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Photo Shoot

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Nadia
on July 10, 2009
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My friend DivaSub came over to MasterDoc’s Thursday night to take pictures for me to feature on this blog. I now have HNT material for a while. The first time I hung out with DivaSub, she suggested that I should have more photos, and she offered to take them. I’m always up for a sexy woman taking half-naked and naked photos of me. I mean, duh, who would turn that down?

We hung out, had takeout delivered and enjoyed something to make us mellow. (Completely legal. Uh huh. No, really. What do you mean you don’t believe me?) I took a camera phone shot of her ample cleavage to share with my twitter followers, and we got down to business. (Was going to provide a link but I managed to get my twitpic account suspended. Oops, forgot that my naked boobies could upset people so.) I took my shirt off, and she liked that but hadn’t gotten a good shot. So I ended up taking my shirt off three times. Hee hee. I felt a little like some innocent being coerced into pornography - only there was absolutely no coercion needed. “Yeah baby, take your shirt off. Like that. Oh yeah, do it again!” (<-not really what she said)

Soon I was in underwear, and we were taking shots on my Liberator Scoop and Escape. They’re both black, and provided a nice background. I had a couple of costume changes. Mostly it was sexy underwear I pretty much never wear because it’s not all that comfortable (Including a sexy sheer bra that’s horrendously uncomfortable to wear). I got out my Lelo toys at one point (Nea and Liv), because they’re pretty and also because I really want to angle for a Gigi to review. Below is one of the photos featuring my Lelo toys.

Lelo

During the photo shoot, I felt a little like a porn model. I really enjoyed it a great deal. DivaSub is happily in a monogamous relationship, so I didn’t try to get her clothes off like I would have liked to. Man, the trouble the two of us would get up to if she was a free agent!

DivaSub was a great choice for photographer, because like me she’s a tall, voluptuous woman. She knew all the tricks to make the photos as flattering as possible. My fat is well hidden!

For something that contained practically no physical contact, the photo shoot was hot. I had such a blast. As I reveal photos, you’ll see some where you can tell I was smiling pretty much the whole time. I got some nice photos with my collar on, and some nice photos showing my face, which sadly I can’t share here. (I didn’t wear any makeup since I figured the shots would have to be faceless.) It was a very fun evening indeed.

Having DeeDee Listen

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on July 10, 2009
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Where to start? A little while back MasterDoc had a potential submissive listen in on us fooling around via the phone. I can’t find the entry where I mentioned it, but I did mention it here. Anyway, her name is DeeDee. She lives a few states away and has been talking to MasterDoc online a great deal. It’s interesting to get glimpses into their interactions; It brings me back to when I first met MasterDoc. He just had her fill out the BDSM check list (there’s many online this is just one) recently to see what she likes, what limits she has. (I was relieved that she rated analingus a 2 - it’s lower on the list of desirability for me!) I do get moments of insecurity (cuz, you know, I’m a horribly insecure person), but ultimately she seems cool and I’m sure we’ll have fun together.

Tuesday night, he decided to have her listen in as we played. He encouraged me to be much more vocal than usual - something he realizes is hard for me - and I did my best to vocalize what I was feeling. It was easier to make noises than to speak words, but I did manage a few words from time to time. He went into the next room to start the phone call, and left me laying on the Liberator Escape in the living room. I thought to myself that he’d probably like it if I was warmed up when he came back, so I started stroking my clit.

He came back in with his phone set to speaker. I could hear DeeDee on the other end. He had me get on hands and knees, and he started spanking me. I tried to be louder with my reaction noises than usual. He hit pretty hard for a while so it wasn’t hard to be noisy. He’d talk to DeeDee now and then, and I’m pretty sure she was playing with herself at the other end. MasterDoc had me sit up. He had me suck his cock for a while, and it’s great when he’s got someone listening on the phone, because he becomes very verbal about how good it feels and how I know what he likes. Definite ego boost. After he was good and hard (he was pretty hard to start with), he gave me the blindfold and I put it on, sitting cross-legged on the mat. He announced that he had nipple clamps in hand. He gently scolded me for not bringing the clover clamps and pointed out that he wants me to learn how to take them by now. He went to put the clamp on one nipple, but the screws were set so the clamp was pretty loose. He didn’t play around with the tightness, but instead started slapping the inside of my thighs. I had been kinda looking forward to the nipple clamps, I almost wished that I had brought the clover clamps. Lately I find myself fantasizing about the clover clamps, but still too scared to put them out as the toy of choice.

He had me lie down on my back, and he sat between my legs, slapping my thighs and pussy every now and then. I wish I could remember in more detail what he said to DeeDee, it was all pretty damn hot. (This is why I rued having to work the next day and not having time to blog this right away!) He fingered me - finding just that right spot inside. He knows how to work my g-spot really well and I was moaning and begging for orgasm in no time. “Please may I come, Sir!” I sometimes wish he would take over my g-spot like that more often - it’s amazing. He teased me into a frenzy. When he let me come, the orgasm and blindfold combination nearly made me feel like I had blacked out. All capacity to think was stopped and I came hard, very hard. And he kept me coming for what seemed like a very long time. When he had decided I had enough, I caught my breath and we could hear DeeDee on the other end of the phone. He had given her permission to come when I came, and we could still hear her coming. He tried to tell her to stop just then, but I don’t think she heard him right away. He repeated himself until he was heard, and it sounded like it was hard for her to stop. (I know that feeling!)

Next he had me get him really hard again. He asked DeeDee how she thought he should fuck me, and she suggested my getting on top and riding him. I got the Liberator Wedge and put it under his ass and got on top of his throbbing cock. It felt so good to have him deep inside me, and I think having DeeDee listen made it even hotter. I moaned, and cried out and told him how good it felt. When he let me come, again I came long and hard. I wondered to myself if he was trying to impress DeeDee with how hard and long he could make me come, but he didn’t realize that he had me come any longer than usual. After I had finished, I stayed on top of his cock, and he brought the phone to his ear to hear DeeDee coming hard on other end. I stroked his chest as he listened, knowing that he’d want me to make him feel good. He told her, “That’s it. Come. Come DeeDee.” I hope that his voice telling her that makes her come harder like it does me.

DeeDee is due to visit MasterDoc for the first time on Monday. I may get to meet her Monday night myself.

On With The Show

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on July 5, 2009
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Friday, MasterDoc and I did something we haven’t done in a long time - we did a show. I can’t really remember how long it’s been - months - and I don’t have the patience to sift through old blog entries to figure out exactly how long it’s been. Suffice it to say, a long time. Without telling me, because he doesn’t usually tell me, he posted an ad online that asks if people want to come learn about bdsm.

My sinuses were bothering me that morning, so my first reaction was negative. But after I woke up a bit more and had some time to adjust to the idea, I was keen on it.

MasterDoc spends a good amount of time sifting through the men who respond to his ad. (I have to ask him, has a woman ever responded?) After years of doing this with a variety of subs I’m sure he’s worked out well how to tell who is ok to come and who is not. He had a nice young Irishman come over. I have to say, it was easy to hang out with the guy, a little less easy to be slutty in front of him because he was so darned nice. But I managed to get properly into subspace. And he seemed to enjoy himself a great deal.

MasterDoc frequently starts with having me suck his cock (this after some chit chat and gathering info on what the guy is interested in seeing). It’s a good way to start, I can bury my face in his crotch and forget that there’s someone watching. I can get into the beginnings of subspace with the simple act of sucking his cock. It’s easy until he makes me turn and look directly at the guy. I always feel shy when I have to engage with the guy at all. He had me look at the guy, and MasterDoc took his cock and slapped it against my open mouth a few times. Very slutty. He knows how hard it is for me to make eye contact. But doing it even though it’s hard for me is part of my submission.

Next, he had me kneel in front of a chair and take my pants down. My pants and panties around my knees, I knelt and leaned over the chair. He demonstrated spanking me, and flogging me. He really went at it - but it turned me on. He had me set up some toys ahead of time, and my folly was putting out the small leather flogger - it really stings when he flings it from hip to hip. I swear, the skin on my hips is more sensitive than the skin that’s on my butt.

Not that I’m complaining, mind you. I enjoyed it a great deal. He commented on how my ass turns nicely red these days when he spanks me. He had me get on the chair (it’s a recliner) and show my pussy to our guest. It’s funny how I feel shy, and yet I do it without any real hesitation. I really am an exhibitionist. MasterDoc got a towel to put down in case I came. He had me play with some toys and I used the Fun Factory Bloomy I just got. I’m really fond of it already. It curves up into my g-spot and the outside bit rubs against my clit. At one point MasterDoc got me to take my hands away, and he commented on how slutty it looks with the toy sticking out of my cunt. He wants a picture of that. He gave me the Acuvibe Mini and I used it on my clit. I got really worked up, but then he started slapping the inside of my thighs. He asked me if I was ready to come, and I had to admit that I wasn’t quite there. “I’ve been hitting you to hard to come,” he commented, and that was precisely the issue. Some pain hurls me closer to orgasm, and some pain is just too much to eroticize - and the level of pain that is one or the other varies from day to day.

He had me get on the Liberator Escape on the floor. I used the Acuvibe Mini on myself and got really worked up. He made me look at the guy and show him how much I wanted to get fucked. I could tell the guy really took pleasure in watching me get myself worked up. MasterDoc asked a few times, “Do you want to get fucked?” And every time of course my answer was, “Yes, Sir, I want to get fucked.” I was so aroused that my begging for cock was very real at this point. I had myself on the edge of orgasm, and having someone watch really added to the hotness factor.

He had me put a pillow under my ass, and he got down on the floor mat to fuck me. The guy got up to get a better view of the fucking. I was lost in desire. MasterDoc made me beg for orgasm, and I really came hard when he let me. I squirted, and felt the hot liquid run down my ass onto the pillow. The guy hadn’t quite seen the squirting, but when I got up the pillow had a large wet spot on it. After, MasterDoc talked a little about the idea that men judge women based on what they look like during orgasm - i.e., that the different faces (and, I’d presume, noises) women make are attractive to different men. I had never thought about that before. I know myself, that watching a woman during orgasm can be an amazing experience. Men are fun to watch too, but their orgasms seem to be over much more quickly. A woman’s orgasm can go on for a while.

The guy seemed to thoroughly enjoy himself. And I enjoyed the fact that my sluttiness turns people on. With the money from the show, MasterDoc treated me to sushi that night.

Weekend

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on June 29, 2009
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I had a mostly quiet weekend, which is strange when you learn that I went to a bdsm/sex party on Saturday night with MasterDoc. Of course, this is not so strange when I mention that I had my period, and spent the night freaked out about my Instead cup leaking. Those things don’t do too well during heavy flow days (for me).

I did get to ride the sybian and ended up being the first person naked, I think. I find this thrilling, stimulating and a bit embarrassing. It’s strange to be naked in front of a room of strangers and acquaintances. It’s naughty and definitely a turn on. I find that I can’t necessarily look at the people around me, but I like knowing they’re there. I like that MasterDoc enjoys us being the center of attention. I used the flat top to the sybian since I’ve had trouble with using the dildo attachment while wearing a cup (the cup ended up pinching me - no fun). This was the first time I rode the sybian without a dildo attachment. But considering much of the sensation comes from the vibration and from my clit grinding against the nubby pad, the dildo wasn’t much of a loss.

MasterDoc teased me mercilessly. He’d ask others in the room if they thought I should be allowed to come, and apparently they said no! So he teased me some more, more than he had ever done before. I was in a frenzied state. He had me begging for orgasm, all the while making sure I begged loud enough for others to hear. I was the wanton, aroused slut begging for sexual release. Eventually he let me come, and I was loud and rocketed into another world. I found myself humping the machine desperately, moaning, clutching at MasterDoc’s legs in front of me. I get a little spastic at the time of orgasm on the sybian. I’m also completely unintelligible.

I had to actually ask him to stop, as I started developing a headache. Asking him to stop is rare, and getting a headache from orgasm is pretty rare for me as well. MasterDoc took care of me, going upstairs with me to get a drink and then he put me on the sofa while he went off in search of some acetaminophen for my headache. I appreciated the fact that he took the time to see to me when I wasn’t feeling well. He’s good to me. (When he’s not being sadistic, that is!)

Later, I got to watch the party hostess ride the sybian. She goes for the largest phallic attachment it comes with. I’m always amazed as that dildo is too large to be comfortable for me. But she loves it and it’s fascinating watching a woman ride the sybian. I saw her humping the machine as she struggled to hold back from coming just as I did. MasterDoc took the controls for a while, then her fiance came over and she sucked his cock while riding. Her fiance took the controls and had her suck his cock as he sat in the chair in front of her. A woman is just in another world when she’s on that thing. It’s beautiful to watch her face contort as she’s taken over by ecstacy.

We got home late that night, and then on Sunday ended up sleeping half the day away. (Got up, had breakfast, went to lay down for cuddles and then both felt drowsy so we fell asleep for a couple of hours.) Sunday night, I wandered into the bedroom where I knew MasterDoc was preparing for some sex. He was on the phone with a new lady he’s been speaking with. He wanted her to listen in as he did things to me. I sucked his cock and he made more happy noises than usual so his new ladyfriend could hear on the other end. A little later, he slapped my inner thighs and pussy for a while - asking his ladyfriend if she liked that. He made me come using his hands and did his best to tempt her with the prospect of coming that hard. She only listened in for a while. I hope she enjoyed it. (She’s read this blog and enjoyed it, happy to say.)

He fucked me from behind, and made me into a moaning mess, desperate for orgasm. He let me come and kept me going with his fingers even after my vaginal muscles had pushed his cock out. I was very happy and quite satisfied.

On Monday I didn’t have to be at work til later (as did he) and we spent some time together in the morning. He had me suck his cock, and I tell you, I really get into it. Sucking his cock made me so horny! We fucked some more, him hitting my ass with the riding crop all the while. It felt good, but then my hips started to get tired (I was on top). I had to ask to stop, and sadly that meant the end of sex as it was getting late. Surprisingly, I didn’t feel anxious over not having reached orgasm. My arousal subsided easily unlike some times when it lingers until I’m able to come. I was just happy to have that intimate time with MasterDoc on a Monday morning, a time I don’t usually get to spend with him.

The Slut at a Party

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on April 20, 2009
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MasterDoc took me a private play party this past Saturday. I had a wonderful time and hopefully I’ll manage to capture the best moments here in my blog.

When we arrived MasterDoc was immediately accosted by bratty sub Patty, who he’s played with before. I watched in horror as she twisted his nipples (something he HATES) and it was clear she was looking for punishment. MasterDoc wasn’t quite prepared to give it at that moment, however. I was supposed to play with Patty that night but with her brattiness in high gear MasterDoc decided no pussy for her (which ended up meaning no pussy for me). When she kissed him hello it was fun to watch the chemistry between them but that nipple twisting still boggles my mind. I’m not a bratty sub so I can’t imagine going out of my way to antagonize MasterDoc. If I want a beating I state that I’d like a beating… no bratty manoeuvres to get one. If I behave in a bratty manner I’m less likely to get a beating. (When I do get emotional and insufferable it’s never intentional and certainly not in seeking a beating.)

After some noshing and talking with people we ended up in the basement. MasterDoc had brought along the sybian (always a hit at parties!) and he set up the hostess on it. When her fiance arrived he handed the controls over to him and it was a joy to watch her come really hard over and over again. While orgasms always take your mind off your surroundings there’s something about a sybian orgasm that totally turns your brain to mush. After, MasterDoc asked if anyone else wanted a ride, when no one else volunteered he asked if I wanted one. It’s been weeks since I had a ride so I enthusiastically went for it. MasterDoc played with the controls and soon I was a blubbering, orgasming mess. My head fell forward into his lap (he sat in a chair in front of me) and my hair got all mussed up. I was asked by the hosts to keep the noise down at one point - I’m sure during an intense orgasm I could wake the dead. It’s hard to keep the noise down but burying my face in MasterDoc’s pant leg helped. He kept revving the sybian which would just turn me back to mush in an instant. Eventually, after I had come long and hard, he decided I had enough and I came back down to earth.

By this point there was some play going on, a lady was on the pool table being treated to a violet wand (something I’ve never experienced myself). We went upstairs and the hostess was lounging languidly on the bed as people played with her tits. MasterDoc started spanking her pussy and she just writhed and moaned under his hand. Another lady joined in when he took a break. She didn’t come from this but it was clear she enjoyed herself. In the meanwhile a guy we had met before asked if he could play with my tits (he asked MasterDoc, of course) and permission granted he pulled my breasts out of my bra and started sucking on my nipples. I closed my eyes and enjoyed the sensation. After a few moments, MasterDoc had me get on the other side of him, and the hostess reached out and started rubbing my clit. I stood there enjoying how it felt until the hostess was fucked by someone and she lost her sense of direction with her hand (understandably!).

MasterDoc had me suck his cock and I went at it with great passion. I love sucking his cock. Getting it from a soft state up into hardness is a fun process, and I sucked and licked until he was good and hard. I moaned and slurped, hoping that I was putting on a good show for all in the bedroom. MasterDoc decided to have me ride him and I got on top of his now quite hard cock.  I fucked him passionately and had a mind blowing orgasm (with permission of course). There were other people on the bed and hands caressed my body from various angles. Another Dom asked him if he could kiss me and MasterDoc said yes so I made out with this guy while sitting on MasterDoc’s cock.

After a break and caressing another sub’s body for a while I was asked to go back to cocksucking. I also at one point was told to lend a hand to a guy stroking his cock near me. He played with my breasts while I did that and I just closed my eyes, enjoying the feeling. MasterDoc had me get on all fours so this guy could fuck me and he fucked me really hard from behind. I was allowed to come again and came really hard, over and over again while this guy fucked me. It might be amusing some day to have someone record the racket I make during orgasm.

A paddle appeared and MasterDoc took to the hostesses ass with it. Her fiance came in and said that no, she’s not a pain slut, just a slut and MasterDoc had me turn around on all fours so he could paddle me instead. I think I more accurately fit the term pain slut. I was unhappy that it ended so quickly after it started. I wanted more. I could really do with a good beating.

After another short while, MasterDoc had me get out my acrylic wand and he fucked me with it (and let another guy have a go although he didn’t quite do it right). I came some more, brain totally turned to mush, and I felt so free being so slutty. I had such a wonderful time and I can’t picture my life without adventurous sex and sex parties and bdsm. I feel freed when I’m in slut mode and I just give in to my desires without any apologies.

MasterDoc was tired so he napped a little bit. I cuddled up to him but also kept an eye out for what else was going on in the room. Patty gave a guy a blow job, and when I looked over to the black lesbian Domme (who I wanted to have beat me) she had her hand down her pants playing with herself while watching. There was a funny moment when she caught me looking and we both laughed. MasterDoc sleepily asked what was funny but I just let him go back to sleep. It was such a naughty evening. I could have kept going all night if not for having work the next day. I could write a longer blog entry about the evening, but I know how long entries can get boring for the reader, so I will leave my account at this.

Two days later my pussy is still a little sore from the hard fucking.

A Fun Reason for a Sick Day

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Nadia
on March 30, 2009
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Sunday afternoon MasterDoc got a message on fetlife about another gangbang party. I had work the next day but we had been toying with the idea of me calling in sick one day so we could get to some events on work nights. Naughty girl that I am I opted to call in sick. I feel like such a bad girl - calling in sick to work so I could go get fucked. We got to the gangbang a little late - the ladies had already chosen their men. We went in back to the bdsm room and relaxed a bit, figuring that guys would make their way in. There were only 2 or 3 women there. MasterDoc had me suck his cock and that got a bit of an audience. He told me to look at them, which I always find hard to do. Last night I was acutely aware of how humiliating it is to be someone’s submissive cunt. Not that this is a bad thing, mind you. But I really felt the humiliation play a lot.

He spanked my thighs and cunt, trying to get me wet. I kept my eyes closed and wished that I had thought to pack the blindfold in the toy bag. I have a few light bruises from thigh spanking this weekend to remind me of the fun I had. I bruise so infrequently these days! He fucked me with the acrylic wand (see last entry) and made me come in front of all those guys. He had me get on all fours and he spanked my ass but good - I was really enjoying being spanked this weekend. My pain tolerance was good and it felt great to be spanked. Plus, I didn’t have to look at the small crowd that had begun to form. It’s funny how I like having an audience, but I don’t like having to look them in the eye. MasterDoc offered me to one of the guys there and he asked if he could go down on me first. MasterDoc would have preferred me getting fucked without ever seeing the guy, but he obliged and I lay on my back. While the guy licked furiously at my cunt MasterDoc talked to me, “Are you getting your cunt licked? You like getting your cunt licked don’t you, slut?” Oh dear god the dirty talk was driving me nuts. I felt embarrassed and turned on at the same time. The guy put a condom on and fucked me and I got to come. As I lay there moaning and panting MasterDoc said something along the lines of, “That’s it. That’s what you’re for, cunt.” And it felt so good to be used. I like that I’m a filthy slut who will fuck whoever MasterDoc tells me to.

Only bad part of the evening was that the first guy was too stupid to hold onto the condom as he pulled out and he left it behind. Ugh. This is seriously bad manners. Guys, do not ever forget to hold the condom as you pull out. A condom should never be left behind after you’ve fucked a girl.

Right after guy number one finished MasterDoc had guy number two all ready. This guy was a big black guy with a huge cock. I mean, it really brought new meaning to BBC. He stretched my pussy wide and I don’t think I’ve ever felt so filled up. At first it was a turn on and I came, but then it got to be too much and in amongst the “unhs” of pleasure came a few “ows.” I think this was the biggest cock I’ve ever had - really thick. It was too much of a good thing.

In came a third guy right after the second. This was the first time I’ve been fucked by a north Asian guy (not sure what nationality). He had fantastic tattoos including a large buddha on his chest/tummy. I came again, but I was starting to get tired already - must be all that Wii fit I’m doing these days, wearing me out. MasterDoc gave me a break after the third guy and after I had rested offered me to a fourth guy. The fourth guy fucked me and alas he was small and I could barely feel him (particularly after that other guy stretched me out). MasterDoc saw that my excitement was waning and he slapped my face a few times telling me to “come cunt!” and I came, purely off the kink of being slapped and called a cunt. I still marvel at how he can make me come without genital stimulation.

We got dressed after this and socialized a minute before heading out the door to the next party. At the door, a hot woman who had said hello earlier as she set up her gangbang near where we were sitting said, “No, you’re not leaving! You’re not taking her away are you?” She was distressed that I was leaving so soon and she passionately kissed me by the elevator. Rowr. It made us think for a second about going back in.

Next we went to a popular fetish event that takes place every month in NYC. I’ve been keen to go since it’s “the” event to go to. Well, I’m sad to say it wasn’t my speed. First we get there and the guy from the gangbang party had told us to ask for someone at the door and say that he sent us. MasterDoc gets out his doctor’s coat and speculum as his fetish outfit. The guy makes a comment about how he has to tell the guy who referred us that, “It’s really dress fetish.” Oh, sorry, I didn’t realize that we were playing “more fetishy than thou” tonight. *sigh* We were the only ones there not in full fetish get ups. Now, I’m all for dressing fetish if that’s what turns you on, it’s wonderful to see people in great fetish costumes. However, I don’t like feeling that I’m somehow “not kinky enough” if I’m not in corset and latex. I don’t need the “fetish uniform” to be kinky or submissive. I can’t picture MasterDoc in a typical Dom costume. I like him how he is. It felt like how you’re dressed mattered much more than how you play. Not that we got a chance to play. The place was crowded and hot - we could barely find a place to stand let alone play. If MasterDoc had tried to flog me he would have hit a dozen people in the process. I was really unhappy. Big crowds in small spaces are not my thing. If I ever go again I will have to dress up in my little bit of fetish gear so I won’t feel so out of place. I hope they find a bigger venue. The whole experience lasted about 10 minutes before I was desperate to get out of there. We did run into our favorite bartender from the swing club, who was there with her Dom. It was great to see her even if I didn’t like the rest of the scene.

All in all it was a fun evening. So decadent to skip work and go to sex/bdsm parties. I love decadence.

Weekend Play

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on March 30, 2009
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Saturday night we tried the new swing club again. It was empty, which is such a shame as they have a great set up for fucking. If any of you readers go to swing clubs in New York, take some time to check out Twisters and get some people showing up. I know it’s in Brooklyn but it’s worth the trip - or rather will be once people start going there.

So unfortunately we were the only couple there again, apparently there had been a few people there the night before but MasterDoc ended up not going with the friend he planned to go with (I had work the next day). We made our own fun as usual. We went into one of the rooms and sucked and fucked. We did 69 which we don’t do often, but I think it’s an overrated position. I’m too busy focusing on giving head to really feel what’s going on down by my clit. I don’t get as turned on as I would like. He had me get on top and ride him for a while, which definitely did turn me on and he let me come. (He let me come a lot this weekend. I am a very lucky girl.)

We got dressed again and hung out in the lounge, waiting for the supposed couples who were supposedly arriving shortly. They never appeared, if they ever existed at all. MasterDoc gave the hostess a good flogging (she has a rubber flogger which is like a larger/longer version of the large black whip I reviewed recently). But she kept her pants on so even though he was hitting her really hard with flogger and hand she was still giggling. MasterDoc pointed out that if she’s still giggling then he’s not hitting her hard enough. He says next time he will get her to take her pants down first. I’m sure she won’t be giggling then.

He had me play with myself in the lounge and it was really hard to get turned on knowing I was the sole naked person there. It felt awkward and I felt really self conscious. MasterDoc would have let me come but I couldn’t get myself to that point. We adjourned to one of the back rooms for more play and I sucked his cock for a while. I’m quite pleased with myself as I seem to be doing a good job sucking cock these days. Getting a nice reaction from your partner is such fun. I seem to be much better at getting it in deep without gagging, and that makes my saliva run more so it’s a nice, wet, sloppy blow job with lots of slurping sounds. MasterDoc decided to use my acrylic wand on me (photo below - I bought it years ago at Babeland and they don’t seem to sell it any longer). The guy who minds the lockers asked if he could watch. I smiled at MasterDoc as I liked the idea although I couldn’t get myself to look at the locker guy. MasterDoc used my wand on me (the curved end this night, he used the other end the next night at my request) until I came really really hard - I literally had a screaming orgasm. I’d like someone to tape my sounds some time so I can hear what I sound like when I come hard and long. I felt terrific afterwards.

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On Sunday, I was feeling a little inexplicably down and MasterDoc decided to administer the perfect cure - he made me come using the magic wand on my clit and the acrylic wand inside me. Oh my god my head was going to blow off my shoulders. He teased me for a while and then let me come. I just kept coming and coming. I would have kept coming even longer had he not decided I had enough after I had come for a good long time. My blahs were cured after this.

Later, I played with MasterDoc’s ass while he masturbated and watched porn. He taught me to watch his body language to see if what I’m doing is making him feel good. He didn’t come, and sometimes I get frustrated because it’s hard to make him come. I want to make him feel good - he gives me so many orgasms and I give him so few. I feel bad. I lay next to him, our naked bodies pressed together and I stroked his chest and pelvic area, making him twitch a little. He said that it felt really good and I’m really getting to know how to make him feel good by touching him. I love being pressed up against him, languidly stroking his body. Before we resumed playing he got a message in his fetlife inbox and before long the decision was made to go out Sunday night.

Swing Club, Part 2

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It seems like he was just as horny as I was last night. Again, he had me get his cock hard and this time he fucked me from behind. I grunted as soon as his cock slid into me and hit my cervix. All I wanted was cock, cock and more cock. I would have gladly fucked the guys working at the club. I was a horny slut. I was his horny slut. As he fucked me, I moaned, “Ooh.” I panted and breathed heavy. I’ve found over the years that the heavy breathing plays a part in getting me to orgasm. Occasionally the staff would peek in on us. Just as someone was nearby he asked me if I’m a filthy slut. I said, “Yes, Sir,” but of course he wanted to hear me say it. A little embarrassed, I said, “Yes, Sir, I’m a filthy slut.” He had me repeat it, louder. I squealed as I got more turned on while he fucked me hard. I started begging.

“What are you begging for?” he asked.

“Please let me come, Sir,” I cried out plaintively. When he let me come I growled a deep, animal-like growl and delighted in the amazing amount of pleasure coursing through my body. After what seemed like a long time, he pulled out and he slapped my pussy, which only served to make me come some more. I squirted a river as my pussy convulsed from only the smallest bit of physical stimulation. He stroked my body and grabbed my hair. I was in a daze after and I cuddled up to him as I lay over the puddle I had created.

We debated leaving or not, but after finding out that we weren’t keeping the staff there - they would be there til closing regardless - he had me get on my knees near the edge of the mattress, where he gave me a flogging. The owner of the club had talked with us after the last round, and I’m pretty sure he was watching me get flogged. I enjoyed knowing that everyone there could see what a horny slut I was. MasterDoc fucked me again from behind. I was a well-fucked girl.

We went home after that, and hung out on the sofa at his place, not quite ready to go to sleep. He said he was trying to decide if he should ravish me again before we went to sleep. He had me go get ready for bed and meet him in the bedroom. I sucked his cock again, making it hard and he fucked me, this time with me on my back. It was in the early hours of the morning, and since we weren’t at the club any more I had to be quiet. I struggled to keep silent as I came, he had to shush me a couple of times when I started making too much noise. I was such a lucky girl to have such amazing orgasms - and so many! He really is good to me. After the fucking, MasterDoc still hadn’t come, so he had me play with his ass as he stroked his cock. I’m getting quite good at massaging his ass to good effect. I got into it, pressing firmly and stroking the inside of his cheeks. I could hear him breathing heavy and getting closer and closer to coming. I kept up the massage and soon he came. I’ve learned by now not to stop massaging once he’s come but to massage for a bit longer to prolong his pleasure. It felt so good to make him feel good. I got aroused while doing it.

It was late, and after all that fucking we were tired. We cuddled for a moment, then turned out the light and went to sleep.

Swing Club, Part 1

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Last night MasterDoc and I went out to a new swing club - so new that it only opened last weekend. The unfortunate bit is that we were the only ones there (besides the staff). The fortunate bit is that there was plenty of space and we made our own fun.

We were a bit bummed to be the only ones there. (A couple of times women walked in to check the place out and one of them we had met at the pool party over the summer, but neither of them stayed or had their men come in.) The staff were friendly and we had the buffet to ourselves. Not to mention several rooms of mattresses, all ready to be used. After we had talked with the staff for a while and gotten settled in, MasterDoc flogged me a little bit. Then we made out on one of the huge beanbag chairs they had in the lounge. MasterDoc usually isn’t one for kissing (he doesn’t think he’s very good at it) but lately we’ve had some really lovely make out sessions. He stroked my pussy through my pants and I undulated my hips to meet the pressure of his hand. I reached down and stroked his cock through his pants.

He had me take my pants off (but not panties) and gave me the little red vibrator to play with. He blindfolded me and I sat there, exposed, playing with the vibe on my clit. After a moment, I could hear his voice in the other room. He had left me there alone, exposed. With the blindfold on I couldn’t tell when he came back but he slapped my thighs a bit. I wondered what he was going to do. I could tell when he was in front of me because there’s a small gap underneath the bottom of the blindfold. But when he moved off to the side I had no idea where he was. He had me take off my panties. I was aroused, my labia swollen, but I wasn’t wet. I asked for some lube and he not only smoothed some onto my pussy, he also got out a toy of mine that’s sat in the toybox for way too long. It’s a pink acrylic wand that’s three thick bumps on one end, and curved to reach your g-spot on the other. (I bought this years ago at Babeland so I don’t have a link to it.) He slid the bumpy end into my cunt and I played with the vibe on my clit as he fucked me with the toy. He had me gasping and begging to come in no time. He made me say it loud so everyone could hear, “Please, Sir, I want to come.” He made me hold off, while he continued fucking me hard with the toy. I was breathless, my g-spot being stimulated oh so much. I yearned to be able to come. While he kept me panting, he had one of the staff get a towel to put under me. Once the towel was in place he fucked me with the toy some more and told me to come. I screamed and moaned, the sound bouncing off the mostly bare walls of the club. There’s no way anyone in there could miss what was happening. I kept coming, hard, over and over. He leaned in to kiss my chest and I begged him, “Please bite me!” He bit the flesh and I have a small bruise there this morning as a reminder. I could feel my vaginal muscles clench and bear down on the toy and I groaned in pleasure some more. It seemed like I was able to come forever. Just as I was getting totally out of breath, he said, “That’s enough for you young lady,” and gently slid the toy out. I sat there, blindfolded, breathing hard and reached out to stroke his arm. We cuddled a bit and I took some time to recover.

The blindfold came off and he had me get dressed again. We nibbled on the buffet a little more and talked with the staff. He asked me if I was up for more and I was totally ready. We went off into one of the back rooms and stretched out on these four mattresses put together. He had me suck his cock until it was hard - really hard. Then he had me put a condom on it and get on top. I was still really wet from before and he slid in easily. I rode him, slowly at first as he told me to go slow and savor it. But I couldn’t keep up a slow pace for long as my arousal grew. I fucked him with all my energy and he let me come - again I came hard, screaming. I grabbed hold of him tightly and clenched him between my thighs. I ran my hands over his chest, fingers through the hair. My pussy gripped his cock tightly and he would thrust upwards into me deeper. I rode him until my thighs were exhausted. We cuddled after and I wondered if there would be more.

2008 in Review

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I didn’t have plans to do this, but I’ve seen some of my favorite bloggers post year end summaries for the past year and I decided to spend some time today reading through my entries to take a look at the year that was 2008. (I spent hours today re-reading my entries from this year. Damn, I write a lot!)

I started off the year having a great sex, albeit with the hindrance of prozac killing my libido and response. I didn’t consider myself a masochist at the start of the year, but in early February I changed that identification of myself. On the other hand, I started off the year bruising quite nicely, but now I barely bruise on my ass. I was also struggling with coming on command - not quite able to hold myself at a peak of arousal and not always able to come when permission was granted. Davey watched me get Dommed by MasterDoc and MasterDoc made me eat out of a bowl on the floor like a dog. MasterDoc and I continued doing shows for strangers.

In February I fucked a black guy for the first time in my life, and the entry was titled (at MasterDoc’s insistence) “BBC and Me.” My dose of prozac was lowered, which helped my libido and ability to come, but not by much (didn’t help my depression). MasterDoc decided we were going to lose weight together and we embarked on exercising and eating better. S. and I gave Davey a surprise threesome for his birthday.

In March I spent a lot of time reflecting on submission, what it means to me and why I do it. It’s been good to re-read those entries. I also waxed poetic about being face slapped. I suffered a bout of depression and clearly the lowered dose of prozac wasn’t adequate. It was also nearing the anniversary of the time I was sexually assaulted at a play party, and I still dwelled quite a bit on that.

In April I started off the month reflecting on why I enjoy public sex.  Davey, MasterDoc and I attempted double penetration but were unsuccessful (this is still true). I participated in sugasm for the first time. I wrote a bit about feminism and submission. We used a female condom for sex one time. I masturbated without permission and felt horribly guilty about it and confessed right away. At some point along the way I fell in love with MasterDoc. I had a challenging evening when we had a woman guest and I felt superfluous to the whole situation.

In May I proclaimed my average-ness. I started lusting after Photoshop and Dreamweaver to make my own site (I was still on blogspot at the time). And MasterDoc’s Puppy came for a visit. I had the first hint that maybe I could come without genital stimulation at some point. I purchased this domain and started trying to figure out how to get a blog up and running. I ended up going with wordpress, which I got installed for me.

My ass actually blistered a little bit after a spanking in June during one of our shows. I got called a pillow princess and reflected on my selfishness in bed, resolving to be less selfish. I discussed being assaulted three years ago at a play party and worked some more on dealing with the residual trauma from that. The swing club we frequent added a spanking bench, much to my and MasterDoc’s joy. I got swatted with a cane for the first time. I got good enough at riding the edge of orgasm that I could come when given the command (with genital stimulation).

I officially moved to kinkylibrarian.net at the start of July. (Looks like a few entries didn’t carry over when I made the switch. The old blog is still up, however.) I started talking about an interest in edge play like needle play and cutting. D.S. came for a visit and we had a very hot simultaneous orgasm. I contemplated many things like leading a double life, masochism and submission. I finally came without genital stimulation - and squirted too! I was on wellbutrin (in addition to prozac) for a little while by this time, and my sex drive had fully returned. I talked a little about early D/s experiences. I despaired over being denied orgasm, but was thrilled to have MasterDoc come in my mouth for the first time. MasterDoc and I had been seeing each other for a year by the end of this month.

In August I started participating in Half Nekkid Thursday, which I’ve done sporadically since. I struggled a bit with being a submissive and really opening myself up to someone - including giving MasterDoc my passwords to a few sites. We went to a hot (HOT) pool party. I started blogging over at Best Sex Bloggers. I spoke out about STIs and education. I had a very hot round of anal sex with MasterDoc, where I asked for more lube but then came really hard when he fucked me without adding lube. I enjoyed a moment of schadenfreude when I got to watch the online downfall of the guy who assaulted me (Jefferson). I don’t think I’ve blogged about the assault since - the experience of seeing him called on his bullshit by so many people really helped me heal a great deal.

September started out with me adding Babeland as an affiliate. (Still hasn’t netted me any money, but I still feel good about promoting that business.) I made the list of Top 100 Sex Bloggers. I also started reviewing toys, first for Lelo then for Babeland. Davey and I had a foursome while on vacation. MasterDoc and I gave an impromptu show one afternoon, then saw a couple in the evening. It dawned on me that our little shows technically make me a sex worker. I saw D.S. for one last time before he moved to San Francisco. I added Vibe Review as an affiliate at the end of the month.

In October, I put a toy into MasterDoc’s ass for the first time. I also wrote the terrific line, “I was a horny mass of sluttiness at that point.” I continued to try to get my head around the idea of him pissing on me. I wrote a little about dealing with depression while being submissive and how a beating can really make me feel better. MasterDoc made me come by slapping my clit. I talked about my early sexual and bdsm experiences. I had a bout of depression and cried during a scene - really cried - for the first time.

By November I could come at MasterDoc’s command quite well. I got philosophical about how change is an integral part of life. I came and squirted from being spanked at a swing club and later that night got fucked up the ass in public for the second time. One evening I became so turned on that I couldn’t turn off - and that ended up being the night that MasterDoc peed on me for the first time. I was so turned on and so deep into submission that I came as he peed on my clit. I went to the NYC Sex Blogger Calendar party and met a bunch of fellow bloggers. I also participated in Pleasurists for the first time. I come some more from pain and come again without being touched at all.

I started off December feeling cross with MasterDoc, but things were soon resolved and I wrote a post about how wonderful he is. He had a Domme-in-training come by for lessons and she fucked me with a strap on. The next night, a Dom came over with his three submissives and we had a fun bdsm orgy of sorts. I fisted a woman for the first time. MasterDoc figured out that he could use my new anal beads as a whip. Yikes. I fell ill with a stomach virus and actually turned down sex one day. But we used that time to go over my bdsm checklist and see what limits could be pushed in the future that perhaps we’ve been neglecting. We finished off the year going to a gangbang party last weekend.

All-in-all it’s been a hot year and I’ve come a long way with coming on command. I enjoyed reviewing my year via my blog but jeez, I really was at it for several hours. Thank you all for reading and I hope to have more adventures in 2009.