her to back off, but then gave us permission and our tongues met and she sucked on my lips sensually. She’s a very good kisser. Our hands reached out to each other’s bodies and we caressed and played, she sucked on my tits for a bit then dove in to my pussy. I sit back, leaning against the couch, and closed my eyes as she worked magic on my clit. She was instructed to get her ass in the air, near the couch so MasterDoc could spank her. I reached under her stomach and found her clit and massaged it with my fingers. It was so damn hot watching MasterDoc spank her while she went down on me. I hardly noticed what the rest of them were up to. *grin* I do believe the other Dom got a blow job from his other women.

I had the thought at one point in the evening, that plenty of people would consider us to be sick freaks. I mean, the evening is totally outside of what most people do with their Saturday evenings. But this is definitely a case of “if it’s wrong I don’t want to be right.” Last night was among the hottest nights of my life. It was better than porn. Seriously.

The sybian was brought out, and each of our lady guests got turns riding it. It is amazing to watch a woman on the sybian. The look on her face is just beautiful. MasterDoc ran the controls and made each lady come over and over again, after they got his permission of course. Two of the ladies fooled around while one of them rode the sybian, I got prompted to join in after I was just sitting there watching the action. I got to watch pretty much all of the sybian rides, and my mouth was hanging open at how hot it was to watch. I was so horny! I was feeling a little left out and wondering when I’d get to have an orgasm, but I kept quiet and behaved myself. Luckily, the other Dom wanted to see me on the sybian as well. MasterDoc had me get my gag since it was late at night and we didn’t want my screams to disturb the neighbors. So, bit gag in mouth, I got on the sybian. MasterDoc positioned himself right in front of me so I could fall forward into his arms. He teased me and I was begging to come in no time. (Hard to do with the gag in my mouth. lol) He asked the other Dom if he thought I should be allowed to come yet, and he said not yet. So MasterDoc teased me a bit more. When he allowed me to come, my whole body convulsed and I grabbed at him, moaning through the gag.

This might be when we took a break to have pie, I can’t quite remember. While we were in the dining room, MasterDoc played with the clover clamps on the Canadian slave’s breasts. Youch. I can’t take them, but she rode through the pain. He got her to take the chain into her mouth, holding the clamps so they were pulling on her nipples roughly. I could tell the pain was turning her on. MasterDoc started playing with her cunt, and eventually she came as he slapped her clit. She even squirted across the table. (I was seated next to them and got splashed a little.)

Back in the living room, even more happened. Oh yes, you’re probably thinking damn, this night has been really hot so far, but oh I am a lucky girl and the night continued to get hotter. The Canadian slave went over to MasterDoc and they played a bit (I think she gave him a blow job, I’m not sure my back was turned). I was called over to the other Dom and he placed clothes pins on my nipples. He followed up with clothes pins all around my breasts. He then had me turn and show MasterDoc. Some pictures were taken (MasterDoc making sure that my face wasn’t in any of them). I was left like that for a little while. The clothespins pinched my flesh. When MasterDoc nudged to have the other Dom take them off it hurt while each one came off, but he had two of his ladies kiss and caress each spot as he took them off. The two continued to suck on my nipples, my very sensitive nipples. He had the third one come around behind me and stroke my head, meanwhile he (the other Dom) slid his fingers into my cunt. Oh my god the feeling was amazing having so many hands on my body. I begged to be allowed to come, and from the sofa MasterDoc taunted me, asking me if I was sure I wanted to come. He teased me while the other Dom played with my g-spot. When I was allowed to come I came hard yet again. Afterwards, MasterDoc told me I was a very good girl and I beamed. I’m positively swooning as I write this. I have the best time being a slut. I mean, really amazing fun.

Just when you’d think the night couldn’t get any better, the Canadian slave got fisted in front of all of us. I sat there, mesmerized, with a front row seat to watching her get fisted. Her Master’s entire hand fit inside her cunt. “Jesus Christ,” I thought, “This is cool!” I mean, how many people get up to this on a Saturday night? Before I knew it, I was being talked into fisting her as well. I had never fisted anyone before, so the Dom talked me through the whole process, gradually adding more fingers and more of my hand (and lots of lube) until my entire fist was inside her. When she came I could feel her vaginal muscles squeezing my hand. My hand remained inside her as he kissed her afterwards, forgotten. It was funny. Eventually it was like, “Oh I forgot your hand was in there!” and he had me take it gently out. She gave me a great kiss and cuddle afterwards and it was great to make another woman feel that good. It was totally hot. I’m sure I sound like a fourteen-year-old boy but, dude, last night was totally hot. *grin*

If I could have a night like that every night of my life I would never feel depressed. It was amazing. I hope that they come to play with us again sometime soon.

After they left, I cleaned up a bit and hung out with MasterDoc and Liz. We all agreed that they were nice people and we hope to see them again. It was just about bedtime for me when MasterDoc’s cock got hard. He said something about fucking me in the morning, but I was keen to get fucked then. (I just knew I’d want to sleep in as late as I could in the morning.) And, yippee!, he decided to fuck me. We went into the bedroom and he went down on me for a little while. He then fucked me from behind and he had me in a state in no time. I was moaning, dying to come. He fucked me hard and I struggled to hold back from coming. Then he gave me permission and I came, my muscles clenching his cock. It was a wonderful ending to a wonderful evening. I fell forward after, dazed. I cuddled up to MasterDoc and felt so very thankful to have him in my life. Today, I was sad to leave, uncertain when I get to see MasterDoc next. I really can’t get enough of him.

Addendum: I changed the title of this after MasterDoc reminded me that we already had a title for it - last night the other Dom came up with the joke of three thumbs up, i.e. his two thumbs and the dildo sticking up from the sybian. The new mark of a successful sexual encounter - three thumbs up!

Lessons

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on December 7, 2008
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I’ve had a busy weekend with MasterDoc. After resolving our differences, I felt much, much better and was happy to have a few days to spend with him. I was off on Friday and he had a busy day planned - a gentleman coming over to learn about BDSM in the late morning, then lunch out, then a friend of a friend who wants to be a Domme coming over for lessons in the evening. A full day, and my ass was sure to get beaten quite a lot!

In the morning, it was definitely more a case of him teaching rather than simply using me in front of an audience. Still, I got quite a flogging/spanking and the guy got to try out hitting my ass as well. I was pretty sore afterward! A funny aside, this guy later turns out to be someone who MasterDoc’s friend Liz had once dated before she met her boyfriend and became serious about him. What a small slut world New York is! This guy was cute and I totally would have done him in a heartbeat. Hopefully he comes back for more lessons later. *naughty grin* MasterDoc gave me a ride on the sybian and I came hard. I mean HARD, like I usually do on the sybian. I was leaning forward onto him, grasping at him, me a blubbering mess.

Lunch was very yummy - there’s an Indian restaurant by MasterDoc that has a terrific lunch special and it’s such a great deal. The food is terrific and cheap! I have become a devotee of alu paratha (this bread stuffed with spiced potato). Yummylicious!

I got a nap in somewhere along the way, I hadn’t slept well the night before. We cleaned up his apartment some more for our next guest, as MasterDoc points out you need to have things nicer for a chick than a guy. She got there sometime around 5. We had met her once before, when I wanted to meet up with a hot young lady from okcupid, and MasterDoc tagged along with me, and this Domme-to-be tagged along with the hot young lady I was lusting after. (Turns out she and the other young lady are partners but very much poly.) MasterDoc is a little out of luck with this lady, as she’s definitely a lesbian (and definitely Domme) but he’s gladly taken her on as a student. She’s a devoted student of Asian studies, Japan in particular, and the most suitable pseudonym for her is Kohai.

I was soon naked and MasterDoc demonstrated various impact toys on my ass (still sore from the morning!), including the floggers Kohai brought along with her (she has some nice stuff for a newbie! The braided one hurt like a motherfucker.) She took turns, trying out using the floggers, MasterDoc spending a lot of time teaching her physiology as it relates to BDSM. I think she has a promising career as a Domme ahead of her. (She’d like to be a professional Domme. In a case like that she’d dominate men, but she wants nothing to do with them sexually.) With impact play pretty well covered, MasterDoc gave her some advice on the psychological aspects of being Dom (ah yes, I’ve now heard all his secrets, although I think ultimately I knew them already from his using them on me). He asked her if she had seen a TENS unit before and she had no idea, so he had me get it and he tried it out on her a little so she could see what it felt like. Then they hooked me up to it and had fun with me.

We debated going out to a club that night, and Kohai called her girlfriend but she didn’t pick up, so the club idea got scrapped. Instead, Kohai got a ride on the sybian (she chose the flat top with no penetrative part). MasterDoc worked the controls and I caressed her body, grabbing at her ass, pushing down on her pubic area so her clit would come in better contact with the vibrator. Like most women, she had a fantastic orgasm riding the sybian. Then we were getting ready to pack up, MasterDoc and I going out to dinner, Kohai getting back on the subway for the ride home. But Kohai was quite forward with the idea that she’d be happy to go at me with a strap on. I certainly wouldn’t say no to a hot lesbian fucking me with a strap on! We went into the bedroom and MasterDoc teased me with the magic wand. Then Kohai fucked me. Unfortunately the dildo I have at his place is the relatively thin one I got to use on guys’ asses. I would have loved a thicker dildo. Still, I managed to come and he gave me permission to. Rowr. One bad thing was that the base of the harness kept hitting against my pussy uncomfortably - do other women have trouble with strap on harnesses? I came regardless. (I’m not one to let a little thing like pain stop me from coming. Heh, sometimes the pain helps me to come.) He followed up with the magic wand on my clit and I came again. I was a very happy girl. I had tons of orgasms in one day. Then MasterDoc treated me to dinner (as he had with lunch) and we had a nice romantic dinner out. All in all, it was a spectacular day.

Saturday, I went to work with a sore ass. lol And I knew we had plans for the evening that included a Dom and his three bisexual submissive women coming over. Rowr. I got so hot at the idea of playing with the other subs and being used by another Dom at MasterDoc’s discretion. Oh yes, Saturday was a very slutty night. More on that in the next blog entry.

Catching Up

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Nadia
on October 4, 2008
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Hi all. I’ve been quiet this week because it’s been a busy week. I’ve been kept busy at work, and I’ve spent a few nights at MasterDoc’s and away from my computer. That doesn’t mean I haven’t had some fun, however. Tuesday night was a quiet night with MasterDoc - we do have evenings of just hanging out from time to time. Wednesday night we got naked and had some fun. I really should blog things right after they happen because details quickly become fuzzy.

He used a variety of toys on me, getting me worked up. I was hoping he’d try the archer wand, but that ended up saved for Friday night. Like I said, the details of Wednesday night are a bit fuzzy. I gave him a hand job for a while (surprisingly I didn’t go down on him at all that night, which is highly unusual). I’m pleased to say my handjob skills seem to be generally improving. It’s amazing what a few bits of direction from a Dom can do for your know-how. He fucked me, and kept me right on the edge for quite a while, or at least it felt like quite a while. When he finally allowed me to come, I came, but not as hard as I would have if he had given me permission right at the peak of my arousal. He seemed disappointed that he missed the peak, as he knows my body so well.

He had me play with this cock and ass, and had me insert a toy into him for the very first time (very first time with me, that is). It was a wand that’s curved, so it worked well to hit his prostrate on the inside. It’s fun to watch the expressions on a man’s face as he gets off. I commented a couple of weeks ago about how it’s fun to watch a woman, but I really do enjoy watching a man as well. We kept playing until he came. (Actually I kept going with the toy even after, as I’ve learned that he doesn’t want stimulation to suddenly end when he’s come, but rather to continue a little after. I keep going until he tells me to stop.)

Last night, we went out to a swing club. It was really dead when we got there, so it was a while before we got down to playing. We took some time for cuddles. (Yes, this is probably disappointing to the people who wander into the room hoping to see sex, and there we are, fully clothed, cuddling. I needed some cuddles last night though.) I had a couple of drinks and felt generally better after the cuddling and the drinks. (I had been feeling kinda down.)

After things began to pick up, we went to the back room where we had cuddled, and MasterDoc had me suck his cock. I got it nice and hard and he told me to sit back so he could reach my cunt. I used the nea on my clit while he played around with me. He had a guy (one who I had fucked before but didn’t immediately recognize. Oh yes, I’m a big slut!) play with my tits in the meanwhile. Then he used the archer wand on me. Rowr. I think it’s even more fun when someone else is using it on you. I find that with penetration play I enjoy it more when someone else is doing the playing, whereas with clit play I prefer doing it myself much of the time. The big, bulbous end of the wand nudged against my g-spot. I so wanted to come. I was a horny mass of sluttiness at that point. So when he asked me if I wanted to get fucked, really wanted it, I just had to moan out that yes, yes, I really wanted to get fucked.

He put me on hands and knees and fucked me from behind. We had a nice audience by this time. He had me use a vibe on my clit while he fucked me. I was really turned on and moaning and crying out, “Oh fuck!” I begged for permission to come and each time he said, “Not yet.” I was a very eager, horny slut at that point. I like being at a club because I can be loud about my enjoyment. I can moan and cry out and scream. After a while of fucking, I asked for permission again, no I begged for permission, and he gave it to me. I came hard, but didn’t manage to push his cock out, which was a nice change of pace. He had it thrust deep inside me when he gave me permission to come. The orgasm rocked my body and I screamed out how good it felt. He would grab my hair every so often. I think the audience had a nice show.

He let me lay down to rest, and I caught my breath. By this time I was laying on my back, and the guy who fucked me before offered to work his fingers in me again (I remembered who he was when it was mentioned he was the guy with magic fingers.) and MasterDoc allowed him to do so. I was laying on my back, and a crowd filled the small room. The guy would finger me deep, hitting my g-spot while MasterDoc applied pressure on the outside. I asked for permission to come at will and was given it. I came really hard, really loudly, over and over again. Next, MasterDoc took over with his fingers inside me and the other guy pressed down by my pubic bone. They took their turns playing with me and it was heavenly.

MasterDoc asked if I was ready to be fucked again. I was quite ready. He had me get on top this time and I rode his cock, rocking back and forth. I love the feel of his cock inside me. I was a little tired, but my enthusiasm gave me the wherewithal to keep fucking him until he had decided it was enough. We relaxed for a bit and the crowd dispersed a little. Soon some other people were fooling around in the corner of the room, and it was getting crowded in there again, so MasterDoc had us get dressed and we prepared to leave.

All-in-all it was a terrific night. We headed home around 1:30, so it was relatively early, but I was feeling quite satisfied. (Oh, I nearly forgot to mention, he gave me a little bit of a flogging as I held onto the chains hanging from the St. Andrew’s Cross in the bdsm room. He had let me pack what toys I wanted last night, and I left out anything stingy but I knew I would like the thuddyness of the big flogger.)