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2008 in Review

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Nadia
on January 1, 2009
in D/s, Uncategorized, assault, bdsm, best sex bloggers, caning, depression, edge play, exhibitionism, fisting, masochism, orgasm on command, pillow princess, piss play, sexuality and year in review
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I didn’t have plans to do this, but I’ve seen some of my favorite bloggers post year end summaries for the past year and I decided to spend some time today reading through my entries to take a look at the year that was 2008. (I spent hours today re-reading my entries from this year. Damn, I write a lot!)

I started off the year having a great sex, albeit with the hindrance of prozac killing my libido and response. I didn’t consider myself a masochist at the start of the year, but in early February I changed that identification of myself. On the other hand, I started off the year bruising quite nicely, but now I barely bruise on my ass. I was also struggling with coming on command - not quite able to hold myself at a peak of arousal and not always able to come when permission was granted. Davey watched me get Dommed by MasterDoc and MasterDoc made me eat out of a bowl on the floor like a dog. MasterDoc and I continued doing shows for strangers.

In February I fucked a black guy for the first time in my life, and the entry was titled (at MasterDoc’s insistence) “BBC and Me.” My dose of prozac was lowered, which helped my libido and ability to come, but not by much (didn’t help my depression). MasterDoc decided we were going to lose weight together and we embarked on exercising and eating better. S. and I gave Davey a surprise threesome for his birthday.

In March I spent a lot of time reflecting on submission, what it means to me and why I do it. It’s been good to re-read those entries. I also waxed poetic about being face slapped. I suffered a bout of depression and clearly the lowered dose of prozac wasn’t adequate. It was also nearing the anniversary of the time I was sexually assaulted at a play party, and I still dwelled quite a bit on that.

In April I started off the month reflecting on why I enjoy public sex.  Davey, MasterDoc and I attempted double penetration but were unsuccessful (this is still true). I participated in sugasm for the first time. I wrote a bit about feminism and submission. We used a female condom for sex one time. I masturbated without permission and felt horribly guilty about it and confessed right away. At some point along the way I fell in love with MasterDoc. I had a challenging evening when we had a woman guest and I felt superfluous to the whole situation.

In May I proclaimed my average-ness. I started lusting after Photoshop and Dreamweaver to make my own site (I was still on blogspot at the time). And MasterDoc’s Puppy came for a visit. I had the first hint that maybe I could come without genital stimulation at some point. I purchased this domain and started trying to figure out how to get a blog up and running. I ended up going with wordpress, which I got installed for me.

My ass actually blistered a little bit after a spanking in June during one of our shows. I got called a pillow princess and reflected on my selfishness in bed, resolving to be less selfish. I discussed being assaulted three years ago at a play party and worked some more on dealing with the residual trauma from that. The swing club we frequent added a spanking bench, much to my and MasterDoc’s joy. I got swatted with a cane for the first time. I got good enough at riding the edge of orgasm that I could come when given the command (with genital stimulation).

I officially moved to kinkylibrarian.net at the start of July. (Looks like a few entries didn’t carry over when I made the switch. The old blog is still up, however.) I started talking about an interest in edge play like needle play and cutting. D.S. came for a visit and we had a very hot simultaneous orgasm. I contemplated many things like leading a double life, masochism and submission. I finally came without genital stimulation - and squirted too! I was on wellbutrin (in addition to prozac) for a little while by this time, and my sex drive had fully returned. I talked a little about early D/s experiences. I despaired over being denied orgasm, but was thrilled to have MasterDoc come in my mouth for the first time. MasterDoc and I had been seeing each other for a year by the end of this month.

In August I started participating in Half Nekkid Thursday, which I’ve done sporadically since. I struggled a bit with being a submissive and really opening myself up to someone - including giving MasterDoc my passwords to a few sites. We went to a hot (HOT) pool party. I started blogging over at Best Sex Bloggers. I spoke out about STIs and education. I had a very hot round of anal sex with MasterDoc, where I asked for more lube but then came really hard when he fucked me without adding lube. I enjoyed a moment of schadenfreude when I got to watch the online downfall of the guy who assaulted me (Jefferson). I don’t think I’ve blogged about the assault since - the experience of seeing him called on his bullshit by so many people really helped me heal a great deal.

September started out with me adding Babeland as an affiliate. (Still hasn’t netted me any money, but I still feel good about promoting that business.) I made the list of Top 100 Sex Bloggers. I also started reviewing toys, first for Lelo then for Babeland. Davey and I had a foursome while on vacation. MasterDoc and I gave an impromptu show one afternoon, then saw a couple in the evening. It dawned on me that our little shows technically make me a sex worker. I saw D.S. for one last time before he moved to San Francisco. I added Vibe Review as an affiliate at the end of the month.

In October, I put a toy into MasterDoc’s ass for the first time. I also wrote the terrific line, “I was a horny mass of sluttiness at that point.” I continued to try to get my head around the idea of him pissing on me. I wrote a little about dealing with depression while being submissive and how a beating can really make me feel better. MasterDoc made me come by slapping my clit. I talked about my early sexual and bdsm experiences. I had a bout of depression and cried during a scene - really cried - for the first time.

By November I could come at MasterDoc’s command quite well. I got philosophical about how change is an integral part of life. I came and squirted from being spanked at a swing club and later that night got fucked up the ass in public for the second time. One evening I became so turned on that I couldn’t turn off - and that ended up being the night that MasterDoc peed on me for the first time. I was so turned on and so deep into submission that I came as he peed on my clit. I went to the NYC Sex Blogger Calendar party and met a bunch of fellow bloggers. I also participated in Pleasurists for the first time. I come some more from pain and come again without being touched at all.

I started off December feeling cross with MasterDoc, but things were soon resolved and I wrote a post about how wonderful he is. He had a Domme-in-training come by for lessons and she fucked me with a strap on. The next night, a Dom came over with his three submissives and we had a fun bdsm orgy of sorts. I fisted a woman for the first time. MasterDoc figured out that he could use my new anal beads as a whip. Yikes. I fell ill with a stomach virus and actually turned down sex one day. But we used that time to go over my bdsm checklist and see what limits could be pushed in the future that perhaps we’ve been neglecting. We finished off the year going to a gangbang party last weekend.

All-in-all it’s been a hot year and I’ve come a long way with coming on command. I enjoyed reviewing my year via my blog but jeez, I really was at it for several hours. Thank you all for reading and I hope to have more adventures in 2009.

Catching Up

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Nadia
on October 4, 2008
in D/s, anal, blow jobs, exhibitionism, orgasm denial, sex, slut and swinging
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Hi all. I’ve been quiet this week because it’s been a busy week. I’ve been kept busy at work, and I’ve spent a few nights at MasterDoc’s and away from my computer. That doesn’t mean I haven’t had some fun, however. Tuesday night was a quiet night with MasterDoc - we do have evenings of just hanging out from time to time. Wednesday night we got naked and had some fun. I really should blog things right after they happen because details quickly become fuzzy.

He used a variety of toys on me, getting me worked up. I was hoping he’d try the archer wand, but that ended up saved for Friday night. Like I said, the details of Wednesday night are a bit fuzzy. I gave him a hand job for a while (surprisingly I didn’t go down on him at all that night, which is highly unusual). I’m pleased to say my handjob skills seem to be generally improving. It’s amazing what a few bits of direction from a Dom can do for your know-how. He fucked me, and kept me right on the edge for quite a while, or at least it felt like quite a while. When he finally allowed me to come, I came, but not as hard as I would have if he had given me permission right at the peak of my arousal. He seemed disappointed that he missed the peak, as he knows my body so well.

He had me play with this cock and ass, and had me insert a toy into him for the very first time (very first time with me, that is). It was a wand that’s curved, so it worked well to hit his prostrate on the inside. It’s fun to watch the expressions on a man’s face as he gets off. I commented a couple of weeks ago about how it’s fun to watch a woman, but I really do enjoy watching a man as well. We kept playing until he came. (Actually I kept going with the toy even after, as I’ve learned that he doesn’t want stimulation to suddenly end when he’s come, but rather to continue a little after. I keep going until he tells me to stop.)

Last night, we went out to a swing club. It was really dead when we got there, so it was a while before we got down to playing. We took some time for cuddles. (Yes, this is probably disappointing to the people who wander into the room hoping to see sex, and there we are, fully clothed, cuddling. I needed some cuddles last night though.) I had a couple of drinks and felt generally better after the cuddling and the drinks. (I had been feeling kinda down.)

After things began to pick up, we went to the back room where we had cuddled, and MasterDoc had me suck his cock. I got it nice and hard and he told me to sit back so he could reach my cunt. I used the nea on my clit while he played around with me. He had a guy (one who I had fucked before but didn’t immediately recognize. Oh yes, I’m a big slut!) play with my tits in the meanwhile. Then he used the archer wand on me. Rowr. I think it’s even more fun when someone else is using it on you. I find that with penetration play I enjoy it more when someone else is doing the playing, whereas with clit play I prefer doing it myself much of the time. The big, bulbous end of the wand nudged against my g-spot. I so wanted to come. I was a horny mass of sluttiness at that point. So when he asked me if I wanted to get fucked, really wanted it, I just had to moan out that yes, yes, I really wanted to get fucked.

He put me on hands and knees and fucked me from behind. We had a nice audience by this time. He had me use a vibe on my clit while he fucked me. I was really turned on and moaning and crying out, “Oh fuck!” I begged for permission to come and each time he said, “Not yet.” I was a very eager, horny slut at that point. I like being at a club because I can be loud about my enjoyment. I can moan and cry out and scream. After a while of fucking, I asked for permission again, no I begged for permission, and he gave it to me. I came hard, but didn’t manage to push his cock out, which was a nice change of pace. He had it thrust deep inside me when he gave me permission to come. The orgasm rocked my body and I screamed out how good it felt. He would grab my hair every so often. I think the audience had a nice show.

He let me lay down to rest, and I caught my breath. By this time I was laying on my back, and the guy who fucked me before offered to work his fingers in me again (I remembered who he was when it was mentioned he was the guy with magic fingers.) and MasterDoc allowed him to do so. I was laying on my back, and a crowd filled the small room. The guy would finger me deep, hitting my g-spot while MasterDoc applied pressure on the outside. I asked for permission to come at will and was given it. I came really hard, really loudly, over and over again. Next, MasterDoc took over with his fingers inside me and the other guy pressed down by my pubic bone. They took their turns playing with me and it was heavenly.

MasterDoc asked if I was ready to be fucked again. I was quite ready. He had me get on top this time and I rode his cock, rocking back and forth. I love the feel of his cock inside me. I was a little tired, but my enthusiasm gave me the wherewithal to keep fucking him until he had decided it was enough. We relaxed for a bit and the crowd dispersed a little. Soon some other people were fooling around in the corner of the room, and it was getting crowded in there again, so MasterDoc had us get dressed and we prepared to leave.

All-in-all it was a terrific night. We headed home around 1:30, so it was relatively early, but I was feeling quite satisfied. (Oh, I nearly forgot to mention, he gave me a little bit of a flogging as I held onto the chains hanging from the St. Andrew’s Cross in the bdsm room. He had let me pack what toys I wanted last night, and I left out anything stingy but I knew I would like the thuddyness of the big flogger.)

Impromptu Show

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Nadia
on September 20, 2008
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Saturday started out quiet. I had plenty of time to catch up on blogging about the day before and MasterDoc worked on some organizing in his bedroom. It seemed like the whole day would just be us hanging out since we hadn’t heard back from anyone we had asked to see us. In the afternoon, I went to the store for some soda and got a call while I was there. It was from G., the lady who came to see us a couple of weeks ago who got her butt nicely reddened by MasterDoc’s hand. Apparently she and her hubby would be up to getting together tonight, so I said great and that I’d call her back once I got upstairs to talk to MasterDoc about timing.

I come home and tell MasterDoc and he says, “Great. Put on your collar.” Ok, I’m wondering why he suddenly wants me in my collar. He tells me that a guy who is interested in a show was in the area and he’d be over in ten minutes. Ten minutes! In that time period MasterDoc had to take a bath, I needed to shower, I was just getting dressed as the guy showed up. I took a couple of minutes to dry my hair and I put on a little makeup and made an appearance in the living room. In a very short period of time, the day went from being a little dull to being blogworthy thanks to two phone calls at just about the same time.

He had me get naked and suck his cock for a bit, and he was clearly still in the mindset of verbal humiliation. He had me look at the guy, which was difficult for me as always. MasterDoc had me lay down on the mat on the floor and he slapped my thighs a little as I played with my nea on my clit. Ouch. Then he decided to have me turn over and spank my ass, letting me continue using the toy on my clit. He not only used his hands and the slapper, he used the flogger on me as well - both on my ass and on my upper back. (As always avoiding the area around the kidneys because making your sub pee blood is not a good thing.) He had me turn over again, and play some more with myself for the audience. He asked if I wanted to get fucked and I said, “Yes, Sir.”

“Yes, Sir, what?” I really should know by now that I should say in full what it is I’m saying yes to.

“Yes, Sir, I want to get fucked.”

He made me wait for a little while, getting myself close to the edge of coming. Finally he came over and fucked me. We started out with me on my knees but I tripped and hurt my knee the other day, so I couldn’t do that for long. The guy suggested putting me on my back and so we fucked missionary style. The guy was allowed to hold my leg up while I was fucked. I had gotten myself close to coming while using the toy so I was on the edge of orgasm in no time. I begged for permission to come and wasn’t given it. He fucked me some more and I moaned out a plea to be allowed to come. He continued fucking me, not allowing me to come. I ached for orgasm at this point. He stopped fucking me and had me play with the toy a little more again.

I was close to orgasm from the toy when MasterDoc came over and started fingering me. I begged for orgasm again and this time he told me to come. Immediately I started orgasming. He had to put his hand over my mouth to quiet me since I screamed as usual. (I love me a loud orgasm. I lose myself in the moment and moan and scream out my pleasure.) I was a little sore from the night before (not enough lube and ended up bleeding in case you don’t remember). I bled a little again but I’m not terribly worried about it. It hurt a little while he fingered me but I still came anyway.

Tonight, I should be used by three people - MasterDoc, G. and G’s husband, Max.

After the show today, I had the thought that I’m actually a sex worker. I don’t always get the cash that comes from doing the shows but I do get treated to dinner afterwards. While doing the shows satisfies a kink and isn’t “work” in the traditional sense, I do need to make sure it’s as hot as possible for the guy paying to watch. I’ve been attracted to sex work, because the idea of getting paid for something I love to do is a really cool idea. I’ve stayed away from it because of the legal concerns but of course there’s nothing illegal about  getting paid to be dominated and fucked in front of someone. Of course, while I think this is cool I also realize that I should keep it to myself as plenty of people would be upset by it - like my job, my parents, etc. I’m not doing anything illegal but still there’s a stigma against sex work of any kind.

Slow Night; Good Orgasm

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Nadia
on September 20, 2008
in D/s, Uncategorized, bdsm, dom, exhibitionism, sex parties, slut, spanking and submissive
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After having the guest over in the afternoon, we went out that evening to a swing club. I was really horny and so glad to be having such a sex-filled day. Unfortunately, the club was slow. At one point I was one of only two women in the club. Now, granted, this is the perfect set up for MasterDoc to give me that gang bang he’s always threatening. But I guess he didn’t find enough guys suitable (he had his eye on three guys, but one turned out to be a jackass), or he didn’t feel in the mood to do it. We cuddled a bit in the back room (the one with the spanking bench) and at first that’s all we were going to do. But we got an audience of one guy stroking himself and so MasterDoc decided to flip me over and spank a bit. He started out caressing my ass and stroking my back. I had tensed up waiting for a spank but instead I got petted. I relaxed into it and enjoyed the sensation.

He had me pull my pants half down, so I was naked from waist to knees, as I lay face down on the bed. He started spanking me with his hand. He slapped quite hard but I was into it last night. It hurt but I was enjoying the pain. He slapped my ass for quite a while, I’m sure it got all red. I could hear a small gathering of an audience behind me. It sounded like the audience was into watching me get hit, and this only fueled his spanking harder. I was surprised at how long and hard he hit me, but I enjoyed being the submissive and trying to take all I could. He got out the leather slapper and slapped my ass some with that, turning it over to the whip end a couple of times. The spanking went on for a while, with me crying out when the pain got to be too much. It seemed like he went on forever. Just when I thought maybe he’d stop, just when he complained I was making his shoulder hurt, he would keep on going. My ass stung. The audience sounded like they were really enjoying watching a slut get spanked hard. Eventually, he stopped and had me get dressed. One guy talked with MasterDoc after about the local bdsm club and bdsm play in general.

 We wandered around the club a bit more, still next to no couples there, mostly single guys. After a break we found ourselves in the exhibitionists’ room. (Go figure. Would you ever expect us to be there?) We lay down on the bed and guys gathered around to watch. I sucked MasterDoc’s cock for a while. We made out a bit. It was all very sexy and slow moving. I really got into it. He had me play with my new toy (the nea) and get myself worked up and close to the edge. He’d finger me, then take his fingers out and have me lick them to wet them. He commented at one point about how the audience seemed to like that. He’d slide them in me, get me worked up, then take them out and have me lick them thoroughly to wet them. He asked me at one point if I needed lube and I said I was fine. It turned out later I probably should have had some lube (I bled a bit) but we all know that I tend to like things rough. In the heat of the moment I was having a good time while guys crowded around to watch him finger me. He’d slap my thighs in between fingering my cunt. I got so worked up and started begging to come. He made me say it louder, so the crowd could hear me. “Please let me come, Sir!”

“Are you a filthy slut?”

“Yes, Sir, I’m a filthy slut.”

He didn’t let me come right away, but instead kept fingering me while I kept playing with the nea on my clit. I was so worked up, and he’d say to me, “That’s it, keep it on the edge. Good girl.” I so wanted to come! He was working my g-spot inside and I wondered if maybe I would squirt when I came. I’d open my eyes every so often and see the men huddled around watching. One guy was stroking his cock while watching me. While I get a little shy (i.e., I can’t keep my eyes open) I do love being the center of attention. MasterDoc had me totally focused on my cunt and clit and I begged again to be allowed to come. After waiting a bit more, he let me come and I screamed out in pleasure. My muscles clenched and I’m surprised I didn’t squirt. I came and came and came. It was a really earth-shattering orgasm.

Afterward, breathless, I managed to get out a, “Thank you, Sir.” I lay down for a bit, catching my breath. The guy who had had his cock out said that he really enjoyed watching and would love to “be a part of your (MasterDoc’s) circle.” He implied that he would be glad to submit too and MasterDoc just thanked him and declined. MasterDoc had me give the guy a hand, however, and I stroked his cock for a while while other guys watched. Eventually MasterDoc decided that he had had enough and we got dressed. We hung out for a while longer, but things never picked up. I was still a horny girl, but I had had wonderful orgasms, so I couldn’t complain. *grin* We went home, getting bagels on the way as usual, and hung out for a while at home before getting to sleep.

Dirty Slut

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Nadia
on September 20, 2008
in D/s, Uncategorized, blow jobs, dom, exhibitionism, kink, orgasm denial, sex, slut and spanking
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We had a guest over for the first time in a while. I was feeling more shy than usual, but in a way that is hot - I felt more embarassed to be used as a slut in front of an audience and that humiliation was a turn on. Add to this the fact that MasterDoc was more into verbal humiliation than usual and it was a somewhat difficult scene in some respects. Yet, while I found it hard to be called a filthy slut so much, I was also really turned on. Humiliation is a hard kink to have, because you feel like you shouldn’t enjoy it so much. You feel embarassed and shy and yet your crotch is on fire.

MasterDoc had me suck his cock for a while, but the guy first asked why I was still dressed. So I was told to get up and get undressed for the man. I was quickly naked and back on my knees sucking cock. MasterDoc had me look at the guy as I did so, something he knows is difficult for me. I tried my best to be a good girl and make eye contact while licking and sucking. After a bit, he had me lay on my stomach for a spanking. He was rougher than I thought he would be, I knew that the guy watching wasn’t so much into bdsm as trying to broaden his horizons. At one point later on MasterDoc slapped my face harder than usual, and I had a momentary worry about marks (there are no marks, the man knows what he’s doing) and he’d grab my hair hard in between. While the roughness threw me off a bit, I kept in submissive mode and took what he gave me.

He fucked me in front of the guy, calling me a dirty whore during. I moaned at the feel of his cock inside me. I wanted so much to come. He got me to the edge but held me there and didn’t let me come. It was so hot being watched. After, he had me play with myself in front of the man, we were waiting at that point for another man to show up, and I had my legs spread wide while the man watched me stroke my clit. I was really wet during all this. The guy had a hard on from watching me. He asked MasterDoc if he could would have me suck his cock. MasterDoc declined, but had me lend the guy a hand for a while. I had this guy’s cock in one hand, MasterDoc’s in the other hand. How slutty, giving two handjobs at once! *grin*

The other guy never showed up, and the first guy had to get going. I was left having not had an orgasm and I was feeling horny. What made me even more horny was that MasterDoc has gotten back this medical device that’s supposed to help women orgasm easier. It provides suction on your clit and you use it a few times a week to improve blood flow. (The perks of dating a doctor! lol) He had me use it for a while and the sucking turned me on some more. He’s sending me home with the device and we will see how easy it makes it for me to come. Rowr. So I was all sorts of horny when we went out that evening.

Hot Night

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Nadia
on June 22, 2008
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I had a lovely night out with MasterDoc last night. We went to one of our regular swing clubs. Very few people were there when we got there, in fact we ended up chatting with the only couple there. Turns out they remember us from the party two weeks ago at the other club, the BDSM/swing party. They had seen him flog me while on the St. Andrews cross and later saw us fucking in the exhibition room. The point came up that it’s possible we scare potential couples off with the BDSM part of our playing. I had never thought of that. You know, the thought that not everyone thinks a flogging is hot never entered my mind. How funny is that. I mean, it’s a naked woman, how bad can it be? But the thought processes of a non-kinky person are such that they think, “That poor woman.” They don’t realize that despite the yelps of pain I’m enjoying myself. They don’t know that MasterDoc can relate to women in other ways other than beating them. (He’s a sweetie. Really he is. He’s a delicious mix of sweet and sadistic.) I’m so used to my lifestyle that it doesn’t occur to me that others aren’t into it. Maybe I spend too much time on Fetlife and CollarMe. lol To me BDSM and sex go hand in hand. Sex is so much more enhanced with BDSM involved.

We wandered around a bit and discovered that one of the rooms had a bed replaced with a spanking bench. And it’s a darn nice one. MasterDoc was so excited he had to go tell the owner he’s pleased. There’s also a small stocks in there, where you kneel on the pad and put your head and wrists in the stocks. Looks dreadfully uncomfortable. I kept going back and forth between a desire to try it and a thought of, “What are you crazy?” (But I think we know I’m a little crazy.) He spanked me on the bench a little bit, tried to see if he could fuck me from that angle, but I was too high up. As usual I’m too tall. But it was still hot as he pressed his clothed pelvis up against me, somewhat dry humping me. Rowr. I was really turned on last night.

I sucked his cock for a while and really got into it. I like when I get into it because I seem to do a better job, plus being into it is just more fun. I managed to keep it wet with my saliva and sucked gently but consistently. From the sounds that came out of MasterDoc’s mouth I think I was doing a fairly good job. (He’s been training me in what he likes for nearly a year now. Can you believe it, nearly a year.) After that, we wandered around a bit, checking out the couples who had arrived. No one seemed interested in playing with us. *pout* But of course MasterDoc decided that we would simply have to make our own fun.

We went back to the room with the spanking bench and again lay on the bed. I sucked his cock some more and then he took the crop to my ass a bit. As he was doing this, the owner came in to turn up the air conditioning and he pointed out that there’s a cane sitting on the table next to the bed. Oh my. I had never been caned before. At first MasterDoc says, “What are you crazy, she can’t take that,” but soon he’s curious, and I’m curious. And I’m premenstrual so as usual my pain tolerance is up. He swats me very gently at first and it feels lovely. Then he gets a little harder and it starts to hurt, but I still like it. The fact is though, he couldn’t get terribly hard swats from the angle he was in. I would be in serious trouble if he could get a good swing going.

He had me play with myself as I lay on my stomach and he swatted my ass. I was sopping wet from the spanking earlier, and the blow job and the spanking that was going on at that point. He decided to fuck me. As the English would say I was gagging for it. (That’s the best expression I know to explain how I felt. lol If you’re not familiar with it I’m not sure I can translate it into American with the same affect.) He had me put my ass up on a pillow and he made me beg to be fucked, loudly enough so others could hear. He fucked me and very quickly I felt like I was going to be able to come. I was so revved up and so horny and so into everything that was going on. I begged to be able to come but he held off a bit. I rode the edge like I’ve been training myself to do. So when he finally told me to come I came right away. I started squrting a fucking river, all over the pillow and sheet, he pulled out and the fluids just poured out of my cunt. He fingered me a bit and I screamed in pleasure the whole time. Why people didn’t come running to see the show, I’ll never know. Very hot. Their loss.

Shortly after, we ended up fucking again. This time, without my getting to the point where I ask permission to come he tells me at one point, “Come,” and instantly I do. Again I squirt a bit. This time, he wasn’t as prepared as he was the first time. You see, he has to make sure he’s thrust well in me when he allows me to come, otherwise my internal muscles push him out. This time no sooner had he said, “Come,” than he thought, “Oh no, the auto-eject!” Again he fingered me and god did I come and come. I mean, we usually have hot sex but last night was just exceptionally hot. I love how I react to his voice now and come on command. What an accomplishment! Someday I hope to be like S. and come just from the command, no stimulation. (So often she says I’m her slutty role model, but in this one thing she’s mine.)

We cuddled a bit (and talked a little about my negative blog entry from two days ago, but let’s not bring down the tone of this one. Let me just say that he’s really there for me and I really feel that he will always do his best to take care of me.). We were getting dressed when a couple came in and were pondering what the spanking bench was. We gleefully offered a demonstration and they watched, wide-eyed. This was fairly new to them although the guy had briefly dated a Dominatrix at some point. We ended up staying longer to talk to the couple, who were rather drunk I must say, but we had a nice time talking. The guy invited us back to their place but it was so so late at that point. Instead MasterDoc gave him his number and we suggested getting together Monday night since I might be seeing MasterDoc that night. (Now let’s just hope my period holds out til after!)

What a fucking hot night. *grin*

Why I Enjoy Public Sex

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Nadia
on April 2, 2008
in exhibitionism, sex and sex parties
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Generally, the more I blog the more I think of things to blog about. Today at work I had a random thought that I should blog about why I like public sex. But of course, before doing that I have to think about why I like public sex. I don’t think I’ve ever really thought about it, not in depth.

I’ll start off thinking about how I feel when I have public sex. Again, not something I’ve thought much about other than “it feels good.” But somehow, when there’s an appreciative audience, everything is a bit more intense. I don’t know why it should be that way, but I get off harder knowing that people are watching me and feeling turned on. Perhaps it’s a channeling of the energy that’s around. Their arousal fuels mine. Knowing that I’m making dicks hard is also a real self-esteem booster. I may be an average-looking chubby chick, but seeing my naked tits and wet cunt gets many men hard and horny. It’s arousing being arousing.

There’s also a thrill to be had in doing the taboo -you’re not supposed to have sex in front of others. I’m a bad girl for letting people see me naked and fucking. I find it actually quite liberating to break that taboo. There’s something freeing in being naked and not worrying about your body, but instead taking pleasure in it. For those moments I’m free from society’s fat-hatred because I’m not thinking about how I need to lose weight, but I’m thinking about how tingly my clit feels and how hot and horny I feel. I’m thinking about how hot the person fucking me finds me. And how some of the others around him wish they could be him. I think about how good my wet cunt feels - both to me and to the person I’m fucking. I think in having an audience I’m somehow more present in the moment and present in my body. I’m more aware of the sexual energy being generated. At that point in time I am hot because I feel so damn hot.

And knowing how hot it is to watch another woman come, I’m sure it doesn’t hurt that I know I give a noisy show when I come. There’s something terribly arousing about seeing someone orgasm. And it’s arousing being the person who others are seeing orgasm. It just adds to the hotness of the moment.

So why do I like public sex? It’s just generally hotter for me than private sex. The element of an audience adds something. Private sex is plenty hot in itself, but I love me an audience.