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Rough Beating

We were supposed to go out to a gang bang with S. last night. I was looking forward to the possibility of MasterDoc lining up a few men to fuck me. It was a marked difference in my mood from the night before. Alas, we realized too late that we didn’t have the location of the party. Doh! S. came over for dinner but went home afterward. I was worried it would be a really quiet night in. MasterDoc was watching a basketball game, but I was horny. So when I got my hands on his laptop I quickly pulled up some porn. Oh yes, I was trying to put ideas in his head.

I went for the bdsm flicks, searching for submissive porn on tnaflix.com. As I watched, he started looking over my shoulder, watching along with me. Soon it was clear that he was turned on and my hopefulness at getting some grew.  We take the laptop, with the porn running, into the bedroom. The porn is rough and I’m enjoying it. He has me play with myself with the magic wand. I stare transfixed at the computer screen. He asks me if I’m ready to come, and as usual when he does that my hopes go up and I get right to the edge of orgasm. He has me trained so well. But no, he just teases me with the idea of it and doesn’t give me permission. I’m moaning, aching to come, but no luck.

He has me get on hands and knees so he can fuck me. He fucks me for a while, keeping me right on the edge of orgasm. It seems like he fucks me forever because I’m desperate to come and he keeps denying me permission to come. Over and over he has me begging, swooning, dying for more. He has me play with the magic wand on my clit while he fucks me, and this just keeps me so close to the edge. He starts to spank my ass a little. Finally, I hear that one word I’ve been dying to hear - “Come.” I turn into a panting mess in just a second. I feel like I just want to come forever and ever. I don’t want to stop.

He tells me that that’s enough and we lay down on the bed next to each other. He has me suck his cock for a while and I gobble it up, trying my hardest to get it down my throat without gagging. I practice riding through the feeling of my gag reflex switching on. I struggle to keep the heaving at bay. I think I did better at it than I usually do, but I still need lots of work.

He then decides that I need a good spanking since I won’t be seeing him for a while (over a week *sigh*). He has me get the leather slapper and the large wooden ping-pong paddle. Yikes. Two rough toys. I know I’m in store for quite a beating.

He spanks me really hard; I mean really hard. Hard with his hands, hard with the paddle, hard with the strap. Sometimes the pain is so much I can’t catch my breath but then other times it slides into feeling good or feeling like he’s not touching me at all. It was the strangest sensation when the blows would cease to hurt. I think I hit an endorphin rush quite quickly. I was sure I’d have bruises the next day, but no luck. He has me play with the magic wand on myself while spanking me. I’m on the edge of coming, so desperate. He keeps withholding permission - he really held back with permission last night and it was driving me crazy. Finally, while he’s hitting me, he tells me to come. I come, shuddering and I fall forward, he keeps hitting me. By this time the magic wand has fallen out of my hands onto the bed. I keep coming, this time from the pain of his spanking me. I come over and over again. I finish one orgasm and start another due purely to the feel of his hands striking my ass. He runs his hands over my body, up to my hair to grab it for a second, around me to touch the sensitive area where hip meets thigh. He knows that everything he’s doing will just prolong the ecstasy. Again, I feel like I could come forever. I want more, more more. I can’t believe how hard I’m coming and how long I’m coming for. It’s amazing to me how he can strike me, or just run his hands along my body and make me come.

After, my butt is so red he gets our friend Liz from the next room to take a look and she takes a photo with her iPhone. (He has a very peculiar household.) My butt is still sore today, but there are no bruises. I just seem to mysteriously not bruise these days. MasterDoc says he will just have to hit me harder. Yikes. He was hitting me pretty damn hard last night!

His birthday is coming up this week, and I got him a toy for his birthday. (What does one perv get another perv for their birthday? A sex toy!) I know he enjoys anal stimulation and the just night before I was telling him how hot that is - that he’s a straight man who fully enjoys anal play. So many straight guys are uptight about you playing with their ass, but with MasterDoc as my Dom I’ve had many lessons about pleasing him by playing with his ass.  So the pandora is designed to stimulate his prostate and it vibrates too! I have a hard time getting it in properly so he takes a while to show me what I’m doing wrong. I like the feeling of being taught how to please him, by this time I’ve learned a lot and I wonder if I’d be any good at pleasing another guy now since I’ve been so focused on MasterDoc’s little nuances. So I hold the pandora in and angle it so the curved end is hitting his prostate (or heading in the direction of his prostate anyway, I think). He jerks off, watching porn while I play with his ass. Eventually he comes really hard and it’s wonderful to watch. As he comes, he tells me to come if I can and my god I actually do! I actually came when he hadn’t touched me in quite some time. His voice just does me in. I really wonder if anyone else in the world could make me feel the way he does.

I begged him for permission with my eyes

My collar on, I lay on the bed and start touching the magic wand to my clit to warm myself up.  He strokes himself and watches me, my eyes shut for the most part. I get right to the edge of orgasm and then lay off the vibe a little. He tells me I don’t have to keep myself right on the edge, but it feels so damn good to hold myself at the edge. While riding the edge doesn’t have the sense of release that an orgasm does, the nerve endings around my cunt tingle and get warm and I enjoy waves of pleasure. I keep riding the edge and he starts pushing the wand up against me. With the vibration intensified, I look at him, and I beg him with my eyes for permission to come. I know that he wants me to hold out as long as possible before asking for permission to come, so I work hard at holding back, but it’s so hard. I keep looking at him imploringly and he continues to play with the vibe on my clit. Then I feel his fingers slide down to my hole where he plays a bit before sliding them in to play with my g-spot. I think I managed to hold back asking to come, but finally he tells me, “Come.” Oh my god, I thought my head was going to explode off my shoulders. I had a fantastic series of orgasms - mind blowing orgasms. I just kept coming and coming and coming until he removed his fingers and told me to stop. Spent, I curled up to his chest afterwards for a much needed cuddle. He told me that he would have let me come longer had I not been so loud. After all, it was election day and the kids in his apartment building were bound to be home from school. I thanked him for the orgasms.

Next, I rode his cock, rocking back and forth on top of him, the head of his cock hitting just the right spot inside, over and over. I moaned and rode the edge, rocking my hips. Again I held back from coming, desperately wanting him to give me permission. Again, he gave permission (how lucky I felt!) and I had more orgasms, giving me the energy to frenetically ride him. I found energy and stamina I never knew I had. I squirted on him a little bit and rode him until I was exhausted and had to fall forward, cuddling him. Again, I thanked him for letting me come another time, again really hard.

He fucked me from behind and I couldn’t hold back asking for permission to come this time. I begged, wondering if I’d be so lucky as to be granted permission three times in one day. He must have been feeling really generous as he did, and as I came his cock was pushed out. He held onto my hips and I continued coming, spasming, gasping, writhing in orgasm while he simply held onto me. It really is amazing how he’s gotten me to the point where I will continue coming even without direct genital stimulus. It helps to hear his voice when I come, telling me to come, telling me I’m a good girl. I collapsed on the bed. As we cuddled he asked me, “Are you a lucky girl.”

“Yes, Sir, I’m a lucky girl.”

“Are you a very lucky girl?” I didn’t catch the “very” the first time he said it so when I didn’t respond exactly in kind he repeated it.

“Yes, Sir, I’m a very lucky girl.” This became the theme for the rest of the day, with him asking if I’m a lucky girl, and me responding that I am, indeed, a very lucky girl. I was exhausted. (I thought I was going to sleep really well last night, but alas I had a hard time falling asleep as usual. *sigh*)

A little bit later we were in the bedroom again. He hadn’t come so he had me suck his cock, stroke it and eventually play with his ass as he stroked himself while watching porn. I played with his ass, kneading, stroking the cheeks, getting my fingers right up inside near the asshole. He asked me after a bit if I was tired, and I had to admit that I was (getting between the gluteal muscles can be really tiring on fingers and forearm muscles, sadly). I had played with his ass a bit earlier so they were already a bit tired out. (Anyone have suggestions on exercises to strengthen those muscles?) Since I was tired, and he’s very good to me, he had me lay behind him, stroking his back. My arms were still tired but I didn’t complain as I wanted to help him reach orgasm. After he came, he had me play with his ass just a little bit more and I stroked and kneaded again. He came all over the sheets and I was told to change the sheets and pillow cases before I left.

Tonight I masturbated, thinking about how I begged him with my eyes for permission to come. I rode the edge, humping my Pleasure Tops (still not enough to get me off by itself) and using my bullet vibe. I watched some bdsm porn where a woman who was tied up got flogged and fucked with a butt plug up her ass. My cunt got swollen and engorged as I rubbed the bullet against my clit. I moaned as I neared the edge and finally I let myself come by imagining MasterDoc saying to me, “Come.”

Our Version of a Quiet Night In

MasterDoc and I had a quiet night in last night. But of course if you read this blog regularly you’ll know that a quiet night in for us isn’t necessarily boring. We went out to dinner (the first time in over a year of dating), shared a huge strawberry daiquiri (yum) and then went back to his place. A great way to end a long, busy week. At his place he tells me that he’s in the mood to come that night, and that the focus is going to be on him. I’m really horny so I’m hoping that in the midst of things he’ll decide to fuck me after all, but I had my collar on by this point so I didn’t say a thing, I just focused on what he wanted.

He put porn on the tv and the computer. I was getting hornier and hornier watching the porn. I felt like I was going to crawl out of my skin if I didn’t get touched soon. He had me get the lube and stroke his cock. Being so horny, I really focused on what I was doing and the reaction I got out of him. I apparently came very close to making him come. I was very into touching him and making him feel good last night.

He had me suck his cock for a while, but then had me stop as he got distracted with a phone call. At one point he told me to lube up my asshole, as he was going to fuck my ass. I got excited but it was mostly just a tease. He told me to play with myself, and I was already really wet. I ached to come. Then he decided that, yes, he was going to fuck me and asked me if I had a preference which hole. I said I didn’t have a preference and he decided to fuck my pussy. I got on my knees on the mat on the floor. (My knee is still sore from my fall last week. But it’s better than it was and so it was to the point where I could just think of it as a bdsm-related pain as he fucked me.)

He fucked me for a while, getting me more and more turned on. He fucked me fairly hard and it was so hard to hold back from coming. I begged for orgasm a couple of times, and he told me that I would be in trouble if I asked again. The agony! I so desperately wanted to come but wasn’t allowed to even ask. I struggled for a while, trying not to say anything, just moaning with pleasure as he fucked me. I had to try to divert my attention away from what he was doing to me, so I wouldn’t go over the edge and come. It felt so amazing. Finally, in a frenzy, I moaned out, “Please.” He slapped my ass really hard several times. I was in trouble for giving in and asking. I had tried so hard but I just couldn’t help myself, it felt so amazing. He gets me at such a high state of arousal I can’t help myself; I’m delirious from being touched.

He fucked me for a little longer. I whimpered as that was all I could do since I couldn’t beg. He eventually pushes me away and I fall forward onto the mat. I thought that was it for now, but after a few brief moments he comes up to me, spanks my ass and grabs my hair. “Come, cunt.” And it takes me a few seconds to get there but simply from being aroused, and having him hit my ass and grab me roughly by the hair, I have the most amazing orgasm. No genital stimulation at all at that point. He handles me roughly and holds me close as I have orgasm after orgasm. I clutched at the mat I lay on, and didn’t let go until a few minutes after he had finished with me. He later said that he hadn’t planned to let me come since I had been bad, but he felt pity on me as I lay on the floor. I am such a lucky girl. Really, he is so good to me. In the end, he didn’t end up coming, which I was a little sad about as I really wanted to get him off. (Perhaps I’m learning to be less selfish and less of a pillow princess.)

He had me get dressed and go to his car to get the Sex and the City movie he rented. We watched the movie on the sofa (the quiet night in part of the night) and cuddled a bit. It’s definitely a chick flick, and perhaps a bit sappy, but I was in a romantic mood last night so I got sucked right in.

I only got an evening and a morning with him this week, and I wish I had more time with him, but I’m trying to be a good girl and not give him a hard time about it at all. I will just have to be patient until the next time I get to see him.

Eight Minutes

I asked MasterDoc for permission to use my new toy again this week, and he laid out the guidelines - I could come as fast as I am able, as many times as I am able, but only within eight minutes. At the end of the eight minutes I had to stop. The time would start as soon as I touched myself, so I could look at porn and get myself worked up however long I wanted to before I started the eight minutes.

I was a little worried that I wouldn’t be able to come as fast as I used to be able to come. I could churn out orgasms in no time before, not so much these days. Of course, most of the time these days I have to hold back, so perhaps I would come more quickly than I think I could.

I put some porn on (the Sasha Grey film again) and I got myself worked up watching her struggle all tied up. At 2:50 on the dot I started touching myself with the vibrator, and by 2:51 I had managed to come. So much for worrying about that! Since I was allowed the full eight minutes I took the time to play with myself some more. I really do love my new nea by the way, I’ve decided it’s as good as my bullet vibe with the perk that it doesn’t have a cord. The second orgasm took a few minutes, you’d think when I’m worked up I’d come faster but somehow it didn’t work that way. I had another mind blowing orgasm as I watched Sasha Grey choke on Brandon Iron’s cock. I had a couple of minutes left, so I tried to go for another. At one minute to go my cell phone suddenly rings. Now who would have such perfect timing? Oh yes, it was MasterDoc. I let it go to voicemail as I wanted to get that last minute in. I finished off the minute but didn’t have another orgasm. Still, I was left feeling really good.

I called MasterDoc back and he laughed at the fact that he had caught me in the midst of the eight minutes. He jokingly gave me a hard time about not taking his call. I did debate whether I should pick up or not, but my horniness won out. I could totally go for another eight minutes right now, but I will have to be a good girl and find other things to occupy my time.

Dinner and a Few Fucks

I got to spend time with MasterDoc last night. I asked if he wanted me to go get dinner from the kitchen and he said, “Oh we’re going to eat now? I thought we were going to fuck.” Um well, like I’m going to say no to that! He told me to assume the position for best access and I found a position on the floor, on my knees, head down, ass up, legs apart. I lingered in that position for a while while he watched some porn.  He’d smack my ass every so often. I was getting turned on just being exposed to him like that, being left waiting for the fucking I was coming to want more and more. He finally came over and slid his cock into me. He fucked me for a bit, getting me really aroused. He stopped and put more lube down there and soon I felt a finger against my asshole. I moaned and pushed back on his cock and the finger. He slid his thumb in my ass and fucked me with the thumb inside me. I was a horny slut just loving the feeling of being penetrated in two holes. I begged to be allowed to come but he kept me on the edge. He’d fuck me hard and I’d beg even harder. Finally, he allowed me to come - under the caveat that I should under no circumstances push his cock out. I still haven’t quite gotten the hang of coming while not contracting - I rode this orgasmic wave for a while, semi-coming. I’m not sure if he pulled out or if I eventually pushed him out despite my efforts, but then he was fingering me, hard. I came and came and came. He really fingered me for a while. I’m a lucky girl! I was amazed by how long I could keep coming and coming.

After the fucking he sent me to get dinner from the kitchen. The food was a little so-so after sitting for a while and he couldn’t resist saying to me, “Well YOU wanted to fuck before dinner!”

After dinner we’re sitting on the sofa and he gets an idea (I can see this on his face). He holds out his thumb and says, “Suck my thumb.” I think ok, cool, submissive act, etc. but as I’m moving my head towards his thumb it dawns on me - that thumb had been up my ass. Eww. But I felt that by this time I had agreed to suck it and I couldn’t stop at that point (I was quite in submissive mode). He asked if I could taste my ass on it and I said no (thankfully!). He had been watching my face wondering at what point I realized that it was the thumb used on my ass. I explained that it hit me before I got it in my mouth.

We fucked some more, with me on my back. Again I begged to be allowed to come, but this time he didn’t give permission. He talked about fucking me up the ass and he realized that the bed would be better for that so we moved to the bedroom.

He had me set up some porn on the laptop and he fucked me some more, but not up my ass just yet. I begged to come but wasn’t allowed. We rested for a bit and he told me to find more porn online. I asked what category and he initially said anything I want, but then said, “No. Search for piss.” MasterDoc has been threatening to piss on me (and in my mouth) for as long as I’ve known him. It’s constantly hanging over my head. Piss play is not my kink, I have no problem with people indulging in it if that’s what they like but watching the piss porn just made me nauseous. (These women were soaked in the piss of several men and they spit it from mouth to mouth.) After we fucked (he never did fuck me up the ass. Pity, as I thought I might be able to come that way and not have to worry about my vaginal muscles pushing out), I curled up and tried not to watch the porn. I had complained that I was still horny (having been fucked a couple of times and not allowed to come, despite the orgasms I had earlier in the evening) and MasterDoc came up with an idea - I could play with my bullet vibe and make myself come, but I had to watch the piss porn while doing it. Yes, I can tell he is trying to condition me to like piss play. It was so hard to watch the piss porn as it’s totally not erotic to me, but I was so horny that I managed to sorta block out what I was watching and I had a great trembling orgasm. Thankfully, I was allowed to not watch after I came.

While we were hanging out after, MasterDoc said something about wanting to train me to orgasm less. Argh! If that’s not cruel and unusual punishment I don’t know what is. Orgasms are good. I just see myself walking around in a state of total frustration (and bitchiness) if I had fewer orgasms - particularly if he fucks me just as much and gets me so worked up.

I’ve got a writing assignment to do this week (I’m not seeing him again for a week, sigh) - I have to write an erotic account of what I’d like to happen next time I see the woman I went down on at the party last Friday. She was going to come play with us last night but mother nature intervened (period). I’ve been given permission to call her up and after setting up plans for Wednesday with MasterDoc and I, I can see if she’s available over the long weekend for me to see alone. Rowr. After I went down on her the other night she told me I’m really good at it, and as we said goodbye she gushed how she was so happy to have met me. Hee hee. I so infrequently get the attention of ladies I’m thrilled when it actually happens.
Today I was chatting with MasterDoc online and the idea of him having a live-in submissive came up, and he said he’s sure I’d freak out if he did that. And yes, I had to admit I would - and I realized that strangely, I’d be upset to have someone else doing the chores I do around his place. But after that I realized, duh, I’m a submissive, I should enjoy serving. I’d feel somehow less useful to him if I didn’t help around the house. Ultimately the big thing I’d be upset over is the idea of someone else getting time with him when I want to be spending time with him. I want more time with him, not less.

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I’ve put a new template into wordpress - pretty template but it does some weird things to my side bar (now the digsby widget and my list of categories are underneath everything, rather than to the right). Maybe I should just let the Curmudgeony Librarian work on my site when he gets time. I got mentioned on fleshbot and my site stats have soared over the past day. Cool beans! I love a larger audience for my exploits.

More Coming on Command

Last night I went over to MasterDoc’s. We had dinner and watched a movie, pretty normal stuff. Then he put porn on the laptop and that was the start of something really hot. We watched bdsm porn. This German porn actress was doing her first bdsm porn scene (I think). A sadistic English guy tortured her nipples, spanked her, flogged her, all while her arms were tied behind her back. Then she got retied into this bent over position and he fucked her, vaginally and anally. I’m drawing a blank on how the scene ended, as by that time I was being fucked silly by MasterDoc.

While warming up, we both watched the porn, and he let me use my bullet vibe. I was hot and wet in no time. It really is amazing how much hotter I get watching bdsm porn than regular porn. I was so on the edge of coming, and we hadn’t even started yet. I ached to be fucked while keeping myself warm. I got so wildly turned on imagining myself in the actress’ place.

He had me get on my hands and knees and he fucked me from behind. My job was to make sure the laptop didn’t go into screensaver mode - now being fucked hard while being incredibly turned on is not conducive to keeping an eye on a laptop. I would be clenching my eyes shut, moaning, begging to come when suddenly MasterDoc would smack my ass and remind me of my job. I tried watching the porn so I could notice when the screensaver came on, but I would always get distracted by the tingling in my cunt. He spanked my ass intermittently and would thrust hard for a while until I was a blithering, begging mess, then slow down slightly. He kept me on the edge, something he’s gotten frighteningly good at. I don’t know if I have ever begged as hard to come as I did last night. Maybe that other time recently when he really worked me over. I was desperate to come. I cannot convey to you how my body felt - tingling, tense, dying for release. While it was torture it all felt so good at the same time. I tell you, who needs drugs when you’ve got sex?

He fucked me for a while, til I was out of breath and off in another world. We lay down next to each other and I caught my breath. He reached over and started playing with my clit. He commented on how he hasn’t really paid a lot of attention to stimulating my clit. (I really enjoy penetration, although obviously from my love of the bullet vibe on my clit I like clitoral stimulation as well. Heck, I just like stimulation.) He played with my clit, getting me even more worked up than I was before. Eventually, he told me to come and of course I came on command. I moaned and screamed (he had to tell me more than once to shut up). He alternated fingers inside me and fingers on my clit. I don’t know exactly how long I came but it was good and long. I was just speechless afterwards. (But soon found my voice to say, “Thank you, Sir.”)

Words cannot describe how amazingly good I felt. I am at a loss to adequately describe it so you, the reader, can feel what I felt. We lay close together and I felt both satisfied and ready for more. After a bit of a break, we ended up kissing. I still yearned for him so I kissed back passionately. We made out for a while and I got more and more turned on. After a little while of making out, he puts his hand in my hair, grabs a handful and says, “I want you,” pause for another kiss, “to come now.” Oh my god. My entire body spasmed and I had an incredible orgasm purely from the sound of his voice and the feel of his hand in my hair. He held me as I came, telling me what a good girl I am. I came for a while, probably only seconds when it comes down to it, but it wasn’t a quick little orgasm. Guys, if you can get a woman into that state you can get her to do anything. I thanked my lucky stars that I had met MasterDoc.

He hadn’t come yet, so he had me play with his ass while he stroked himself and watched the porn some more. I kneaded his ass cheeks as his breathing got shorter. It seemed like he was on the edge for a moment or two. He came and I stupidly stopped playing with his ass. I really should know better, he likes me to continue doing it for a little while even after he’s come. He had me wipe up the come, get us some drinks of water and we gradually wound down until it was bedtime. We cuddled for a while then went off to sleep.

I think this whole coming on command thing proves the point that the brain is the largest sex organ in the human. He is so good at getting inside my head, at knowing what turns me on, at getting me into a desperate state physically and mentally. I can’t wait for the next time.

More porn hotness

Someone kindly messaged me on FetLife today with links to go with that one MasterDoc and I found so hot on pornhub. One is the full video that was excerpted on pornhub, the other is another video with the same actress.

The Beauty of Free Porn

MasterDoc sent me this link the other day. Hawt! Though I think a blindfold would have been a better choice than sunglasses. I really like the whole hands cuffed behind the back thing. I’m sure it’s terribly uncomfortable being fucked like that, but the helplessness of having your hands behind your back is really, really hot. I’ve yet to really check out pornhub but perhaps I should spend some time perusing it myself. Hey, free porn is a good thing. I also tend to look at pictures at xnxx.com; they’ve got so many categories I can’t imagine someone not finding something they like. Alas, I’m not getting any kickbacks from these sites for mentioning them, but I like people to be able to find free porn. Isn’t that what the internet is for? There was some other site I used to go to, but it went downhill and wouldn’t you know I can’t even think of the name of it anymore.

MasterDoc and I are going out to a swing club this coming weekend. A friend of mine, who I haven’t seen in ages, will be there doing tarot readings (her wife will be there too). I’m excited to go out for the double purpose of fucking in public AND seeing two friends I haven’t seen in a long time. Oh and D.S. is supposed to visit me this Friday before he moves away from the area. I’m sad to see him go, but it’s not like we managed to see each other much anyway. He’ll be driving distance away still (a few hours) so perhaps we’ll get together from time to time still.

Hot!

A friend who reads this blog sent me this link to a short video clip. It’s very short, but very hot and includes the sybian.

Sub Porn

Found this link over at Bitchy Jones. Hot!!!