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Early Experiences, Part 2

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on October 18, 2008
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Talking with Davey today, I was reminded of one bdsm/fetish relationship that I would have forgotten to mention! I dated a cross-dresser several years ago. He was into bdsm too (again, a sub who I switched with a little) and owned a wonderful array of bdsm gear. There was the spreader bar, the face harness with the leather gag that could be snapped on, the pvc maid’s outfits (gotten for him, but the open breasted one looked far better on me), various things for impact play, etc. I can’t remember all the stuff anymore. I’m still friendly with this ex-boyfriend and one time while out with a group of friends (i.e., I was drunk) I cornered him and asked what I had been dying to ask - does his wife know about the cross-dressing and bdsm? “We don’t talk about that,” was his response. Made bold by the alcohol in my system I told him that if he was looking to unload any of this bdsm equipment, to please keep me in mind. So far he hasn’t contacted me about that. Damn.

My first trip to a bdsm club was my very first date with this guy. It certainly goes down as the most interesting first date I’ve ever had. We met at La Nouvelle Justine (is that even around any more?) a bdsm-themed restaurant in New York City. He was in drag and I have to admit his legs looked better than mine. *sigh* We ended up stopping by his apartment so he could change shoes, then we went to a TV bar and hung out with a bunch of other transvestites. Next, we went to Paddles, a bdsm club, my first ever trip to a bdsm club - on a first date! We only made out in the corner but it was fun all the same. He and I would visit Paddles various times through out our relationship (just under two years), pretty much always with him in drag. I was the first girlfriend of his to know about the cross-dressing. Despite times when he’s been a dick to me, I haven’t opened my mouth and told our mutual friends about it at all. I feel good having taken the high road. We played around with bondage and spanking. I remember one time he spanked me to the point where I had to invoke a safe word. The unfortunate thing is that he stopped everything after that. Meanwhile I was in a state where I would have LOVED to have been just taken and ravished right then and there. Somewhere on my computer is a photo of my red ass from that spanking.

After my relationship with him, again I dated a few guys and maybe there was some light bondage but nothing much. None of the relationships lasted all that long. In 2002, however, I met a couple on a herpes dating site. They were both into bdsm, she a sub, him a dom, and we chatted for a couple of months getting to know each other. Eventually I got to meet them and I went back to his place with them that very first night. (Yes, I’m a little crazy. I was terrified on the way over that they were psychos and I’d end up killed.) We would get together to do bdsm play every now and then. Often, I would drive over to his place, call them on my cell phone when I was nearly there, and they’d give me instructions for when I walked in. I was to get naked, put on the blindfold on the sofa, and the cuffs on my wrists and wait. Several minutes later they’d come out of the bedroom. They’d do different things to me - he of course enjoyed seeing me and her make out, they’d take turns spanking me, various experiences. I think he once had us drink champagne out of a bowl on the floor. It was a lot of fun but I often felt like the guest sex toy. I’d see them every few months off and on until last year. They’ve since broken up, and I’m not allowed bdsm play with anyone but MasterDoc now. (The last time I saw them, shortly after I had started seeing MasterDoc, they used a big dildo on me without warming me up at all, and it left me with soreness problems for weeks afterwards. After that MasterDoc was not so keen on letting me play with them. Actually, he was never keen on it, but he was letting me ‘grandfather’ in various people I was intimate with before I met him.)

I think I’ve covered all my bdsm experiences pre-MasterDoc at this point. I might have forgotten one or two, but the most memorable ones have been captured here. Too bad I didn’t keep a blog all along. The stories I’d have details for! My memory gets fuzzy all too quick. 2005 was the first time I went to a sex party - and I went as a single woman. I had become friendly with Audacia Ray through our blogs, and she had a friend who was also a blogger (and turned out to be a real dickhead, i.e., the guy who assaulted me) who hosted sex parties in his apartment. So only knowing Audacia from her blog and from meeting her once, I went to the party all by myself (knowing only her) and had a fantastic time. My sluttiness had finally found an outlet with casual sex parties. The number of lovers I have had since then is exponentially more than I had had before. I had always loved sex, but it took me a while to embrace being a slut.

Slow Night; Good Orgasm

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on September 20, 2008
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After having the guest over in the afternoon, we went out that evening to a swing club. I was really horny and so glad to be having such a sex-filled day. Unfortunately, the club was slow. At one point I was one of only two women in the club. Now, granted, this is the perfect set up for MasterDoc to give me that gang bang he’s always threatening. But I guess he didn’t find enough guys suitable (he had his eye on three guys, but one turned out to be a jackass), or he didn’t feel in the mood to do it. We cuddled a bit in the back room (the one with the spanking bench) and at first that’s all we were going to do. But we got an audience of one guy stroking himself and so MasterDoc decided to flip me over and spank a bit. He started out caressing my ass and stroking my back. I had tensed up waiting for a spank but instead I got petted. I relaxed into it and enjoyed the sensation.

He had me pull my pants half down, so I was naked from waist to knees, as I lay face down on the bed. He started spanking me with his hand. He slapped quite hard but I was into it last night. It hurt but I was enjoying the pain. He slapped my ass for quite a while, I’m sure it got all red. I could hear a small gathering of an audience behind me. It sounded like the audience was into watching me get hit, and this only fueled his spanking harder. I was surprised at how long and hard he hit me, but I enjoyed being the submissive and trying to take all I could. He got out the leather slapper and slapped my ass some with that, turning it over to the whip end a couple of times. The spanking went on for a while, with me crying out when the pain got to be too much. It seemed like he went on forever. Just when I thought maybe he’d stop, just when he complained I was making his shoulder hurt, he would keep on going. My ass stung. The audience sounded like they were really enjoying watching a slut get spanked hard. Eventually, he stopped and had me get dressed. One guy talked with MasterDoc after about the local bdsm club and bdsm play in general.

 We wandered around the club a bit more, still next to no couples there, mostly single guys. After a break we found ourselves in the exhibitionists’ room. (Go figure. Would you ever expect us to be there?) We lay down on the bed and guys gathered around to watch. I sucked MasterDoc’s cock for a while. We made out a bit. It was all very sexy and slow moving. I really got into it. He had me play with my new toy (the nea) and get myself worked up and close to the edge. He’d finger me, then take his fingers out and have me lick them to wet them. He commented at one point about how the audience seemed to like that. He’d slide them in me, get me worked up, then take them out and have me lick them thoroughly to wet them. He asked me at one point if I needed lube and I said I was fine. It turned out later I probably should have had some lube (I bled a bit) but we all know that I tend to like things rough. In the heat of the moment I was having a good time while guys crowded around to watch him finger me. He’d slap my thighs in between fingering my cunt. I got so worked up and started begging to come. He made me say it louder, so the crowd could hear me. “Please let me come, Sir!”

“Are you a filthy slut?”

“Yes, Sir, I’m a filthy slut.”

He didn’t let me come right away, but instead kept fingering me while I kept playing with the nea on my clit. I was so worked up, and he’d say to me, “That’s it, keep it on the edge. Good girl.” I so wanted to come! He was working my g-spot inside and I wondered if maybe I would squirt when I came. I’d open my eyes every so often and see the men huddled around watching. One guy was stroking his cock while watching me. While I get a little shy (i.e., I can’t keep my eyes open) I do love being the center of attention. MasterDoc had me totally focused on my cunt and clit and I begged again to be allowed to come. After waiting a bit more, he let me come and I screamed out in pleasure. My muscles clenched and I’m surprised I didn’t squirt. I came and came and came. It was a really earth-shattering orgasm.

Afterward, breathless, I managed to get out a, “Thank you, Sir.” I lay down for a bit, catching my breath. The guy who had had his cock out said that he really enjoyed watching and would love to “be a part of your (MasterDoc’s) circle.” He implied that he would be glad to submit too and MasterDoc just thanked him and declined. MasterDoc had me give the guy a hand, however, and I stroked his cock for a while while other guys watched. Eventually MasterDoc decided that he had had enough and we got dressed. We hung out for a while longer, but things never picked up. I was still a horny girl, but I had had wonderful orgasms, so I couldn’t complain. *grin* We went home, getting bagels on the way as usual, and hung out for a while at home before getting to sleep.

Sex for All

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on August 24, 2008
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Wrote an essay on the beauty of real bodies over at bestsexbloggers.com.

Pool Party

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on August 24, 2008
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On Friday, MasterDoc and I talked extensively about my problem with him reading email. While we don’t agree 100%, I do feel better now that we’ve spoken and he has fully explained his reasons. It’s been decided that he’ll have the passwords to my collarme and fetlife profiles and will get to see the particular exchange he wanted to see earlier this week. I’m allowed to note that he has access on those profiles and have already done so.

As I thought about the situation and how I reacted earlier this week, I realized that while I want to give up control, I’m also incredibly fearful of giving up control. So every now and then I have these little bouts of panic where I act up and get defiant. Giving up control is scary. It doesn’t matter how trustworthy the person is (and MasterDoc is trustworthy) it’s still scary to me. But on the other hand I also think that if I was able to do it it might be very freeing for me after I get over the fear.

On Friday night we went to a private pool party. The heated pool was quite warm, like bathwater early in the evening and like a hot tub later that night. I don’t think I’ve ever gone swimming naked before and it’s interesting how much tits float.  We took some time to settle in and I dipped in the pool before MasterDoc. He was busy setting up the sybian, which we brought along for the pleasure of the female guests. He then got roped into taking pictures, so I found myself in the pool, with an Englishman reaching out for me to join him and his lady (and as you may well know I have a fetish for English accents) but I had to decline, saying that I needed my Dom’s permission first. It was a big bummer but I got out and went seeking permission. MasterDoc was too busy so I just ended up getting back in the pool to relax in the warm water. More time went by and eventually MasterDoc got away and got into the pool with me. I whined a little about how I could be having fun but when he’s distracted I can’t get permission to have any fun. After some talking, he told me that I was allowed to find the Englishman and fuck him, but if anyone else tried to join in I had to say that I had to get my Dom’s permission first.  So I went off to find the Englishman.

I found him upstairs, watching a couple fooling around. I walked up behind him and started stroking his ass gently. “You got permission?” he asked and I said yes. We went into another bedroom and he lay down on the bed. I bent over and started sucking his cock to get it hard (and like most Englishmen he was uncircumcised). Just then, the couple in the next room started making noise again and he wanted to go watch. So we went in, and it turns out they were just finishing up, so he went down stairs and ran into his lady and went off with her. Phooey! So I didn’t get any English cock that night. I wonder how things would have been different if I could have joined in when he first reached out for me. It’s hard to have to sorta reject someone when you really don’t want to reject them, and then to go back later and expect them to be all up for it when you’ve gotten permission to act. Going to a party as a sub is very, very different than when I went as a single woman. I have many limits as a sub that I didn’t have when I was solo.

I got whiny again and MasterDoc decided to take me upstairs and beat my ass. He used his hands, he used the rough pedicure thingy that works well as a stingy paddle. He got me sore and red, then got out the floggers. By this time people were popping in to see what was going on. He flogged me with the stingy little flogger, then with the thuddy big flogger. He let someone else hit my ass but he didn’t realize that she was going to use an implement rather than her hand. I think someone else got to spank me a bit as well, someone who kept massaging my ass between each smack gave me a little bit of a spanking. Since I wasn’t told to lift my head up (I was on my knees on the bed, ass in the air) I couldn’t see who did it and I have no idea to this day. The spanking went on for a bit, with MasterDoc flogging me some more. One woman apparently watched a bit, not sure she was into it, but then when her guy tried to get her away to play she wanted to watch me get beaten just a little more.

We took a break and the crowd dispersed. We cuddled a bit and I got a little scolded for being whiny. I feel shy in new social situations and a way I get comfortable is to dive in and begin fucking. I suppose I fuck first, become friendly later. To have to be social in the normal way was really difficult for me and I ended up feeling really out of place and uncomfortable. Other people were fooling around, fucking, riding the sybian and I was just left on my own, shy and bored. At any rate, we hugged on the bed and that helped me feel better. MasterDoc wasn’t any more thrilled than I was that he had been pressed into taking photos.

We went downstairs, watched more sybian riding going on and hung out. We got to talking with a couple, the woman had just been on the sybian. She was outrageously curvy, looking a lot like the Venus of WIllendorf. Narrow waist, big voluptuous hips and big tits. Many people would call her fat, but I think she was curvy in just the right places. We talked for a while with the couple, and MasterDoc offered that the guy could fuck me. So he came over to the sofa while MasterDoc went and sat in the chair with his lady. We start out stroking each other’s genitals, nibbling on necks, but before long he gets on his knees in front of me and starts eating me out. Whoo, and he’s good at it. I get really worked up and he starts fingering me as well. I writhe, moan and get really horny. I open my eyes at one point to look at MasterDoc and ask if I have permission to come. He said that permission was implied. And so I focused on the tongue and lips on my clit and the fingers working in and out of me and I started to come, screaming as usual. I writhed and moaned and gasped. I came really hard, squirted all over the couch, and kept on coming as he kept up the stimulation. I was so tensed from the orgasms that my shoulders began to hurt. I asked for a break and while he backed off somewhat, he kept licking my clit. I came again and again asked for a break. This time he let me relax. We sat close together on the sofa and I thanked him. We chatted with MasterDoc and this guy’s lady. I was much happier than I had been earlier, now that I had a screaming orgasm.

In a little while we ended up in the pool again, which by this time had steam rising off the water. It was actually a little bit too warm but we soaked with others for a while. This cute, curvy woman we had been talking to came over and ultimately she ended up sitting on the edge of the pool with her legs on either side of MasterDoc’s head. She played with his hair (he was facing out, not towards her crotch) and I reached out and stroked his cock. I reached up and played with her nipples, asking her how she liked it - rough or gentle. She said rough so I began twisting and pulling and she closed her eyes and moaned a little. The three of us just hung out, touching and petting. Eventually MasterDoc got out from between her legs and I got in between to lick her clit. I sucked and licked and flicked at her clit as she moaned and panted. She told me I was good at that and from the angle I was in I was able to look up and watch her face while I ate her out. She had me stop after a while and she told me that I’m very good at that and that it made her all breathless. It feels really good to be told that.

The pool was too hot so we got out and ended up on the sofa again. After some more talking, MasterDoc decided to put me on the sybian. I set it up and got on. He controlled the vibration and I ground my clit into the machine. He got me really hot and when I asked to be allowed to come he made me ask again, louder and louder until people could hear me. He teased me for a bit and I begged for orgasm. Finally he let me and I screamed, moaned, my vagina clenching the dildo of the sybian. I had a wonderful orgasm. Again, I was a happy girl. Soon I ended up on my knees in front of MasterDoc, sucking his cock while he relaxed in a chair. I got him hard and he decided to fuck me. I kneeled on the chair, facing the back and he fucked me from behind. Oh it felt so good. While the sybian often numbs me this time I could feel his cock thrust in and out of me quite well. I asked for permission to come, and he let me after a few moments. I tried initially to not let my muscles push his cock out, but then realized he hadn’t told me I had to do that, so I just came. Of course my muscles pushed him out but he took over with his fingers and had me screaming and gasping as I leaned over the chair and came.

There was one more lady who needed a ride on the sybian, a lady who had played with us before at MasterDoc’s once. He put her on and took the controls (please note that every lady who used the sybian had to wash it after use). He got her worked up, then waved me over to start spanking her ass. I slapped and spanked as she moaned and he worked the controls. It was really hot to watch, even though I couldn’t see her face. MasterDoc focuses intently on the lady he’s working over and it was really fun to watch him at work. He knows just when to play with a nipple, just when to reach around and slap the ass. He strokes and pets and works the woman into a frenzy.

After she came, it turned out there was yet another woman who hadn’t gotten to ride and of course MasterDoc was happy to oblige. I had fun watching again, this time from a different angle where I could see the lady’s face. Her husband would help her stroke her clit (we’ve misplaced the attachment that helps raise the nubbly part of the pad to clit height) or stroke her ass. MasterDoc would crank the dial up to the highest setting and still she wanted more. He worked her over, made her come again and again.

It was really late, and after the last lady we started to pack up. I got a warm goodbye from the lady who I had licked earlier and I hope we get to play with her again. I loves me those curvy women. Rowr. We gave a ride to the subway to the couple who used the sybian last and they were really nice to chat with on the way. It was dawn by this time and we were both getting sleepy. We went through a drive through for breakfast and ate on the way home. It was light out by the time we got into bed, around 8 a.m. or so. I slept the day away and didn’t get up until 4-ish. We hung out, had a late lunch (or was it early dinner?) and MasterDoc got some cleaning out of me as well as a back massage. It grew late and I knew that Davey was expecting me home so I headed out around 8:30. I was so tired from messing up my sleep schedule that I went to bed early (10:30) and slept the night through. I woke up early today feeling refreshed.

Surprise Trip

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on July 7, 2008
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Well we didn’t make it to TESFest after all, but I had a great weekend with MasterDoc regardless. I’m a happy girl as I sit here writing this while listening to the soundtrack to Hedwig and the Angry Inch (finally gave in and bought it from iTunes). I met up with MasterDoc at his place on Saturday afternoon. We hung out, watched a movie (Hedwig and the Angry Inch, which I was pleasantly surprised he liked. It’s one of my favorites.) and he alluded to us going out that night. As he does often, he didn’t offer more information about where we were going or what we were getting up to. It makes me a little nervous when I have no idea, but I trust him and I submit to him so I don’t ask questions. That night, we drive for about 40 minutes to an hour off to some suburban area I’d never been to before (I really couldn’t tell you what town I was in even now). We’re on one of those divided roads where you have to make a big u-turn if the place you want to go to is on the other side of the street when he spots the place on the other side of the road and says there it is. The place is a seedy-looking porn shop. I had a feeling as we turned around to get to the shop that this wasn’t just a porn shop, or it was some porn shop he knew about where you could get away with more in the booths than most of them we’ve gone to. I was still nervous as he paid the owner of the shop and the owner directed us to another location on the other side of the divided road. Whatever was going on was going on at that location that night.

We went to the other porn shop and MasterDoc gave the voucher he had gotten from the owner at the other place to the guy behind the counter. He directed us to doors behind us - they appeared to be to video booths, but we were told to go in door number three, which had a “Keep Out” sign on it, and we got buzzed into the door. I’m still wondering what’s up at this point, as we make our way through a labyrinth to a set of rooms with sofas and porn playing on the televisions. It was a swing club, hidden away in a porn shop in the suburbs. It was definitely the seediest looking swing club I’d ever been too, and I suppose that says a lot as swing clubs aren’t usually described as “classy.”

There were just a few people there, some guys hanging around as one guy plays with a woman’s breasts. MasterDoc was disappointed. He had planned to get me gangbanged that night. The pickins were beyond slim. We settled on a sofa and he had me suck his cock. I kept my eyes closed as it was easier to do so in this seedy place. I sucked it til it was hard and threw myself into the task. I opened my eyes and met the eyes of a guy on the next sofa who was stroking himself while I blew MasterDoc.

He had me take a break and then he lamented that we didn’t bring any sort of cushioning for me to get on my knees on the floor. The guys in the room offered the cushion off one of the other couches, and I got on my knees in front of MasterDoc and sucked his cock some more. We certainly were the entertainment that evening. Soon, he had me naked and sitting with my legs spread on the sofa, playing with myself with a vibrator. One of the guys offered to get the woman and make her lick my pussy. The unfortunate thing is that “make” was the operative word. She clearly didn’t want to. After a few awkward moments MasterDoc thanked them and shooed them away.

He asked me if I wanted to get fucked and of course I said, “Yes, Sir.”

“Yes, Sir, what?”

“Yes, Sir, I want to get fucked Sir.”

He had me kneel on the sofa and he got behind me. He smacked my ass a bit and then fucked me. And I have to tell you it was so hot being fucked in that dimly lit, seedy sex club. The seediness added to the hotness factor. I was totally his slut to do with as he wished in front of those creepy guys. We tried another position (but my bad knees prevented it from working). The owner from the other site was there at this point and MasterDoc ordered me to present my tits to him. This guy was old and creepy and MasterDoc knows me well so he knew I wouldn’t like this order. But I did as I was told and tried to ignore the creepy old guy sucking on my tits. I kept up a submissive mantra in my head, “I’m doing this for him, I’m doing this for him.” (MasterDoc) It only lasted a brief minute but MasterDoc took great sadistic pleasure in my discomfort. I was relieved when it was over.

The club was totally dead by this point, so, disappointed that no gangbang occurred, we packed up and left. We headed to J’s house, another girlfriend of MasterDoc’s and spent the night there with the intention of going to TESFest the next day (Sunday).
Unfortunately I had one of my bouts of insomnia and got very little sleep that night. When MasterDoc came to wake me up I explained how little sleep I had gotten and he asked me if I wanted to sleep or go to TESFest. I opted for sleep. He kindly let me catch up on the sleep I had missed. A couple of hours later we had breakfast and hung out with J. for a little while. Then we headed back to MasterDoc’s place. (By this time it didn’t make sense to go and pay for a whole day at TESFest.) What we got up to on Sunday is my next blog entry.

Fucking at the Club

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on April 20, 2008
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Friday night was my usual night with MasterDoc. His back had been bothering him earlier in the day so it was up in the air whether we were going to go out or not. (He had canceled with a couple who were supposed to come over so the wife could ride the sybian.) I had been keen to go out since the next couple of weeks are going to be more difficult for making plans (he’s working additional shifts). But of course I didn’t want him to be in pain. However, some time on the heating pad and he wasn’t feeling too bad, plus I offered to drive as driving really brings on the backache for him. We went out fairly late, taking my car for a change. (I drive stick and so few people know how to drive stick anymore, so my car doesn’t get used often for trips out unless I’m driving.)

We went to one of the swing clubs we frequent, and I’m very happy to report that they did away with the miserable air mattresses and have some actual beds now (still not fantastic but better than a friggin air mattress). The club was moderately busy and MasterDoc knew I was feeling really horny that week and that I was keen to be fucked. I’m a bit picky though, and for the most part I wasn’t too into the guys there. Now of course, had MasterDoc decided someone was going to fuck me, it wouldn’t matter one bit if I wasn’t interested in them, but sometimes he lets me give input. There was one man I thought was cute, but by the time I spoke up about this to MasterDoc he was nowhere to be found. *sigh* I need to speak up more quickly, although the thinking behind not speaking up quickly is that as the sub I don’t have a say in who I get to fuck so I leave it up to MasterDoc. He’s told me now, however, that I should consider it an order for me to speak up and tell him when I’m interested in someone.

We wandered around, seeing what’s going on. At the snack table a man recognized MasterDoc from another swing club years before. They chatted for a bit about people they had known from there. When we went off into one of the rooms, the man followed to watch. MasterDoc laid down on the bed and had me suck his cock for a while. A crowd soon formed and someone commented to him, “Your wife is very beautiful.” He asked me, “Are you my wife, slut?” And of course I responded with a clear, “No, Sir.” It felt really odd to be referred to as a wife when I’m simply his submissive slut.

I sucked his cock for a while, and he complimented me on my skills - apparently I’m improving. He had me get naked and suck his cock some more. When he decided to fuck me, I turned around and saw that the room was full of people watching. Of course I love this and it was so hot to be fucked in a room full of voyeurs. I was so horny and it felt amazing to have his cock inside me. I was moaning up a storm as always and I came close to coming. Of course I asked for permission and he didn’t give it right away. But when he did I had a lovely orgasm, screaming for all the crowd to hear. He spanked me for a bit, and my pain tolerance was up so it felt nice rather than painful.

Next, he had me reach into the pants of the man he was speaking to before and give him a hand job. He told me to make it my goal to make the man come. I used some lube and got him hard. I thought to myself that I really am a major slut, after all here was some guy who I wasn’t at all attracted to, but on MasterDoc’s orders I had no problem grabbing his cock and giving him a handjob. I even looked him in the eye a few times. Ultimately, I didn’t get him to come, but MasterDoc decided to fuck me again. Again, he fucked me hard and it felt so amazing. Again, there was a crowd watching. He let a couple of men grope me while he fucked me. I just love the idea of some guy thinking about the experience of groping me as he jerks himself off later that night. I love the idea of being fodder for someone’s masturbatory fantasies.

We spent some more time wandering the club, watching some action, talking to a few people. While a guy stood in front of me getting a blow job, MasterDoc told me to reach over and play with the guy’s ass. And so I did, groping some complete stranger who never even looked around to see who was playing with his ass. lol There were two girls playing who were really putting on quite a show. While I think I’m more of an exhibitionist than voyeur, I do enjoy watching others as well.

We hung out for a while and didn’t end up playing again. I was a little disappointed that I didn’t get gang banged, but ultimately since I had been fucked I was a happy girl. We headed home, stopping for some yummy bagels as usual.

The next morning, we fucked some more, MasterDoc warning me to keep quiet. It takes a lot of effort for me to moan quietly and not cry out. I managed it, mostly breathing heavy rather than moaning. He fucked me from behind for a while, smacking my ass from time to time. He fucked me while on top as well. I asked for permission to come and wasn’t given it.

We hung out for a bit then headed back to bed again. His back was bothering him so he lay on the heating pad again, but this time he decided that he wanted me to suck his cock while he relaxed. I threw myself into the blow job, doing my best to make him feel good. He got turned on enough to want to fuck me again, but as he was taking care of his back I had to get on top. I put the condom on him, trying to roll it down with my mouth after I got his sensitive head covered (only managed to roll it halfway with my mouth). I climbed on top of him and fucked him as best I could. It felt fantastic but I generally have a hard time coming while on top. It’s a bit strange because in that position my clit got some stimulation, but still I didn’t get close enough to ask permission to come. We fucked for a while, he pulled on my nipples as I rode, and he grabbed my head and pulled me down on top of his cock. It was hot and felt great. He smacked my ass with the crop and all went well until he accidentally smacked himself in the balls with the crop. Ouch. And that was the end of that.

We cuddled a bit and then I headed home. Unfortunately I won’t get as much time with him this week, but I’m happy just to get some time to spend with him at all.

Why I Enjoy Public Sex

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on April 2, 2008
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Generally, the more I blog the more I think of things to blog about. Today at work I had a random thought that I should blog about why I like public sex. But of course, before doing that I have to think about why I like public sex. I don’t think I’ve ever really thought about it, not in depth.

I’ll start off thinking about how I feel when I have public sex. Again, not something I’ve thought much about other than “it feels good.” But somehow, when there’s an appreciative audience, everything is a bit more intense. I don’t know why it should be that way, but I get off harder knowing that people are watching me and feeling turned on. Perhaps it’s a channeling of the energy that’s around. Their arousal fuels mine. Knowing that I’m making dicks hard is also a real self-esteem booster. I may be an average-looking chubby chick, but seeing my naked tits and wet cunt gets many men hard and horny. It’s arousing being arousing.

There’s also a thrill to be had in doing the taboo -you’re not supposed to have sex in front of others. I’m a bad girl for letting people see me naked and fucking. I find it actually quite liberating to break that taboo. There’s something freeing in being naked and not worrying about your body, but instead taking pleasure in it. For those moments I’m free from society’s fat-hatred because I’m not thinking about how I need to lose weight, but I’m thinking about how tingly my clit feels and how hot and horny I feel. I’m thinking about how hot the person fucking me finds me. And how some of the others around him wish they could be him. I think about how good my wet cunt feels - both to me and to the person I’m fucking. I think in having an audience I’m somehow more present in the moment and present in my body. I’m more aware of the sexual energy being generated. At that point in time I am hot because I feel so damn hot.

And knowing how hot it is to watch another woman come, I’m sure it doesn’t hurt that I know I give a noisy show when I come. There’s something terribly arousing about seeing someone orgasm. And it’s arousing being the person who others are seeing orgasm. It just adds to the hotness of the moment.

So why do I like public sex? It’s just generally hotter for me than private sex. The element of an audience adds something. Private sex is plenty hot in itself, but I love me an audience.

Best Butt

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on March 16, 2008
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So the depression is getting much better. Still feeling a little moody but keeping it together for the most part. Yesterday I was feeling a bit moody over missing out on my usual Friday with MasterDoc, but one of his other ladies had had surgery so of course she needed his attention more than I did. (She’s doing well and going home from his place today.) But I lucked out and while she recovered at his place, he and I went out last night.

The evening started out with me feeling a little moody and MasterDoc feeling frustrated as he had had a frustrating day. But the wonderful thing is, after spending a little time together, both of our moods improved greatly. We met up with S. at a hotel party that she had gone to the night before (It was a two night party around a gaming, etc. convention. Lots of geeky goodness.) And it was much more friendly than going to a club. Everyone went around the room introducing themselves. MasterDoc spoke for me as I was wearing my collar. (He spoke for S. too but she was free to decide who she wanted to play with that night.) We ate dinner, socialized and hung out. My friend from a few weeks ago was there as well.

I was tired because I had worked during the day, but I was quite content to snuggle up to MasterDoc while we socialized. The party had a best butt competition (one for the ladies, one for the men) and I dropped trou for the judge. Later, they announced the top three for each, and I won first place for the ladies! Whoo hoo. I got a keychain that said “1st place, 2008″ and the keychain looked like a laptop and opened up to say “best butt” …etc inside. (I left it in MasterDoc’s toy bag so I don’t have it to refer to just now.) Now I don’t usually think of my butt as all that great, but this was the land of the BBW so I was definitely in the running. (I’m chubby, not a BBW really but tall and a big girl. I’m not thin or petite in any universe.) For a picture of my butt you can go here and here. Obviously had this been a party full of hot skinny babes there’s no way I would have won best butt. But I’ll take my victories where I can.

MasterDoc decided to set me up in one of the bedrooms so he could use the wax my friend brought along. Unfortunately it turned out to truly be low-melt wax - i.e., it wasn’t hot at all. It was an interesting sensation but even when MasterDoc poured it on that sensitive area where my hip meets my thigh he couldn’t get a rise out of me. He got more of a reaction from pouring it on S. who was laying on the bed next to me. He had both of us go down on him and he spanked us both. He played with S. with the hitachi magic wand for a bit and I amused myself with the little vibrator from his toy bag. There was a nice crowd around, and some play going on in the next bed as well.

He had me suck his cock while S. played with herself with the wand, keeping herself on the edge. (Earlier, MasterDoc demonstrated to someone how he can just touch S. on the side of her face and say, “Come” and she comes. Instantly. It’s quite something to watch.) He asked me if I’m ready to be fucked and of course I said, “Yes Sir.” I asked if he’d be willing to spank me a bit, as I wasn’t that wet and a spanking would help move me along. He’s very good to me and did give me a nice spanking to help get things going. Then he fucked me from behind on the edge of the bed. He had some guys come over and grope my breasts while he fucked me, and one used the little vibrator on my clit. I got close to coming and said, “Please Sir, may I come?” He gave permission and I came hard. He stopped fucking me and fingered me til I was screaming and moaning. Afterward, the woman in the next bed said that she thought it was so hot how I asked for permission to come. I lay down, and MasterDoc put a condom over the head of the hitachi wand and used it on me for a while - again making me come and come. I was a very happy (and very tired) girl. The lady in the next bed had always wanted to use the magic wand, so MasterDoc changed the condom on it (always good about safer sex!) and used it on her to give her a taste. I went and got us water.

We packed up and headed home after that. MasterDoc slept at my place in the spare room since his lady friend was recovering in his bed at home. We got in some cuddles before he shooed me off to bed. I went into bed and Davey woke up and somehow we began kissing and fooling around and soon we were having sex. It was a good night.

I got up to use the bathroom this morning and MasterDoc was getting ready to go. We got in a quick hug and kiss and he commented on how he heard me and Davey going at it the night before. hee hee. I lead such an interesting life. I’m so glad all my relationships are out in the open. I’d hate to be sneaking around behind anyone’s back.

Party

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on December 9, 2007
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I somehow managed to get past my depressed mood yesterday. By the time we got to the party I was in the mood to have fun. Right before we went out we found a show on the history of sex on the history channel and in a strange way that got me in the mood. It didn’t get me horny, but it got me into one of my pro-sex moods and exercising my right to be a randy slut seemed like a really good idea at the time. Also, you have to remember that since I was going with Davey, I was free to do what I wished, without consulting MasterDoc first. I was determined to enjoy my freedom for the evening. I wanted to fuck a bunch of people.

Of course, things don’t always work out quite how we want them to, but I had a good time regardless. The early part of the evening at these sorts of parties consists of people chit chatting, getting to know each other or saying hello to people they know from other parties. Davey and I both tend towards being shy and not overly social, so we had to really push ourselves to talk to people. Luckily, with my determination to get laid by strangers, I was able to go up to people we were interested in and just plain ol’ introduce myself and Davey. I was determined to have a good time and I wasn’t going to let shyness stop me.

It’s interesting how different I am going to a party with Davey or by myself than I am when going as MasterDoc’s sub. In sub mode, I’m really obedient, don’t take initiative and have to be told what to do. But when I’m not in sub mode at one of these parties I can take initiative and get things moving. I was starting to get fed up with not much going on, so I took Davey to a mattress right by the socializing area (separated by only a thin mesh curtain), took off most of my clothes except for my red lace thong and got Davey to start playing with me. I took care to look directly at anyone who peeked in as he went down on me and fingered me but unfortunately no one seemed interested in joining us. I went down on Davey for a while, telling him to be sure to make eye contact with any interested parties. Alas, still no takers. *sigh* I got fed up after a while, put my bra back on and walked around in my underwear for a bit.

For the most part, people didn’t seem interested in playing with us. I was starting to feel rather unattractive. There was one couple with this really cute guy who I found out was originally from Germany who I totally wanted to do, but the woman didn’t seem ultimately interested in us. Bleah. The guy looked interested whenever I smiled at him and said hello. That never panned out, sadly. It was getting late, we were getting a little frustrated and I was starting to get annoyed that we might just go home without having played with anyone. Oh no, I was not going to have that, especially not for the money we paid. Again, I took Davey into a room with a mattress, this one was not separated by any curtain but in full view of the doorway, and I sat us down on the mattress right in front of the door and started getting Davey to play with me some more. There was a couple who came in and the woman started going down on her man, and I think he was interested in me but they made no move to join us (and I was lukewarm about him so I didn’t take initiative). But then a guy who seemed nice from earlier came in, made an appreciative comment and I said, “Why don’t you join us?” He needed no more urging before he was between my legs going down on me. His lady came in a few minutes later and chided him for being a busy bee, always up to something. It was clear that they enjoy each other’s sluttiness. Davey kissed me a bit, and while the woman stood nearby I leaned in to whisper in his ear, “Get her involved.” It was clear she would be happy to join us. Soon the four of us are fooling around on the bed. The guy was good at making conversation while also getting me really hot. His lady begged him to fuck her, so he did so while she went down on Davey, but he managed to lean over and finger me at the same time. I came and squirted, which I think only encouraged him more. Soon we broke of into twos, Davey having fun with the lady, and me and the guy fucking. He was a really good lay and I came a bunch of times.

All was hot and lovely until there was suddenly a scream from the next room. Everything ground to a halt and some of the people in the room went to see what was going on. Turns out someone was trying to do something he had no permission to do and the lady out there was not pleased. Someone came back in, we got the scoop that the asshole in question was now being made to leave and I relaxed. I got into playing with the woman’s clit while her man fingered her and the three of us made out a bit. I was up for more playing, but when I looked over at Davey I could tell something was wrong. He had been freaked out by the incident in the other room and wanted to go home. Of course, if one person is upset and wants to go home the thing to do is go home. I didn’t want Davey to feel uncomfortable. He’s an extremely empathetic person so something bad happening to someone can really bother him. You’d have thought the incident would upset me but I felt like it happened in the best way a bad situation like that could happen, the woman was really vocal about her wishes, everyone went running to help and the guy who didn’t understand “no” was ejected.

Of course, after leaving and getting away from the situation, Davey was feeling really horny and I was still up for fucking. When we got home I got a quick snack (hey, all that activity got me hungry) and then we went off to the bedroom. I got him to immediately take me from behind and when we got tired of that position he got on top. I came some more and then we cuddled and went to sleep.

Gang Bang

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So this weekend was the gang bang. I’m sure readers are waiting to hear the steamy details. But first I want to thank Davey for a lovely weekend - we went out to dinner at a pricey restaurant (where the food is fantastic), he organized the gang bang (with the kind assistance of MasterDoc) and then treated me to Sunday brunch (and filled my car with gas and paid for a car wash). I’m very lucky to have him. Oh and he got me a hitachi magic wand for my birthday. Whoo hoo! I want to thank MasterDoc for helping so much with organizing the gang bang, finding a place where we could have it (at the home of one of his girlfriends/subs) and getting things moving during the gang bang, and the orgasms, can’t forget the orgasms.

S. is the only girlfriend of MasterDoc’s that I hadn’t met and she kindly agreed to host the party at her place. I’m so glad to have met her now as I feel like I’ve met a kindred spirit. We had the best time talking for a long while after the guests had left. Davey could barely get a word in edgewise. One of the perks of being poly is meeting other people you click with, who you wouldn’t have met otherwise.

Davey and I arrived at the same time as Saajan. MasterDoc was already there. The group of us (including S.) talked and those who hadn’t met before got acquainted. MasterDoc took out my new magic wand and plugged it in, teasing me through my jeans. Eventually we all moved into the bedroom and I got naked. (Davey went and invited S. to come watch shortly after we got started in the bedroom. I’m glad she wasn’t left out, and goodness knows I don’t mind an audience.) MasterDoc had to keep reminding himself that he wasn’t in dom mode, but his dom-ness came in handy to get things moving. I hadn’t seen Saajan in a few months and it was good to spend naked time with him again. Between the magic wand and the three lovely penises I had plenty to keep me busy and I squirted a bit when I came.

N. showed up once everything had gotten started and he jumped in pretty quickly. (I really missed D.S.’s presence. I would have loved to have him there instead of N.) And so I had four guys taking turns fucking me, with the magic wand filling in in between. S. lent us her g-spot attachment for the magic wand and I was happy to test-drive it. (I want one for Christmas now.) The gang bang might have been a little bit better without the magic wand, however, as it provides so much stimulation that it’s a noticeable difference when you switch to real, live, non-vibrating penis.

All the fucking kinda blurs together and I couldn’t tell you who went when other than the fact that MasterDoc got everything started. I was on my knees, head down on the bed moaning. I was on my back, legs up in the air, a penis in each hand as someone else fucked me. It was a lot of fun and luckily everyone involved is comfortable with laughter during sex. There were a lot of jokes cracked but the down side to that was the way my vaginal muscles would push whoever out when I laughed.

Soon Saajan had to head to work, MasterDoc had a date with yet another girlfriend, and N. gave me a birthday present before bidding us farewell. As I said before, Davey and I ended up hanging out much longer with S., nibbling on the snacks we brought and just talking about anything and everything. It was a fun day, and yes indeed, I realize that I could take more than four guys at a time in the future. *grin*